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Him
Her arms are tangled around my body, attempting to get up to go to the bathroom, failing horribly
“JJ, stay”
The night was full of nightmares, knowing she was scared I’d leave
“I’m just going to the bathroom”
“You’ll be back soon?”
“Promise, I’m not leaving you”
“Okay”
I get up before a hear my name again, turning around
“Jay”
“Yeah”
“Do you have a vape?”
“Course I do, should be in one of those drawers”
“Thanks”
Her
He leaves the room as I search for it, being in the bottom drawer with some other random stuff. I turn it on, feeling immediate relief when I take some in. Coming back shortly after, laying my head on his shoulder as I continue the same motion, taking a break to talk
“Do you think the way I cope is unhealthy?”
I watch his face turn, waiting for the familiar voice to say something
“No? We all cope differently”
“I mean this, like, weed and stuff”
“I’m not exactly the right person to ask that but I don’t see anything wrong with it, who told you that?”
“No one”
“Then why are you thinking about it?”
He’s trying to get it out of me, what happened at Kitty Hawk. I want to tell him, I want to talk about it, but the thought of explaining everything makes me feel panicked. It’s just JJ, you can tell him
“Pills”
“What about them?”
“They wanted to give me this weird medication, told me I had some illness”
He immediately knows what I’m referring too, feeling him tense up
“You didn’t take it right?”
“No, I tried to escape, that’s how I ended up in the reflection cabin”
“Did they hurt you?”
I know what he meant deep down, no, they didn’t hurt me that way, but they sure as hell hurt me in other ways
“No”
“I mean in general”
“They grabbed me by the waist, hard. That’s it though”
Hands turn into a fist, pushing them down into the mattress
“Shouldn’t of fucking touched you at all”
“I’m okay”
I say it almost out loud for myself to hear , but also to reassure him. I see his chest go in, rising again when he breaths out
“Is that why you feel that way? Cause they wanted you to take medication?”
“Yeah, I guess. I just wonder if maybe medication is better then what I’m doing”
I already know how he feels about anything that can make you addicted to it, allowing myself to be papered to hear it
“Do you want to start that?”
“No, not really”
“Then don’t do it. Don’t let em influence you to do things you don’t want too”
“Okay”
His body relaxes, I feel it as we’re close to each other
“One more thing though”
“Uh huh”
“Do you think something is wrong with me?”
“Not at all. Just cause you have a few mental health problems don’t mean somethings wrong with you”
“Are you sure?”
“Very”
“Thank you”
“Can I?”
“No, I don’t want you to hug me”
I laugh, wrapping my arms around him as he does the same. I didn’t worry about anything he did with me, delicate , it wasn’t anything like how the people grabbed me. I borrow my head in his neck as the scent of him comforts me, reminding me that I was safe. My head moves away as we both move in sync, kissing him without hesitation. It didn’t process to me that I didn’t overthink this for the first time, just to focused on the moment and my confidence boosting up
Him
Everything's a blur, not being able to focus on one thing that was happening, it only becomes apparent when she pulls back
“Hate to ruin the moment but I’m a little hungry”
“Watcha want?”
“Any snacks?”
“Yeah I think I have something here”
I get up and search the mini pantry, the only things not expired being popcorn and a pack of m&m’s chocolate
“I got popcorn and M&M’s not much variety, sorry”
“Could we share the M&M’s?”
“Yeah sure, you can have em”
I pick them up, coming back to the bedroom to sit next to her
“You don’t want any?”
Opening the pack with her teeth, why was that hot as fuck
“Jay?”
“Oh, yeah nah I’m good”
“What’s up with the staring?”
“Nothing”
“Alright”
I’m quietly admiring you, thinking about how your actually mine now, well, I think. She starts to stare back at me, leaning towards my cheek, instead feeling her lips at the corner of my lips. Lingering there for a few minutes, those fucking brown eyes glued to my lips
“Kie”
It’s a whisper, but she hears it enough to kiss me, making out on and off and watching a few movies together
Time skip
Her
It’s around midnight, talking, feeling my eyes start to close
“Goodnight kiss?”
He leans down to me, kissing me softly. It lasts a little longer then I expect it too, blue eyes opening slowly as they look me up and down. He pulls my shirt down, slightly bunched up around my belly button
“Better?”
“Mhm, thank you”
Silence, quickly changing
“I can find you another top if you w-“
“I like this one”
“Kay”
I kiss him again to make him stop worrying, lips melting into each other, tasting my mango lip balm on his lips. I'm hooked on him in a way I can’t explain, wishing this kiss would last forever. My already hot face turning hotter, lips curving into a smile that refuses to leave. His free hand rubs my back through my t-shift, still leaving a static feeling on my skin wherever it goes. The other hand tugs at the elastic in my hair attempting to take it out as I giggle, doing it for him which leads his fingers to rake through my curls
Him
Her laugh hits the back of my throat like an echo, along with the quiet hums that vibrate against my lips. I let my hands massage her hair which causes more sighs, swallowing them as she wraps her arms around my waist, bringing us chest to chest again when I part for air. I hear her breath out loudly, like I was holding her breath while we were kissing
“You’re really pretty Kie”
“I'm not, and I really have bed hair now”
I laugh, looking at her hair that's very clearly been ruffled around
“Don't say that, and eh , I'll brush it for you in the morning”
“You don't have too, it's okay”
“What if I want to? Lemme take care of Kie, please? ”
It's practically a beg, I know how hard these days have been and if there's something, even if it's small , that I can help with, I want to. I know myself self care when you're not doing well is hard, nevermind even getting up in the morning
“Only if you promise me I'll get to do this to you the next day”
I don't want that, I want her to rest, but I also know how defiant she is, so getting her to relax for at least one day is better than none
“Fine, deal”
Yawning as I hug her back now, kissing her cheek then kisses mine
“You're tired Jay, go to sleep, I'll be okay”
“Are you sure?”
