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AHSOKA

The moon was quiet.

The wreckage of the Venator still smoldered behind them, its skeletal hull torn apart by fire and gravity. The air carried the acrid tang of melted durasteel and scorched flesh, heavy and clinging in the lungs. Nothing moved now but ash swirling in faint currents of wind.

Before Ahsoka stretched row after row of graves, shallow but carefully dug, each one marked with a white helmet. Dozens of them. Too many of them. The helmets stared upward blankly, their visors catching the faint light like watchful eyes.

Hours ago, those eyes had been alive.

Her brothers.

Ahsoka’s muscles trembled with exhaustion as she dropped to her knees at the edge of the last grave. Dirt clung to her fingernails and the edges of her montrals, gritty with sweat. She pressed the final helmet into place, palms lingering against its cool surface.

The Force around her was thin, hollow, stretched like glass about to crack.

Her mind reeled back to the hours before — freeing Maul as a distraction, cutting Rex open to remove the inhibitor chip, the moment her blade turned on her own men. Her own family.

Her hands still shook. 

Behind her, boots scuffed against stone. Rex stood silently, helmet cradled under one arm. His face was carved from stone, mouth a flat line, but the redness rimmed around his eyes betrayed him.

Neither of them had spoken for hours.

Finally, Rex broke the silence. His voice was hoarse, rasped by smoke and grief.
“We should go.”

Ahsoka swallowed the lump in her throat. Her head bowed in agreement, a whisper barely escaping her lips.
“Yeah.”

They left the graves behind without ceremony, without words. The silence between them said enough.

The shuttle was colder than the moon.

They moved through the motions like machines, powering up the ship, checking systems, strapping in. Not a word passed between them. The silence was not peace. It was suffocating, pressing down on Ahsoka’s chest until she could barely breathe.

Her body carried her down the corridor toward the fresher without thought. She needed air. She needed water.

The fresher’s mirror caught her before she could turn away.

Ahsoka froze.

For a moment she didn’t recognize the figure staring back at her. Hollow eyes ringed with red, skin smeared in soot and dust, her montrals dulled gray by grime. Her lekku bore streaks of ash where fire had licked too close.

But then her gaze dropped lower.

Her arms. Her hands.

Blood.

Dried thick beneath her fingernails, cracked into the creases of her palms, painted across her skin in dark swaths. Some of it brown and flaking, some of it still tacky in places.

Not hers.

The sight hollowed her out.

Her chest heaved, but no air came. Her knees buckled and she lurched toward the sink, slamming her hands under the stream of water. She scrubbed violently, digging her nails into her own flesh, harder and harder until the skin burned raw. The water frothed red, then pink, then clear, then red again. It wouldn’t stop. It wouldn’t come off.

Not mine. Not mine.

Her vision blurred as tears spilled hot across her cheeks, falling into the sink, mixing with the blood. The harder she scrubbed, the worse it became — the smell of iron rising, clogging her throat, her stomach twisting until bile threatened to rise.

The Force surged in her mind, unbidden. A memory, a wound.

A thousand voices crying out at once. Her brothers, her friends, every man who had turned on her and fallen. Their deaths roared through her all over again — blasterfire, the thud of bodies hitting durasteel, the suffocating silence that followed.

And then — nothing.

Like the galaxy itself had been ripped hollow. Like a black hole, swallowing every sound, every presence, leaving only emptiness. The void pressed against her skull until her head rang, until her body shook.

I killed them.

They may not have died by her saber, but she had doomed them all the same.

I buried them. And still they’re here. Still on me. Still in me.

Her fingers scraped her own skin raw, her nails catching until tiny lines of new blood welled up bright against the old. She barely felt it. Her hands shook uncontrollably, smearing red across the counter as she braced herself against it.

She couldn’t breathe.

Her heart hammered, her picking up the rush of her own pulse, a pounding like war drums. Her vision tunneled, the fresher walls closing in, the mirror doubling and doubling until she didn’t know which reflection was real.

The thoughts crashed together, too many at once: Should have saved them. Shouldn’t have left. Couldn’t fight them. Couldn’t fight Rex. Almost killed Rex. Freed Maul. Lost the Order. Everyone is dead. Everyone is gone. It’s my fault. My fault. My fault.

She bent double, gasping for air, but nothing came. Her chest locked tight. A sob tore free, jagged, strangled.

And then — a sound.

A sharp, shrill beep.

The commlink on the counter lit up. Obi-Wan’s code.

The noise cut through the spiral like a blade.

Her head snapped up, tears streaking her face, water dripping from her trembling hands. For a heartbeat she simply stared at the signal. A single glowing thread in the dark.

Her breath hitched, a sob breaking loose before she could stop it. She gripped the counter hard enough to hurt, forcing her body upright, forcing her lungs to drag in air.

She splashed water over her face, scrubbing at her eyes until her skin stung, trying to wash away the weakness, the terror, the blood.

The mirror still showed a stranger. But a stranger who had to move. Who had to answer.

She pressed her palm flat against the counter, grounding herself, dragging in another trembling breath.

And reached for the comm.

