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It Was Heaven A Moment Ago

Summary:

“Falling in love. Do you regret it?”

“No,” Louis says softly.

“Even though it’s led you here?” Daisy questions.

“Yes,” Louis replies. “Even if it’s torn me up.”

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Harry and Louis once shared a dream. Until that dream became Louis' worst nightmare and he had to leave everything behind including the person he loved most, leaving both their hearts shattered and bleeding without closure.

Notes:

Hi! So this fic is a lot heavier than my other angst fest fic, so please keep that in mind while reading.

TW: this fic has a lot going on, so I'm going to address each trigger listed individually here. If you want to know more about the triggers, or feel like I've missed a tag anywhere you can DM on twitter at: booklovers124

Implied/Referenced Self Harm: One of the MC's throughout the fic thinks about self harming a few times, as well as discusses it briefly. Nothing goes too in-depth but the action is mentioned and scars are talked about.

Suicide Attempt: This is a PAST suicide attempt that is mentioned briefly a few times and talked about a few times. It's never in too much detail but the even is talked about. Details on the actual attempt are very brief and never talked about in a lot of detail.

Abuse: Both MC's experience abuse from a higher up. Nothing physical, all verbal.

Mental Health: there's a lot of discussions about mental health throughout the fic. PTSD is talked about and a MC experiences a flashback. There's also a few panic attacks throughout the fic.

And now, thank you to my darlings C and Kami for reading this when I was stuck and giving me ideas of how to continue to this. Thank you to Niallinjapan for being there through the chaos. And, thank you to Emm. This fic wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for you. (It only took two years but, hey it's out now).

I hope you enjoy, please read carefully!

Title from "Repeat Until Death" by Novo Amor.

Chapter 1: Repeat Until Death

Chapter Text

Low, a part of me now 

A palm to my mouth 

I said it, almost 

 

Snow, brother I’ll be it all gold 

Shudder with blood in my nose

I had it, almost 


Don’t go, you’re half of me now 

But I’m hardly stood proud

I said it, almost 

 

Oh, I’ve been low, but dammit I bet it don’t show 

It was heaven a moment ago

I had it, almost 

We had it, almost 


I can’t seem to let myself leave you 

But I can’t breathe anymore 


I can’t seem to not need to need you 

And I can’t breathe anymore 


~Repeat Until Death, Novo Amor