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The final notes of Super bled into the humid silence of the practice room, replaced by the ragged symphony of thirteen exhausted bodies. Mirrors, fogged with the ghosts of their exertion, reflected fractured images of heaving chests and sweat-darkened shirts.
The air itself felt thick—a stew of salt, synthetic flooring, and the sharp, clean bite of cedarwood cologne clinging stubbornly to S.Coups despite hours of rehearsal.
Jeonghan leaned against the cool glass, gulping air that did little to cool the furnace in his lungs. His muscles screamed, every beat of his pulse a dull hammer against his temples.
Across the room, S.Coups stood like a monolith, shoulders broad and tense beneath damp black fabric, surveying the scattered members with a leader’s critical eye. That gaze, sharp as flint, finally landed on Jeonghan.
“Yoon Jeonghan.” S.Coups’ voice cut through the tired murmurs, low and rough, instantly commanding the room’s attention. He crossed the space in measured strides, the rhythmic thud of his sneakers echoing Jeonghan’s own frantic heartbeat. “That transition into the second chorus. Your timing was off. Again.”
Jeonghan met his leader’s stare, forcing nonchalance into his slouch. “Was it? Felt fine from here.”
S.Coups didn’t break stride. He stopped inches away, the heat radiating off his body like a physical force, the cedarwood scent intensifying, mingling unpleasantly with the raw tang of sweat.
Before Jeonghan could blink, a strong hand fisted in the sweat-soaked front of his white t-shirt, hauling him upright and slamming his back against the fogged mirror. The impact jarred his teeth, cold glass seeping through the thin fabric to meet the sweat on his skin.
“Fine?” S.Coups growled, leaning in. His free hand braced against the mirror beside Jeonghan’s head, caging him. Their chests were almost touching, rising and falling in ragged sync.
Jeonghan could feel the damp heat radiating from S.Coups’ skin, see the individual beads of sweat tracking paths down his neck, disappearing beneath the collar of his shirt. “You were half a beat behind Mingyu. Every. Single. Time.”
S.Coups’ thigh slid deliberately between Jeonghan’s legs, pressing high and firm against his inner thigh, a shocking intrusion of intimate pressure.
Jeonghan’s breath hitched, trapped in his throat. His pulse wasn’t just in his temples now; it roared in his ears, a frantic drum solo drowning out the distant thump of the building’s ventilation system.
He could feel the hard muscle of S.Coups’ leg through the thin fabric of his own sweatpants, feel the faint tremor in the leader’s grip on his shirt.
Too close. Too fucking close.
Jeonghan’s gaze snapped up, locking onto S.Coups’ face. The leader’s jaw was clenched tight, a vein pulsing faintly at his temple. But it was his eyes that arrested Jeonghan – dilated pupils swallowing the dark brown almost entirely, leaving only a thin ring of intensity.
They weren’t just angry; they were predatory, burning with a raw, untamed authority that vibrated in the scant space between them. It wasn’t just critique; it was a display of dominance, pure and simple.
A wave of heat, thick and shameful, surged through Jeonghan’s veins, pooling low in his belly. It warred violently with a spark of fury igniting in his chest. How dare he? How dare he manhandle him like this, use his size, his position, his… his fucking smell to corner him?
S.Coups leaned in fractionally closer, his breath hot against Jeonghan’s ear, the growl dropping to a rough, intimate rasp that vibrated through Jeonghan’s bones. “Who choreographed this routine, Yoon Jeonghan?”
The question hung, heavy and dangerous.
Jeonghan forced his lips into a smirk, a brittle shield against the confusing storm inside him – the unwanted arousal coiling tight alongside the seething anger. He tilted his head, meeting that burning gaze head-on, letting his own voice drip with a feigned, lazy amusement that masked the tremor he fought to suppress.
“You did, Cheol.”
S.Coups’ eyes narrowed. The pressure of his thigh increased, grinding deliberately. Jeonghan’s fingers twitched at his sides, nails digging into his palms.