There was no time for weakness.

There was still someone left.

Someone alive.

Polis Massa rose from the void like a pearl cracked open, its fragments glittering faintly against the stars. The station itself seemed small compared to the hulking shadow of the Venator still imprinted on Ahsoka’s mind. This place was untouched, clean, orderly. Not broken. Not ruined.

Their shuttle slipped into the hangar bay. Bright white lights blinded her after the ash-dark of the moon. The transition felt violent — from the silence of graves to the sterile hum of engines and droids moving with purpose.

Ahsoka’s hands clenched tighter on the controls. Every motion was stiff, mechanical, as though her body still hadn’t caught up to the fact that she was alive.

Ahsoka rose from the seat, her gaze never leaving the station’s entrance. She stood and glanced at Rex.

"Stay close," she said softly, feeling the weight of his presence beside her. The last few hours had been unbearable, and Rex was the only familiar thing left in this galaxy turned upside down.

When the ramp hissed open, Rex descended first. Helmet on again, armor scorched and smeared with dirt, he looked like every other clone she had buried. The sight hollowed her stomach.

As they stepped onto the cold surface of the station, Ahsoka’s eyes darted around. The medical station was a bit worn, the walls slightly aged, but it was functional.

They moved down the corridor, their footsteps reverberating in the hollow space. It was eerily quiet, save for the distant hum of equipment. Around the corner stood a cluster of figures — white-armored medics, a few droids, and one human dressed too finely for this remote outpost. Bail Organa.

The Senator’s face was lined with exhaustion. His cloak hung askew from long travel, and his eyes carried the deep shadows of a man who had not slept. Yet when he stepped forward, his voice was steady, formal, practiced.
“Commander Tano.”

Ahsoka flinched at the title but forced herself to nod. “Senator.”

Bail’s gaze flicked over her shoulder — and landed on Rex. His jaw tightened, his stance shifted, weight falling toward the guards behind him. The tension was immediate, sharp as a vibroblade.

“Don’t,” Ahsoka said, hand snapping up before Bail could speak. Her voice cracked, but she steadied it. “He’s with me. He’s not a threat. I’ve removed the chip from his brain. He’s himself again.”

The senator’s expression relaxed, though confusion still clouded his features. 

“You removed a chip from his brain?” 

Ahsoka opened her mouth, but it was Rex that answered for her.

“Inhibitor chips. They’re implanted in every clone trooper. They are meant to make us more compliant, more obedient. To follow orders without question.”

“Even against your own generals,“ Senator Organa deducted. 

Ahsoka’s chest ached. She stepped closer to the Senator, her voice low but firm.
“It wasn’t them. Not really. They never had a choice.”

Behind her, Rex removed his helmet. His scar from the surgery still fresh and visible. He didn’t add much — just a short nod, his voice gravel.
“It’s true.”

Bail’s breath left in a slow exhale. His suspicion didn’t vanish, but the horror dawning in his eyes was enough. He gave the smallest nod in return and stepped aside.

“So, how-” Organa started, but Ahsoka cut him off before he could speak.

“Where is Obi-Wan?” Obi-Wan had sent her the message, not Bail Organa. 

Bail’s eyes darkened with a hint of the same concern Ahsoka was feeling, and he nodded, silently gesturing for them to follow him. Without another word, he led them down the hallway.

The corridors of Polis Massa gleamed. White walls, polished floors, bright sterile lights that hummed softly. Everything smelled faintly of antiseptic and recycled air. It should have felt safe. To Ahsoka, it felt suffocating.

The station seemed almost empty. She had grown used to noise, to the constant backdrop of men’s laughter, the chatter of troopers, the grounding presence of her battalion. Here there was only silence. And the tap of her boots.

The door at the end of the corridor slid open with a soft hiss.

Inside, Obi-Wan stood by a window, his back to them as he stared out into the dimly lit space. His hand was stroking his beard, his usual habit when deep in thought. His eyes flickered as he turned, his gaze locking with Ahsoka’s. Relief was evident in his eyes, but there was something else there—a sadness that lingered.

Beside him, sitting calmly in a chair with his eyes closed, was Yoda. His wrinkled face was set in an expression of deep concern, his wise eyes opening slowly to acknowledge their arrival.

“Ahsoka,” Obi-Wan said, his voice gentle.

“Rex.” Obi-Wan's hand drifted to his left hip.

Rex’s hands shot up in a placating gesture, his voice calm but firm. “I’m not one of them,” he said, his eyes meeting Obi-Wan’s with a look of quiet resolve.

She barely heard what he said next. Her gaze had been pulled forward, through the transparisteel pane into the chamber beyond.

Her breath caught.

Padmé.

The Senator of Naboo was there, alive, pacing slowly with her hands braced against the swell of her belly. She moved in rhythm with contractions, her face twisting every so often in pain, but her presence lit the room like firelight in darkness.

Ahsoka couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t think. She rushed past Bail, past Obi-Wan, through the door before anyone could stop her.

“Padmé!”

Padmé turned — and then she was in Ahsoka’s arms.

