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Have you written anything besides the title yet?
The voice was familiar to Soobin, soothing almost. But still managed to scare him enough to show a physical sign. There was Yeonjun leaning on the door, looking exhausted from the drum practice he did.
Soobin was holding a crinckled paper with scribbled words written on it, showing the frustration Soobin had while trying to come up with the lyrics for their upcoming song.
I'm already way tense than i should be hyung, can you not stress me out? Soobin snapped.
Relax, I didn't come here to make fun of you, i figured you might use some help, Yeonjun sat beside Soobin on the bed.
What's the issue, you're normally the lyrics genius of the band Yeonjun asked.
Soobin hasn't been feeling inspirational these days, the lyrics he came up with sucked, he felt cringe. He felt like his work was hideous, not worthy enough for the band. But verbalising those thoughts wasn't easy either. Especially when the boy beside him is glowing with confidence,literally radiant. But lucky for him, Yeonjun was taking being the oldest seriously and made sure to look after all the members, especially the leader. Yeonjun catching the unusal behaviors of Soobin, felt the need to check up on him.
I don't need help hyung, what made you think that? Soobin become defensive.
Yeonjun knew better than forcing Soobin to pouring out his heart so he stood up, yanked the crinckled paper from his hands and scribbled 2 words; Be Sincere. And there was a silly drawing of a smiley face. Then put the paper on top of the desk, implying Soobin to look at it when he feels ready.
The following day Soobin looked the same, worn out. Not depressed but the shine in his eyes were gone.
It was Beomgyu's turn to prepare breakfast, him and kitchen not being exactly the best duo makes those mornings the most entertaining day of the week. 3 almost-burning-the-whole-house-down accidents and 2 broken eggs later the breakfast was ready, the room was filled up with laughter of the members, except Soobin. He looked like something was on his mind and the other bandmates are also starting to realise something was off about Soobin. In his mind he was concidering his hyung's offer of yesterday. And to Yeonjuns surprise, he heard a knock on his bedrooms door after the breakfast.
Come In, Yeonjun shouted.
There was an ugly creak sound followed by soft footsteps of the leader. Soobin sat on the bed just like Yeonjun did the other day, inhaled loudly before making the talk he's been avoiding.
I lost my inspiration. He silently began. I have nothing to write about. I don't want this group to perform garbage songs just because i can't find what is meaningful for me. Soobin continued.
Yeonjun didn't reply for a bit, then hesitantly opened his mouth; Don't you have someone you are head over heels with, i accidentaly eavesdropped on your conversation with Hyuka the other day. I know love songs are cliche but it might be your chance to show a different side of you to the fans. I think they would appreciate it. Yeonjun offered. Then to soften the vibe cracked a joke about it being better than not releasing anything. Though to his surprise instead of a smile forming on Soobin's face, his face become pale, almost as if he saw a ghost. Then asked what he fully heard that day silently, almost inaudible.
Yeonjun didn't heard the question and not realising the seriousness of Soobin, defended and explained the joke sheepishly. Soobin regained his voice and asked again, What have you heard that day hyung?
When the older one realised Soobin's worry, told what he heard that day to calm him down.
Oh, I mean, I don't really remember the details but you said he cares less about you than the others and he definitely doesn't love you back etc. sounds like a douchebag to be honest Soobs. and from what i heard it seems Hyuka knows him as well. Yeah like that's it you don't have to be concerned i wouldn't tell anyone. Though I must say i'm a little offended that you trust Hyuka, not me. Yeonjun said to comfort the older.
Soobin got off the bed distantly, seemingly colder than before he came into the olders room.
Yeonjun got up as well and followed Soobin to his room, Did you got mad because i eavesdropped, The older anxiously asked. Soobin shrugged his shoulder, refused to use his words.
Taehyun saw them, told Yeonjun to let Soobin be alone if that's what he wants. Taehyun had an expression in his eyes that was unreadable to Yeonjun but it reeked of concern. Yeonjun spent all day trying to figure out what. Then he came into a conclusion; Soobin was in love with Taehyun, that's totally why Taehyun protected the leader. Taehyun didn't want the group harmony to be affected. He didn't want this information to be known by other bandmates. Aha, that's why Soobin couldn't tell him what was wrong with him.
The next day Yeonjun went to the studio to record a simple drum solo for his solo work. There he saw the Leader scribbling again on the same piece of paper from the previous day.
Went behind him to massage his shoulders to release the tension since he was definitely still tense. Soobin immediately melted into his touch, he needed that.
I know your secret. Yeonjun told boldly.
Soobin felt his heart skip a beat, What secret are you talking about hyung? He asked with concerned eyes.
About you and Taehyun, I mean I don't blame you, he's charming. The silver hair is doing him justice. You don't have to be ashamed of being in love with him Soobs, you could've told me you know. Yeonjun reproached.
Soobin's eyes lit up, Yeonjun felt like he hasn't seen those eyes shine for a decade and most definitely he missed that. His ears got blessed by the loudest laugh he had ever heard from Soobin.
Hyung, you're joking right? Soobin asked in between the laughters.
Yeonjun was giggling but was baffled. If it wasn't love, what was it?