A muscle ticked in S.Coups’ jaw. His grip tightened on Jeonghan’s shirt, knuckles whitening. When he spoke again, the words were a low, deliberate rumble, meant for Jeonghan alone, yet carrying an undeniable weight that silenced the room further.
“Then act like you remember who’s in charge. Who’s… Daddy here?”
The crude, unexpected word, laced with such undisguised command, slammed into Jeonghan with the force of a physical blow. The heat flared, white-hot and undeniable, warring with the fury that threatened to choke him.
He swallowed hard, the sound loud in the sudden, breathless silence. He held S.Coups’ gaze, the leader’s dilated pupils reflecting his own trapped image back at him – flushed, breathless, pinned.
The smirk stayed plastered on Jeonghan’s face, a mask cracking at the edges. He forced the words out, light, almost teasing, but the undercurrent was pure, venomous defiance.
“You win this round, Daddy.”
Inside, the fury ignited into an inferno.
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The dorm shower’s steam offered no sanctuary. Scalding water beat down on Jeonghan’s bowed shoulders, but it couldn’t burn away the phantom pressure, the phantom scent. Cedarwood and salt.
He scrubbed viciously at his collarbone where S.Coups’ breath had hitched hot and damp against his skin, the rough loofah scraping his flesh raw.
His scent. His dominance. His fucking thigh grinding between Jeonghan’s legs like he was nothing more than an inconvenient obstacle. The cheap, floral body wash was a losing battle against the memory of it.
He squeezed his eyes shut, water stinging his lashes. The image flashed, relentless: S.Coups’ dilated pupils, dark and hungry with unchecked authority. The possessive grip on his shirt. The low, guttural growl of ‘Daddy’.
It sent a fresh wave of heat crawling up his neck, shameful and unwanted. His cock twitched traitorously against his will, a humiliating echo of the arousal that had flooded him when pinned, a response his fury couldn’t seem to extinguish.
His gaze dropped to his left wrist. Even under the pounding water and harsh fluorescent light, the marks were unmistakable. Four distinct, angry red ovals blooming against the pale skin where S.Coups’ fingers had bitten in.
Not bruises yet, but they would be. A brand. A reminder of his position beneath the leader’s thumb. He pressed his thumb hard into one, welcoming the sharp bite of pain. Good. Remember this.
A dull ache throbbed low in his spine, radiating from where the mirror’s unyielding surface had slammed into his vertebrae. Every shift of his weight sent a fresh pulse of discomfort, another physical testament to the encounter.
He braced his hands against the slick tiles, head hanging low, water streaming over his face like tears he refused to shed.
Other images intruded, sharp and unwelcome: S.Coups last week, catching Wonwoo off-guard after a vocal session. He’d bent the taller man effortlessly over a studio monitor speaker, one broad hand planted between his shoulder blades, the other casually adjusting Wonwoo’s stance. “Arch properly, Wonwoo-yah. You look sloppy.” Wonwoo’s flushed, obedient silence. The quiet power radiating from S.Coups.
Then, the van ride home two nights ago. Mingyu, sprawling across the back seat, legs akimbo. S.Coups leaning close, ostensibly adjusting the maknae’s hoodie strings, his knuckles brushing Mingyu’s throat. Jeonghan had caught the low murmur, meant only for Mingyu’s ears: “Take it, Gyu. Be good.” Mingyu’s sharp intake of breath, the way his eyes had fluttered shut for a split second. Obedience. Submission.
Always the giver. Never the receiver. The realization struck Jeonghan like a physical blow, colder than the shower spray. S.Coups doled out orders, dominance, touches that bordered on possession.
He pinned, he commanded, he took. But Jeonghan had never seen him taken. Never seen him lose that ironclad control. Never seen him bent, broken, begging.
S.Coups fucked, but he didn’t get fucked. He commanded, but he didn’t submit. He touched, but he wasn’t touched.