The embrace was awkward, belly pressing between them, but it didn’t matter. Padmé clung to her as though she would never let go, her body trembling, tears streaking her cheeks.
“Ahsoka,” she whispered, voice breaking. “I am so glad to see you alive. So grateful.”

Ahsoka buried her face against her shoulder. Her chest shook with relief and grief all at once. She hadn’t realized how much she had needed this — proof that not everyone was gone, that some light had survived.

Another contraction hit, and Padmé gasped, hand tightening on Ahsoka’s. Ahsoka guided her quickly to the bed, fussing with pillows, trying to ease her down gently.

“Padmé—you’re—” Ahsoka’s eyes widened, staring at the roundness of her belly as though only now understanding. “You’re pregnant!“

Padmé gave a breathless laugh, brushing sweat-soaked hair from her brow. “My best-kept secret. Though… not much of a secret anymore.” She flicked her gaze past Ahsoka’s shoulder, toward Obi-Wan and Yoda waiting in the hall. The look she gave Obi-Wan was strange — sharp, layered with something Ahsoka couldn’t name.

Ahsoka frowned. But her eyes returned to Padmé. “Does Anakin know?”

Ever since she had become Anakin’s Padawan, Ahsoka had sensed there was something unspoken between him and the Senator of Naboo. At first she had thought it was only friendship — forged in the fire of the Invasion of Naboo years ago, tempered by mutual respect. But the longer she spent at Anakin’s side, the clearer it became. The way his eyes sought Padmé’s in every crowded room, the way her voice softened when she said his name. It was more than friendship. More than loyalty.

She never said it aloud. She didn't dare. Yet Ahsoka had always suspected. And she was almost certain that Obi-Wan — quiet, observant, ever watchful — had known too.

A smile tugged at Padmé’s lips, soft, bittersweet. “Yes. He was so excited. When I told him… he wanted to leave the Order. To move to Naboo with me. To raise our child together.”

Ahsoka’s heart clenched. Padmé’s eyes shimmered with a sadness that chilled her.

“Then where is he?” Ahsoka asked, voice breaking. “Shouldn’t he be here?”

But before Padmé could answer, another contraction ripped through her body. She cried out, clutching at Ahsoka’s hand.

The medical droid whirred forward, voice precise and clipped. “Miss, you must lie back. I must examine you.”

Ahsoka shifted to step aside, but Padmé’s fingers locked around her wrist. Her grip was fierce, desperate. She would not let go.

So Ahsoka stayed, seated at her side, hand tangled with hers as the droid began its work.

Padmé lay back against the white sheets, her face pale but glistening with sweat. The medical droid’s voice droned instructions with clinical precision, utterly detached from the tremors racking her body.

“Miss, the child is ready. You must begin to push.”

Ahsoka’s fingers were already locked in Padmé’s hand. She hadn’t expected it — the senator’s grip was iron, squeezing tighter with each contraction until Ahsoka swore the bones in her own hand might crack. She didn’t protest. She couldn’t. Padmé’s pain left no room for anything else.

The room was bright. Too bright. The white lights stabbed down from above, casting the air into a sterile haze. Every sound became too sharp: the hiss of oxygen, the beeping of monitors, the droid’s mechanical monotone. And Padmé’s voice. Her cries cut straight through Ahsoka’s chest, more raw than blasterfire, more piercing than any battlefield scream.

I don’t know how to do this.

The thought clawed through her mind. She had fought Sith Lords, survived battles, held the lives of men in her command. But this — this she had no training for. No experience. She was no healer, no medic, no midwife. She was helpless. And still, Padmé’s hand crushed hers, as though she alone could anchor her.

Ahsoka forced herself to breathe. To stay steady. If Padmé needed her, she would not falter.

Padmé’s face twisted as another wave of pain struck. She cried out, body arching, tendons standing out sharp against her skin. Her hair clung damp to her cheeks, strands plastered against her temples. She looked fragile and fierce all at once.

“Good,” the droid said tonelessly. “Again. Push.”

Padmé bore down with a guttural scream, nails digging into Ahsoka’s skin. Ahsoka leaned close, voice low and frantic, whispering words that felt clumsy but desperate to soothe. “You’re strong. Stronger than anyone I know. Just keep breathing, I’m here, you’re not alone.”

The minutes stretched like hours. Each contraction crashed like a wave, and Ahsoka felt herself drowning in it too — sweat soaking into her own tunic, her arm numb from Padmé’s relentless grip. She couldn’t remember the last time she had been this afraid.

And then — a new sound.

A thin, piercing wail.

It filled the room like a crack of light through stone.

The droid lifted the tiny, squirming form into gloved hands. “The child is delivered. A healthy male.”

Padmé collapsed back against the pillows, tears streaming freely down her cheeks. Her cries turned to laughter, broken but radiant.

The infant was red-faced, small fists flailing, his hair damp and faintly blond. His eyes were squeezed shut against the light as his mouth opened in another furious cry.

“Luke,” Padmé whispered hoarsely as the droid placed him into her arms. “My little Luke.”

Ahsoka couldn’t move at first. She could only stare — at the impossible smallness of him, the way his tiny chest rose and fell, the way Padmé’s arms trembled as she cradled him close. She rocked him gently, whispering soft words only he could hear, as though the syllables themselves carried magic enough to soothe him. Gradually, the harsh little wails gave way to hiccuping breaths, then to soft, uncertain whimpers. His face, still red and creased from the effort of entering the galaxy, relaxed as he curled closer into his mother’s warmth.

The medical droid stepped forward, its voice polite but clinical.
“Miss, you should attempt to nurse him now. Do not be concerned if he struggles at first. Infants often take time to learn.”

Padmé nodded, a flicker of nerves in her eyes quickly buried beneath determination. She shifted slightly on the bed, tugging down the neckline of her gown. Ahsoka, caught off guard by the intimacy of the moment, turned her gaze deliberately aside. Her eyes fixed on the chrono mounted above the door.

23:47 GST.

Thirteen more minutes and Luke would have been a tomorrow child, born on a new day. Not that Ahsoka even knew what day it was anymore. Time felt like water slipping through her fingers. The galaxy had broken apart; days of the week no longer meant anything.

“Look, Ahsoka.”

Padmé’s voice drew her back. Ahsoka turned hesitantly. Padmé’s hair had come loose from its braids, clinging damply to her temples, her face pale and shining with sweat. But she was smiling. Radiant. And in her arms, the child nursed quietly, the tiny motions steady, natural. Padmé’s gaze never left him, her hand stroking over the downy blond fuzz of his head.

“He’s hungry,” she said softly, wonder threading through her voice.

Almost without thinking, Ahsoka leaned closer. Something compelled her — something beyond words — and her fingers reached down to brush over the crown of Luke’s head. The soft hairs were still damp, sticking lightly to her skin, and beneath them his scalp was impossibly smooth, impossibly delicate. Fragile, like spun glass.

“He looks like Ani, doesn’t he?” Padmé asked, her voice trembling but sure, still fixed on her son.

Ahsoka swallowed against the lump in her throat. “Yes… yes, he does.”

Luke gave a tiny grunt, pulling away from his mother’s breast. Padmé adjusted him gently, whispering something Ahsoka couldn’t hear.

Padmé looked up through her tears, meeting Ahsoka’s eyes. “Would you… like to hold him?”

Ahsoka froze. Her mouth opened — and closed again. She had faced war, death, betrayal. But the thought of holding something so fragile made her stomach knot with fear.

Padmé smiled, faint but insistent. She adjusted her grip and guided Luke toward her. “Here. Support his head.”

Awkwardly, Ahsoka extended her arms. Padmé corrected her hands gently, shifting them under the infant’s neck and back until the weight settled against her chest.

He was so light. Too light, like he might vanish if she breathed too hard. His skin was warm, impossibly soft.

And then his eyes opened.

Blue. Startlingly blue. The same as—

Ahsoka’s breath caught. Luke blinked up at her, gaze unfocused but piercing, as though the galaxy had funneled itself into that tiny stare.

Her throat tightened painfully. For the first time since the Venator crashed, her tears came without guilt, without restraint. She let them fall, her vision blurring as she whispered hoarsely, “Hello there, little one.”

The door hissed open behind her.

Obi-Wan stepped inside.

His face was drawn, his eyes shadowed, beard streaked with exhaustion. He looked at Padmé first, then at the infant in Ahsoka’s arms. For a heartbeat, something in his gaze softened.

But Padmé’s smile vanished. Her eyes fixed on him with a frost that chilled the room. No words passed between them, but the silence was heavy, weighted with a history Ahsoka didn’t understand.

Confused, she turned back, looking between them. When Padmé didn’t speak, Ahsoka did. She lifted Luke slightly toward Obi-Wan, her voice trembling but steady.
“Obi-Wan… this is Luke.”

Obi-Wan hesitated, then looked to Padmé. She gave the smallest of nods, reluctant but real.

Only then did Obi-Wan step forward and take the infant into his arms. He cradled Luke with a gentleness Ahsoka had never seen from him, his features softening as he whispered something low, a greeting meant only for the boy.

Obi-Wan’s arms closed gently around the infant, Luke fussing as though sensing the shift away from his mother. Ahsoka hesitated, reluctant to let go, but Padmé gave her a small nod of encouragement. With careful, uncertain movements, Ahsoka transferred the child into Obi-Wan’s waiting hands.

She turned slightly away, catching her breath, still reeling from the weight of the moment — from the impossible fragility she had just held. Her back was to Padmé when it hit her.

A chill.

Cold like nothing she had ever felt before, like ice-laden tendrils creeping up her spine, seeping into her skin. It stole her breath, rooted her to the spot. A hand of frost pressed between her shoulder blades, shoving dread straight through her chest.

Ahsoka spun around, heart hammering — and froze.

Padmé was slumped against the pillows, her body slack, her head tilted slightly to the side. Her eyes, once bright and alive with fire, stared glassy and unfocused at nothing.