He thought he was untouchable. Invincible. Daddy.
Jeonghan slammed his fist against the wet tile. The sharp crack echoed in the small stall. A raw, jagged sound ripped from his throat, swallowed instantly by the drumming water.
Untouchable? We’ll see about that.
The loofah lay discarded on the floor. He scrubbed again, harder, until his skin burned crimson. The cedarwood scent was gone, scrubbed away. But the fury? The humiliation? The need to see S.Coups broken?
That was just beginning to bloom.
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Moonlight sliced through the dorm’s blinds, painting cold stripes across Jeonghan’s rumpled sheets. He lay curled on his side, knees drawn up, but sleep was a taunting stranger. Behind his closed eyelids, the practice room played on a loop: the thud of his back hitting the mirror, the cedarwood-and-sweat chokehold of S.Coups’ scent, the low, graveled demand—“Who’s Daddy here?”
A fresh wave of humiliation scalded him. His hand fisted in the sheets. Then, slowly, deliberately, it slid downward, beneath the waistband of his sleep pants. His own touch was rough, almost punishing, as he palmed his half-hard cock. Not pleasure. Not yet. Fuel.
He squeezed his eyes tighter. The scene shifted.
Now it was S.Coups on his knees.
Not in the practice room. Somewhere dim, private. Jeonghan’s own bedroom, maybe. The leader’s broad shoulders were slumped, head bowed. Sweat-damp hair clung to his forehead, obscuring those burning eyes. Gone was the alpha swagger, the untouchable command. In its place—trembling. Raw, exposed vulnerability.
And around his throat—a collar.
Thick, black leather, stark against the tan skin. A simple O-ring gleamed dully in the low light, resting just above the frantic pulse hammering in S.Coups’ throat. Jeonghan’s fantasy-self stood over him, clothed in shadow and power. One bare foot nudged S.Coups’ bent knee, forcing his legs wider apart on the cold floor. A low whimper escaped the leader’s lips.
Perfect.
Jeonghan’s hand tightened around his own length, stroking slowly, the friction building heat low in his belly. In his mind, his other hand fisted in S.Coups’ hair, yanking his head back. Forced his gaze upward.
“Look at me.” Jeonghan’s voice in the fantasy was ice and velvet. Nothing like his usual teasing lilt. It was command, absolute.
S.Coups’ eyes flew open. They weren’t dilated with dominance now. They were wide, wet at the rims, pupils blown with fear… and something else. Something desperate. His lips, usually set in a firm line of control, trembled.
“P-Please…” The word was a ragged scrape of sound, so unlike the growl that haunted Jeonghan.
Jeonghan’s fantasy-self leaned down, his breath ghosting over S.Coups’ ear. He remembered the leader’s own growl, the possessive rumble of ‘Daddy’. He twisted it now, warped it into the weapon he needed.
“You’ll call me something else before this ends,” he murmured, his free hand trailing down to trace the leather collar, pressing just enough to make S.Coups gasp. “Won’t you, Seungcheol?”
The use of his real name, stripped of title, made the leader flinch. A tear escaped, tracking a slow path down his cheek.
“Y-Yes… S-Sir?” S.Coups stammered, voice breaking.
Jeonghan’s thumb swiped the tear away, the touch deceptively gentle before his grip tightened on S.Coups’ jaw. “Try again.”
He watched the struggle play out across S.Coups’ face – pride warring with terror, defiance crumbling into surrender. The leader’s body shuddered, a full-body tremor of defeat. When he finally spoke, it was barely a whisper, choked and raw, laced with a humiliation so deep it mirrored Jeonghan’s own earlier shame.
“Y-Yes… Daddy.”
The word, his word, spoken in that broken whimper, shattered something in Jeonghan. Pleasure, sharp and electric, ripped through him. His hips jerked off the mattress, his hand working his cock furiously now, chasing the release that suddenly felt like victory. He pictured S.Coups collapsing forward, forehead pressed to his bare foot, shoulders shaking with silent sobs, the collar gleaming like a brand of ownership.