“No—” Ahsoka’s voice cracked. She stumbled forward, reaching Padmé’s bedside just as the monitor above her flickered and screamed its steady, merciless tone. A flatline.

She seized Padmé’s hand, desperate. Only minutes ago, those fingers had crushed hers with strength enough to make her bones ache. They had been warm. Alive.

Now they were ice.

“Padmé!”

Ahsoka barely had time to cry her name before two medical droids barreled into her, shoving her back with mechanical precision. The impact slammed her into the wall, knocking the air from her lungs. She gasped, reaching toward Padmé even as the droids took her place.

“Clear,” one of them barked in its tinny voice. A charge. A spark. Padmé’s body jerked violently on the bed.

The monitor beeped, then held.

“Again.”

Another shock. Another lifeless convulsion.

Her temperature reading plummeted across the display, digits tumbling down and down until they sank into the impossible — as though she were not dying but freezing from the inside out.

“No… no, no, no…” Ahsoka whispered, tears streaking down her face. She pressed a hand against the transparisteel glass of the monitor as if her will alone could hold Padmé’s spirit in place.

But the droids kept going, shock after shock, until it became grotesque, until Ahsoka’s stomach twisted with helpless horror.

The only sound left was the endless, unbroken wail of the monitor — a note of finality that matched Luke’s screams.

His tiny cries cut through the sterile air, raw and piercing, the same pitch, the same grief, as though mother and son were locked in one last shared moment of anguish.

And Ahsoka could only watch.

Luke was still crying.

Ahsoka kept rocking him, the infant’s weight pressed against her chest, his tiny body shuddering with each sob. It gave her hands something to do, something to hold on to. The rhythmic sway was automatic, a motion born of instinct more than intent.

She sat in a hard-backed chair just outside Padmé’s chamber. From where she sat, she could see the bed — covered now with a sheet drawn all the way up, white and stark against the sterile light. A sheet. That’s all it took to turn Padmé Amidala into a shape, a stillness.

And beneath it, the curve of her stomach was still visible. A cruel reminder of what had been.

Luke screamed again, his wail piercing, raw. Ahsoka didn’t hush him. She didn’t try to. He had every right to cry. To scream. To rage. If she could find the strength, if she had anything left inside her chest but ash and exhaustion, she would join him. She would scream until her throat tore. She would cry until she collapsed.

Instead, she only rocked him.

Her eyes burned, but no tears came.

She forced her gaze away from the bed.

To her right, around a small table, Obi-Wan stood with Rex, Master Yoda, and Senator Bail Organa. Their low voices overlapped in urgent tones, too far away to make out at first. She was glad for that. Glad to be left apart, to sit in silence with the weight of a newborn in her arms. Even keeping her eyes open felt like work.

But the voices tugged her back, drew her unwilling into the edges of their conversation.

“…to Alderaan,” Bail was saying softly. “My wife and I… we have always wished for a child. We could raise him as our own. He would have a home. He would be loved.”

Ahsoka blinked, wondering if she had heard him correctly. Her head felt heavy, her thoughts swimming. Alderaan? Bail’s child?

This was Padmé’s son. Anakin’s son.

The discussion rolled on, hushed but determined. Names cut through the haze of her exhaustion like fragments of broken glass.
“Palpatine.”
“Tatooine.”
“Sola Naberrie.”

They were weighing families, weighing legacies. As if Luke were a burden to be shuffled off somewhere.

Ahsoka’s stomach knotted. Tatooine? Anakin had family still living there? He had never spoken of them. Not once.

But this was his son. His son. Born into the galaxy only hours ago.

So where was he?

Where was Anakin?

The thought gripped her chest like an iron fist, squeezing until her breath caught. She turned her head back toward the chamber. Back toward the white sheet, the still form beneath it. It wasn’t Padmé anymore. Not really. The warmth, the fierce spirit, the fire that could ignite entire worlds — gone. What remained was only cold, stiff flesh. A body. Nothing more.

She had seen too many bodies lately.

Her voice cracked when it left her lips, a whisper more than a question.
“…Where’s Anakin?”

She hadn’t meant to say it aloud. But the words froze the room. The men stopped mid-sentence, their debate cut short, hanging heavy in the silence.

She turned her head slowly and caught Obi-Wan’s gaze across the table. His blue eyes looked worn, shadows under them deep, exhaustion etched into the lines of his face.

Her throat tightened. She asked again, louder this time, the words almost a demand.
“Where’s Anakin?”

The silence stretched.

Yoda was the one to break it, his voice quiet but steady.
“Join us, young Ahsoka.”

Only then did she realize she was already standing, her knees locked, her body moving without her willing it. She stepped toward them, the child still clutched to her chest. Luke had gone quiet now, as if he too were listening, as if the weight of the question was his as well.

Perhaps he also wanted to know where his father was.

Obi-Wan started, his voice rough, barely holding together.
“Ahsoka… Anakin…”

But the words faltered. His throat closed around them. Perhaps he didn’t know how to say it. Perhaps there were no words that could carry such a truth.

He didn’t need to say it.

Ahsoka saw it in his eyes — the grief, the guilt, the hollow wound where once there had been certainty. He didn’t have to speak. She knew all the same.