“Mine,” Jeonghan gasped aloud into the dark room, the single word a vow.
He came with a choked groan, back arching, spilling over his knuckles. The image burned behind his eyes: S.Coups collared, broken, his.
Panting, sweat cooling on his skin, Jeonghan stared at the moonlight on the ceiling. The sticky warmth on his hand was proof. Not just of release, but of resolve.
The fury hadn’t abated. It had found its focus. Its purpose.
You win this round, Daddy? he thought, lips curling into a smile devoid of warmth.
Just wait.
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The dorm living room was a cave of shadows at 2 AM, illuminated only by the sickly blue glow of a muted variety show replaying on the TV. Empty snack bags littered the low table, the air thick with the cloying sweetness of stale popcorn and the sharper, cleaner bite of soju.
Jeonghan, Wonwoo, and Mingyu sat huddled on the floor, backs against the worn couch, knees almost touching – an island of conspiratorial silence in the sleeping dorm.
Jeonghan swirled the clear liquid in his small glass, watching it catch the dim light. The faint, persistent ache in his lower back was a dull echo. But it was the bracelet of faint, fingerprint-shaped bruises circling his left wrist that held his attention.
He traced the marks with his thumb, the touch sending a phantom jolt of memory through him: cold mirror, hot breath, the crushing grip, the growl of ‘Daddy’. The shameful heat that had followed. The fury that had bloomed like poison in its wake.
He took a slow sip, the soju burning a path down his throat that felt like purification. Then, he spoke, his voice a low, dangerous hum that barely disturbed the TV’s murmur.
“What if we…” He paused, letting the words hang, heavy with implication. He lifted his gaze, meeting Wonwoo’s watchful eyes across the table, then Mingyu’s wide, suddenly alert ones. His own eyes were dark pools, reflecting no light, only a cold, simmering intent. “…flip the script?”
The silence deepened. The only sounds were the faint buzz of the refrigerator and Mingyu’s sharp intake of breath.
Wonwoo didn’t flinch. He leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows on his knees, the usual quiet reserve in his eyes hardening into something sharp, analytical. A slow, rare grin – not warm, but predatory – spread across his face. It was the look of a chess player spotting the opponent’s fatal weakness.
“Flip the script?” Wonwoo repeated, his voice equally low, but laced with a razor’s edge. His gaze flickered pointedly to the bruises on Jeonghan’s wrist. “You mean… make him submit?”
Jeonghan didn’t nod. He didn’t need to. The confirmation was in the chilling stillness that settled over him, the way his fingers tightened infinitesimally around his glass.
Mingyu’s breath hitched again, this time morphing into a low, almost guttural sound of anticipation. He scooted closer, eyes gleaming with a mixture of awe and burgeoning excitement. “Oh… fuck,” he breathed, a grin splitting his own face, wider and more openly thrilled than Wonwoo’s.
“Leader-nim… submitting? Hyung, he’d…” Mingyu searched for the word, his gaze turning distant, captivated by the vision unfolding only for him.
“…he’d break so pretty.” His voice dropped to a conspiratorial whisper, thick with dark fascination. “Imagine those leader-hyung tears… imagine him begging…”
The image hung in the soju-scented air: S.Coups, proud, unassailable S.Coups, brought low. Vulnerable. Theirs.
It sparked a shared memory, vivid and humiliating. Just last month, after a grueling choreography session. Hoshi, buzzing with frustrated energy, had mouthed off one too many times.
S.Coups hadn’t yelled. He’d simply cornered him near the water cooler, one large hand landing with deceptive lightness on Hoshi’s shoulder. A few murmured words, low and private, eyes locked. The effect had been instantaneous.
Hoshi’s vibrant energy had drained away, replaced by a sudden, trembling stillness. His shoulders had hunched, eyes fixed on the floor, a flush creeping up his neck. And S.Coups? He’d just smirked. That slow, satisfied curl of his lips as he watched Hoshi fold. The smirk of absolute, unchallenged control.
“This hole only takes—never gives.”
S.Coups’ own words, tossed out carelessly weeks ago during a late-night game of truth or dare when asked about his preferences, echoed now in the conspiratorial gloom. He’d said it with that same smirk, a casual declaration of his untouchable dominance. A statement of his role as the giver, the taker, the one who commanded the surrender.
Jeonghan looked at Wonwoo, then at Mingyu. The shared understanding crackled between them like static. S.Coups believed himself invincible. Unbreakable. A fortress that only received, never surrendered.
Jeonghan raised his glass, the faint bruises stark in the dim light. The ghost of a cold, determined smile touched his lips.
“Then let’s make him give,” he murmured, the words a vow sealed in cheap liquor. “Let’s make the untouchable… feel.”
Wonwoo’s sharp grin returned. Mingyu mirrored it, teeth flashing white in the gloom.
The rebellion wasn’t just sparked. It was fanned into a flame. Tonight, in the shadows of the dorm, they planted the bomb.
---
Dawn bled grey at the edges of Jeonghan’s curtains. Sleep was impossible. The phantom sting of leather against his knuckles, the imagined sound of a broken whimper – S.Coups’ whimper – echoed louder than the dorm’s silence.
His phone screen glowed cold in the half-light, a portal to rebellion. His fingers, steady despite the acidic thrill coiling in his stomach, moved with purpose.
He navigated to a secure messaging app known for its ephemeral nature and encryption. Creating a new group. He named it, the letters tapping out a silent declaration of war: Project: Daddy’s Fall.
One by one, with meticulous care, he added contacts. Joshua. Hoshi. Wonwoo. Woozi. DK. Mingyu. Seungkwan. Vernon. Dino. Jun. The8. Twelve names. Twelve potential accomplices. Twelve keys to S.Coups’ carefully constructed fortress of control. He excluded only one.
He typed the first message, a single line that held the weight of their shared humiliation and simmering rage:
Jeonghan: Remember how untouchable he thinks he is? Let’s touch him. Let’s break him. Who’s in?
The responses didn’t flood in immediately. The hour was obscene, and the implications were seismic. Jeonghan watched the screen, the glow reflecting in his unnervingly calm eyes. The first ripple came, unsurprisingly, from Wonwoo, already privy to the spark:
Wonwoo: I’m already drafting scenarios. Calculated pressure points.
Then, a jolt of unexpected, darkly amused affirmation:
Joshua: Yoon Jeonghan, this is practically blasphemy. Leader-nim, our beloved Daddy… brought low? 😇
Joshua: …I’m in. Deeply, sinfully in. What’s the sacrament? A spanking?
The irreverence, wrapped in Joshua’s signature angelic facade, was a spark to dry tinder. The chat exploded.
Hoshi: WAIT. HOLD ON. IS THIS REAL?!?! 🐯
Hoshi: CAN I SPANK HIM FIRST? PLEASE? I VOLUNTEER! I HAVE STRONG HANDS!!
Hoshi: (attached: image of flexing bicep emoji)
Mingyu: Told you he’d break pretty. Told you.
Mingyu: (attached: GIF of shattered glass)
DK: Woah woah woah… slow down tiger-Hoshi! This is… big. Really big. Are we sure?
DK: What… what if he cries? Like, actually cries? 🥺
Mingyu: @DK That’s. The. Point. Pretty tears, remember?
The8: Quietly observes.
The8: …Years. I’ve watched that alpha pride strut for years. Smug. Unassailable.
The8: Yes. Let’s wreck it. Systematically. I have ideas about restraint.