Pieces fell into place.

They had left together on a mission to rescue the Chancellor. Then Obi-Wan had gone to Utapau in pursuit of General Grievous. Anakin had remained on Coruscant. At the Temple.

The memory of the Force shuddered through her again — the thousand voices that had cried out in terror before the void swallowed them whole. Her brothers. Her friends. The Jedi.

No. Not her Jedi. Not anymore. Just… the Jedi.

Her voice, when it came, was flat. A fact recited, not felt.
“You were on Utapau when the Order came.”

“Order Sixty-Six,” Rex muttered from beside the table, his voice heavy. His gaze dropped, unable to meet hers.

Obi-Wan gave a tight nod. “Yes. I was lucky enough to survive. Most… were not.”

“There were clones with every general,” Ahsoka said. “Every knight. Every padawan on the front lines. The Order would have reached them all.”

Her words fell into silence. Yoda’s ears dipped, his expression dark and unreadable.

Ahsoka’s gaze lifted sharply. “What about Coruscant?”

“The Temple…” Her throat tightened. “Even the Guard and one or two battalions couldn’t have taken the Temple alone.”

Her words weren’t a question. They were an accusation.

Yoda’s eyes closed. His voice was low, almost a whisper.
“Alone, succeed they could not. But help, they had.”

Confusion churned in her chest, spreading into dread.

Obi-Wan turned to her, his expression unreadable, but his voice calm, measured, soft — too soft.
“We have been searching for the Sith Lord for a long time. The one who orchestrated all of this. The one leading Dooku, and the Separatists. The one hidden in plain sight.”

Ahsoka’s lips parted. A single, fragile word: “Who?”

“It was Palpatine,” Obi-Wan said. “The Chancellor. He was the Sith Lord all along.”

Her stomach hollowed. She wanted to feel surprise, disbelief — but instead there was only a slow sinking, a quiet horror that almost felt like acceptance.

“A team of Jedi Masters went to arrest him,” Obi-Wan continued. His jaw tightened. “He killed them. Slaughtered them without effort. It was he who gave the order.”

“And Anakin? Did he die at the Temple?” Ahsoka’s voice was quiet. Too quiet.

Obi-Wan’s eyes closed briefly, like the words cost him something to speak. When he opened them, his voice was heavy with sorrow.
“No, Ahsoka… Anakin turned to the dark side.”

The words should have hit like fire, like a blow to the chest, like drowning in ice water. But they didn’t.

Instead, she felt… nothing.

No shock. No heat. Just an empty, yawning hollow inside her chest, spreading wider with each passing second. She wasn’t shocked, and that was what terrified her most.

Because she had heard it before. Yesterday. On Mandalore.

From a voice she had not wanted to believe. From someone who should never have been right.

But Maul had been right.

And he had tried to tell her.

Her hands tightened around the child in her arms, knuckles whitening. Luke shifted faintly, as though sensing her tension. She drew in a sharp breath, steady, measured, but beneath it her chest ached, splintering, the pressure building higher and higher — waiting to break.

Ahsoka’s voice cracked the silence.
“Why?”

The word lingered in the sterile air like a challenge. Her eyes locked on Obi-Wan, unblinking.

“I—” Obi-Wan faltered. His gaze fell to the table, his hands curling into fists at his sides. “I don’t know, Ahsoka.”

Rex’s face twisted, a look caught between shock and confusion, his mouth parting wordlessly before clamping shut again.

Ahsoka’s chest heaved, her breathing quickening.
“What do you mean you don’t know?” Her voice rose, strained with frustration. “He turned to the dark side, just like that?” She shifted Luke into one arm, snapping the fingers of her free hand sharply for emphasis, before clutching him back to her chest. “That isn’t something that just happens to a person. So why? How?”

Yoda’s ears lowered, his voice deep and solemn.
“Afraid, young Skywalker was. Afraid of loss. Fear… leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate—”

“—leads to suffering, and to the dark side, I know,” Ahsoka snapped, cutting him off. The bite in her voice startled even herself, but she didn’t care. She had never spoken so dismissively to a Jedi Master before — to Yoda, no less — but reverence meant nothing now. “That isn’t a reason. That’s a lesson. I asked for a reason.”

Her eyes slid to Obi-Wan again, her voice shaking but firm.
“Master?”

Obi-Wan closed his eyes briefly, a sigh breaking from him like a man drowning.
“I don’t know, Ahsoka. I’m sorry.”

“Then how can you be so sure?” she pressed, her voice climbing. “How can you stand there and condemn him when you can’t even tell me why?!”

She knew it was true. Somewhere deep inside, she had felt the truth coiling since Mandalore. But she wasn’t going to let go without tearing her hands bloody first.

Obi-Wan’s face hardened, his tone shifting.
“When I returned to Coruscant,” he said slowly, each word like gravel, “the Temple was in ashes. I saw the bodies… Jedi cut down in the halls where we once walked. And then I saw the recordings.”