Woozi’s response was characteristically blunt, cutting through the chaotic energy:
Woozi: Define ‘break’. Define ‘ruin’. What’s the measurable objective? Is this emotional destabilization, physical subjugation, or public humiliation? Need parameters.
Vernon chimed in, analytical:
Vernon: Logistics. Timing. Alibis. His schedule is tight. Where does the… operation… occur?
Seungkwan and Dino’s messages appeared almost simultaneously, reflecting their contrasting anxieties:
Seungkwan: OHMYGODOHMYGOD. Are we really doing this?! This is like… maknae-line rebellion level 1000! But… what if he finds the chat?! What if he knows?!
Dino: Hyung… this is scary. But… also kinda… necessary? For balance? He did shove Jeonghan-hyung into a mirror…
Dino: …I’m in. But carefully! Very carefully!
Jun’s contribution was succinct and chillingly serene:
Jun: I know where the soundproof room key is hidden. And I’m very good at knots.
The chat scrolled relentlessly – excitement, fear, dark anticipation, practical concerns. Jeonghan watched it all, a conductor observing his orchestra tune up. The energy was raw, volatile. It needed direction. Control. His control. He typed again, his messages appearing with deliberate, chilling calm, instantly silencing the flurry.
Jeonghan: Enough. Listen.
Jeonghan: This isn’t a free-for-all. We operate with precision. Like surgeons. Like assassins.
Jeonghan: Rule One: NO ALL-AT-ONCE ATTACKS. One member per day. Rotating schedule. We break him slowly. Systematically. Let the anticipation ruin him before we even touch him. Let him wonder who’s next, when, how. Fear of the unknown is corrosive.
Jeonghan: Rule Two: DOCUMENT EVERYTHING. Photos. Voice recordings. Video if safe. We need proof. Not just for us. For him. We need recordings of his whimpers, his begs, his tears. We need photos of the marks we leave, the positions we put him in. His shame is our leverage. Our trophy.
Jeonghan: Rule Three: AFTERCARE MANDATORY.Hoshi: Aftercare??? Why???
Jeonghan: Because the fall is sweeter from a height. Clean him up. Tend to the marks we can’t hide. Speak softly. Make him think it’s over. Make him think he’s safe. Make him grateful.
Jeonghan: …Then wreck him again. The cycle is the torture. Hope is the cruelest weapon.
The chat fell utterly silent. The weight of the plan, its calculated, psychological brutality, settled over them. Woozi was the first to break the stillness.
Woozi: …Operational parameters now defined. Rule Three is strategically sound. Creates cognitive dissonance. Accelerates breakdown. I approve. Schedule draft incoming.
Mingyu simply sent:
Mingyu: Fuck. Yes.
DK’s response was a single, wide-eyed emoji:
DK: 😳
Joshua’s reply was pure, dark delight:
Joshua: Blasphemy just got a whole lot more interesting. Pass the digital sacrament, Jeonghan-ssi. 😇
The8’s final message was a single word that resonated with grim satisfaction:
The8: Finally.
Jeonghan leaned back against his headboard, the pale dawn light creeping further into the room. On his screen, the chat named Project: Daddy’s Fall glowed, a constellation of twelve avatars, twelve co-conspirators.
A slow, satisfied smile, devoid of warmth and full of razor-edged intent, spread across his face. The trap was set. The players were chosen. The game for S.Coups’ soul, his pride, his very sense of self, had begun.
In the silent dorm, the only sound was the faint, rapid tapping as Woozi began drafting the schedule of ruin.
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S.Coups’ room was a fortress – neat, controlled, smelling faintly of cedarwood cologne and clean linen. Moonlight, the same cold silver that had painted Jeonghan’s sheets hours earlier, now cut across S.Coups’ perfectly made bed. He sat on its edge, back rigid, staring at nothing. Or rather, staring at everything replaying behind his eyes.
The mirror. The practice room’s unforgiving glass. Jeonghan’s back hitting it with a thud he could still feel in his own bones. The sharp gasp ripped from Jeonghan’s lips. The heat radiating off his trapped body.