His voice dropped lower, hollow.
“He was there. Anakin. Leading the clones. Fighting the Temple Guards. Driving his blade through Jedi — one after another.” His throat tightened. “Not even the younglings were spared.”

Ahsoka’s breath caught in her chest. She held Luke tighter, so tight the child stirred, mewling faintly against her.

Obi-Wan’s eyes flickered, grief breaking through the cracks in his mask. “I told Padmé. She didn’t want to believe me. She flew to Mustafar. I hid aboard her ship. And there… I confronted him. We fought. I…” He broke off, swallowing hard, gaze darting away as though finishing the thought would break him. His voice was quieter when he continued. “She was already in labor. I brought her here.”

Silence lingered, until Yoda’s gravelly voice drew her attention away.
“Palpatine, I confronted. The true Sith Lord, revealed he was. Long hidden, long patient. Stronger… than any I have faced in many lifetimes. Defeat him, I could not. Escape I had to, with Senator Organa’s aid.”

Bail straightened, his face grim, his voice soft but carrying.
“Only hours before… after the Jedi attempted to arrest him, the Chancellor called an emergency session of the Senate. He claimed the Jedi were traitors, that they had conspired to overthrow the Republic. He painted himself the victim of an assassination plot.” Bail’s mouth twisted, bitter. “And then he declared the Republic would be reorganized into the first Galactic Empire. With him as Emperor.”

His voice cracked faintly. “The Senate… applauded.”

The words hung in the sterile air like a funeral knell.

Ahsoka swayed where she stood, Luke clutched against her chest.

“And none of you knew?”

“Ahsoka—” Obi-Wan began.

“No!” Her shout cracked the air. Luke startled in her arms, his tiny body twisting, fussing.

“You mean to tell me that Anakin — my master, my friend, my brother — turned to the dark side for reasons none of you can even guess at? That he attacked the Jedi Temple? That he decided to fight you on Mustafar?” Her breath tore in and out of her chest, uneven, her whole body trembling.

Luke’s cries grew louder, echoing her agitation. She shifted him back against her shoulder, rocking him with frantic, uneven motions.

“And you—” she snapped her gaze toward Bail, her voice sharp and wild. “You mean to tell me that the Chancellor can just kill thousands of people and then declare himself Emperor, and no one bats an eye?”

Her laugh broke out sharp, ragged — not mirth, not really, but something cracked and frayed.
“Oh yes, let’s not forget,” she went on, her words tumbling too fast, “that this same man also happens to be the Sith Master everyone’s been chasing for over a decade. And where was he? Right in front of us! Sitting in the Senate. Leading the Republic. Collecting emergency power after emergency power!”

By the end, the laugh turned into a stuttering giggle. She pressed her lips together, but it slipped out again, manic and brittle. She felt Rex’s eyes on her, wary, the way someone looks at a wounded animal about to snap. Obi-Wan’s gaze only sank lower, guilty, heavy.

“I’d clap,” she said, her voice shaking, “but my hands are occupied.” She adjusted Luke against her, the baby fussing, squirming at her tension.

Her eyes found Obi-Wan’s again, hardening, sharp. “And you,” she hissed, voice trembling with fury. “You were there. You were both there.” She glanced at Yoda. “On Coruscant. At the Temple. You two — the Jedi Council — you want to tell me you never noticed? That we were being played like a cheap kazoo by this Darth Sidious? That none of you saw what was happening to Anakin?”

No one answered.

“And now look where we are!” Her voice broke, volume tumbling into something rawer, more jagged. “I mean—” She caught her breath, a tear slipping free before she wiped it away roughly with the back of her wrist. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t there. I wasn’t there when he needed me. But you were.”

Her eyes locked on Obi-Wan’s, burning. “You were his master. His mentor. His friend. His brother. And you never noticed?”

The silence pressed in, suffocating.

Her chest heaved. She looked down at Luke, his tiny face scrunched, his cries rising higher, piercing. Her voice cracked, barely audible now.
“I’m sorry. I just… I just don’t understand how this could happen.”

She wanted to rake her hands over her head, to claw at her montrals, anything to bleed off the storm boiling in her chest — but her arms were full, her hands trembling as they clutched the only living piece of Anakin Skywalker left.

“I can’t,” she whispered. Then louder, shaking her head. “I can’t—”

Before anyone could stop her, she turned on her heel and stormed out. The door hissed open, the sterile lights of the corridor spilling over her as she walked, Luke wailing against her shoulder.

Her boots echoed down the empty hall. She didn’t know where she was going, only that she couldn’t be in that room another second. Her breath came fast, sharp, her heart hammering. After what felt like forever, her knees buckled. She slid down the wall, curling around Luke, clutching him close as his cries filled the empty corridor.

She pressed her cheek to his downy head, eyes squeezed shut. I don’t understand. I don’t understand.

The sound of soft boots reached her ears. A pause. Then, slowly, Obi-Wan stepped into view.

He didn’t speak at first. Only looked at her, his face carved from grief.

Luke‘s cries had quieted to soft hiccups, his little fists clutching at the fabric of her tunic.

“Ahsoka,” Obi-Wan said softly.