But most vividly, the look on Jeonghan’s face in that instant before S.Coups had growled his dominance into existence. Not just shock. Not just anger.
A flash of… something else. Something dark and electric and utterly consuming. Flushed skin, parted lips, eyes wide not just with indignation, but with a wild, startled recognition.
S.Coups’ breath hitched. His fingers, seemingly of their own accord, lifted. They didn’t go to the phantom ache in his knuckles from the impact. They traced the small, cool metal of the nipple ring hidden beneath his thin black t-shirt. A deliberate press, sending a jolt straight down his spine.
Calloused hands pinning his wrists above his head. Not gently. Not asking. Taking. The imagined touch wasn’t soft or hesitant. It was rough, demanding, belonging to hands that knew work, knew struggle. Jeonghan’s hands. The contrast – the delicate silver ring and the phantom scrape of rough skin – sent another wave of heat crashing through him.
“Who’s Daddy now?”
The voice in his head wasn’t his own deep growl. It was a hiss, low and venomous, dripping with contempt and a terrifying promise. Jeonghan’s voice, twisted into an instrument of cold command. It wasn’t a question. It was an annihilation.
S.Coups shuddered, a full-body tremor he couldn’t suppress. He looked down. The evidence was undeniable, tenting the soft fabric of his sweats. Half-hard. Aroused. By the memory of his own violence? By the image of Jeonghan’s humiliation?
No.
By the fantasy of his own.
By the terrifying, shameful image of himself pinned, exposed, collared not in leather but in Jeonghan’s scorn, forced to choke out the words he’d used as a weapon: “Y-Yes… Daddy.”
The wave of heat turned into a scalding flood of shame. It burned his cheeks, tightened his throat, and coiled, hot and sick, in his gut. This wasn’t him. This weakness, this craving for the very submission he demanded from others… it was a flaw. A crack in his foundation. Unacceptable.
With a guttural sound ripped from deep within – part fury, part self-loathing – S.Coups slammed his fist down onto the mattress beside him.
The impact was muffled but violent, a physical rejection of the treacherous thoughts, the treacherous body, betraying him. He squeezed his eyes shut, jaw clenched so tight his teeth ached.
Control. He needed control. Over the dorm, over the members, over this… this rot festering inside him. He was the leader. The Daddy. The one who took. Never the one who gave. Never the one who broke.
He forced the image away – the phantom calloused hands, the hissing voice, the imagined collar of shame. But the heat in his groin, the frantic pulse beneath his nipple ring, and the echo of his own fist hitting the mattress lingered.
Silent, damning proof of the craving he could never show, the secret vulnerability even he couldn’t conquer. The battlefield wasn't just outside his door. It was raging within him. And he was terrified of who might win.
The muffled thud of his fist against the mattress faded, leaving only the harsh rhythm of his own breathing and the phantom heat coiling low in his gut. Shame, thick and acrid, coated his tongue.
He stared into the darkness of his room, but all he saw was the practice room mirror replaying Jeonghan’s flushed face – the shock, the defiance… and that terrifying flicker of something else that mirrored the dark craving churning within himself.
The cool metal of his nipple ring felt like a brand against his skin, a constant reminder of the fantasies he couldn't purge: the imagined scrape of calloused hands, the icy hiss of a voice demanding submission, the shattering of his own control.
He was drowning in the duality – the leader who commanded, the man who secretly ached to be commanded. The lines were blurring inside his own head, warped by a desire he despised yet couldn't extinguish.
And as the silence pressed in, heavy with the weight of his unseen craving, a cold dread slithered down his spine. He felt the future rushing towards him, not as a plan he could uncover, but as an inevitability he couldn't escape.
The mirror wouldn't just hold Jeonghan's reflection next time. It would hold his own. And the face staring back would be stripped bare, revealing the ruinous truth he fought so desperately to hide.