She flinched at his voice, her jaw tightening. Her eyes stayed locked on Luke. “Don’t.”

Obi-Wan crouched a few feet away, leaving a careful distance between them. His eyes flicked to the child in her arms, then back to her face. He looked tired — more tired than she had ever seen him — but steady.

“I’m sorry,” he said quietly.

Ahsoka barked out a sharp laugh, bitter and humorless. “You keep saying that. Sorry. For what? For Anakin? For Padmé? For the Order? For me?” Her voice cracked. “Which one is it, Master Kenobi? Or do you just pick at random?”

Obi-Wan swallowed, the words catching in his throat. “For all of it,” he admitted quietly. His gaze dropped. “For not seeing. For not stopping it. For failing him.”

His voice faltered, then steadied. “And… for failing you.”

Ahsoka’s head snapped toward him. He held her gaze this time, even as shame flickered in his eyes.

“I should have defended you,” Obi-Wan said, voice low and raw. “When the Council put you on trial. I knew you — I know you. And yet… I let myself be swept along by their doubts. By my own fear of being wrong. I didn’t stand for you as Anakin did. His belief in you never wavered, not for a moment. I’m sorry that mine did. I’m sorry that we cast you aside, that the Order failed you as much as it failed him.”

The words hit her harder than she wanted to admit. She clenched her jaw, staring down at Luke’s tiny fist clutching her tunic. She had told herself a thousand times that she didn’t need their apologies. That she was past it. But hearing it now… from him… something twisted painfully in her chest.

Obi-Wan pressed on, his voice heavy. “I tried, Ahsoka. Force help me, I tried. With Anakin. With all of it. But he hid so much. He trusted me, yes, but not enough. And I… I thought we had more time.”

Ahsoka wanted to scream at him. To rage. To cast all of her pain at Obi-Wan, make him the target of her fury, the vessel for her grief. She wanted to blame him for every wrong — for Anakin’s fall, for Padmé’s death, for the Jedi’s blindness. For hers.

But the fight drained out of her like air leaking from a cracked hull.

For all his wrongs, Obi-Wan wasn’t to blame. At least… he wasn’t the only one.

She wasn’t there either. She had walked away from the Order. She had walked away from Anakin. She wanted to believe she’d never left him — that, in her heart of hearts, they had always stayed with each other. But that wasn’t true. She hadn’t seen him for almost two years. She wasn’t there when he needed her most.

The truth stung: she wasn’t there.

Her voice broke into the silence, quiet at first but sharp. “Do you know what it felt like? When the clones turned on us?”

Obi-Wan’s shoulders slumped. “Yes,” he whispered. His eyes flickered shut, as if bracing against a wound that never healed. “We all felt it. In the Force.”

Ahsoka shook her head, clutching Luke tighter against her. “And now there’s only silence. Like we never existed. Like the Jedi were nothing but a dream, erased in a day.”

Her voice grew louder, trembling. “And how can they follow him? How can the galaxy, how can the Republic — the Empire now — support a man who could do this? Who could order an entire people murdered in a matter of hours and then stand there, smiling, while the ashes still smolder?”

Her eyes searched Obi-Wan’s face. “Where is the outrage? Where is the outcry?”

Obi-Wan shook his head, bitterness twisting his features. “There was none. No protest. No resistance. In fact…” He hesitated, pain flickering across his face. “They cheered, Ahsoka. The Senate. The people. They cheered as he declared himself Emperor. As he promised them peace through tyranny. They applauded as the galaxy fell.”

Ahsoka’s breath caught. She wanted to disbelieve him. But she couldn’t.

Obi-Wan’s voice softened, heavy with regret. “The Republic had already lost faith in us. The Jedi Council… we had become too involved in politics. Too close to the Chancellor. To war. We were no longer peacekeepers, but generals. Not counselors, but politicians. Blind to the darkness walking beside us. Blind until there was nothing left.”

Silence stretched between them, heavy and suffocating.

Ahsoka lowered her gaze to Luke. His little chest rose and fell against her arm, his tiny features so achingly familiar. He looked so much like Anakin. It was unbearable.

Her throat tightened. Slowly, she looked up, fixing Obi-Wan with an unblinking stare. “Did you kill him?”

Obi-Wan froze. His mouth opened, then closed again. He looked away, but she pressed, her voice sharper, breaking.

“Did you kill my brother, Obi-Wan?”

Tears welled in his eyes. His lips trembled, and finally, he gave a single, broken nod. “Yes.”

Ahsoka’s heart hollowed, but no fire rose to fill the space. No rage, no madness. Just grief, layered over grief, until she felt she might sink beneath it. She had nothing left.

“How?” she asked. Her voice was small.

Obi-Wan forced himself to meet her gaze. His voice cracked. “I stabbed him in the heart. And I left him on Mustafar.”

The words echoed like a death knell.

Ahsoka stared at him for a long moment, numb. Then, softly, she asked the question that terrified her most.

“Did he suffer?”

Obi-Wan shook his head, though his eyes glistened. “I don’t think so.”

The silence that followed was absolute.