“I'm sure, I love you, sleep well”
“I love you too, you too”
Later
“Kiara?”
I wake up to the bed being empty on her side, shit shit shit, Please don't tell me someone took her again. The memories I seemed to have blocked come rushing back quicker then I can move, getting out of bed to turn the lights on around the house to make sure she hadn't just gotten up to do something
She's not here.
I check the outside, yelling her name one more time before I finally hear a response, a breath of relief
“JJ, I'm okay, sorry”
Walking closer to the voice, I see a small cellphone light that grows brighter
“Fuck Kie, you can't scare me like that!? Why are you out here?”
“I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you… I just had another nightmare so I came out here for some fresh air”
“Shit, okay, why didn't you wake me? I told you to wake me whenever you needed too?”
“And you're also not nocturnal, you need sleep. Plus it wasn't even that bad either…”
“It wasn't that bad but you needed fresh air? Cmon, I'm not dumb. Tell me what's up?”
She sighs, crossing her arms over her chest for a few minutes before talking again
“Can I be honest with you?”
“Of course”
Her arms uncross, listening fully with my attention on her
“I don't even remember what is was about, I just know it was something about me being taken again … it felt so real”
I sit on the ground beside her, putting an arm around her shoulder that rubs her arm. I'm not good at comforting people, it's kinda something I'm still working on , but I still try to regardless
“I'm really sorry, you're safe now though , okay? It was just a stupid dream, not reality”
“Thank you”
She kisses my cheek, remembering that was just normal between us now . Three kisses, it's probably ridiculous I'm counting, I don't mean too, but God each one is better than the last, I can't not remember each of them
“Think you can come back inside now?”
“Yeah, I think so”
“Alright, now no more excuses, seriously. Wake me up if you need anything”
“Fine”
“I love you”
Falls out of my mouth so effortlessly, her hand in mine
“I love you too”
Time skip
Her
“Your hair is so pretty Kie”
He brushes my hair as I sit on the bed, being delicate each time the brush pulls on my hair
“Thank you , you're doing a pretty good job too there mister hairstylist”
We laugh, putting the brush down as he looks at my curls, smiling
“You can kiss the top of my head, I know you want too”
“Damn, reading my mind now?”
“Maybe a little, or it could be the fact you're standing there looking like your debating on something sooo important”
“God damnit”
He does as I say, his lips at the crown of my head until I feel the kiss make my head hurt, yeah, I'm definitely in love
“Better?”
“Much”
“Do you want to style it for me?”
“Uhh, yeah nah I'll let you do that part, don't think I'm that good yet baby”
I laugh, laughing with me, the small “baby” making me smile
“Do you know how to braid?”
“Yeah, that's probably about it though”
“Braid me up Maybank”
I section my hair in two, leaving a little hair behind to leave out . It starts off a little wonky, but he finds his way a few minutes later, braiding the first section
Him
“I really only know how to do this cause of my mama, when he wasn't home, which was very rarely, I'd braid her hair for her. I use to suck at it, still do as you can tell ”
I don't know why I say all that, but I do, for some reason not regretting saying it either until she doesn't say anything back, shit. Her mom just sent her away, I mean fuck I know my mom's a real fucking piece of work, but her mom sent her away for godsakes, hoping I didn't trigger her by bringing up mom 's. I think of a way to try to fix the silence between us, not being the best at words definitely not helping either, instead just stopping what I was doing and pulling her in backwards for a hug from behind
“M'sorry Kie, I didn't mean to say all that, it was insensitive of me”
“What?”
Her face furrows, turning to look at me
“I just started ranting about my ma and didn't even think about how that wo-”
“Hey, no, stop, okay? You talking about your mom doesn't trigger me, it actually makes me happy that you're willing to share those memories with me. I'm fine, and I want you to talk about those things with me”
I kiss her cheek, relief filling my body
“Thank you”
“You don't have to thank me, it's what I'm here for”
The silence that rings between us now is peaceful, feeling at ease and so comfortable with her. I've never felt this comfortable with someone like I am with her, she seriously makes me feel fucking loved, her breaking the silence
“Jayj?”
“Yeah?”
“I know I can't help you through everything but… I can love you through everything, and I promise to be there for you whenever you need”
I kiss her, my hands laying on her cheeks still when we pull apart
“Same for you Kie, and thank you”
We spend the rest of the day watching Disney movies, turning my head to see that she's fallen asleep , kissing her head as I fall asleep next to her
Time skip
Him
Waking up next to her is something I'm still not used to, hoping maybe since I didn't feel her get out of bed that she slept okay, hearing a knock at the door. Really, when she's finally fucking sleeping okay? Come on. I throw a shirt on and crawl out of bed, praying I don't wake her up, walking towards the door. I check the peephole before opening it, John B entering
“Hey uh… how are yall?”
It's probably the most dumbest question to ask a person who just lost their father in a really fucked up way, gesturing to him to sit down on the couch
“Sorry, stupid question. Is there anything I can do to help?”
“Not really, I came to check up on you guys, how are you?”
“I'm fine, it's Kie I'm worried about”
“Where is she? I thought she was staying with you?”
“She is, she's actually sleeping right now, she uhm-”
Fell asleep in my arms last night while watching children movie, yeah no, definitely have to rephrase that
“Fell asleep while watching movies with me”
“That's good…”
“Yeah it is it's just-”
“You're worried about her, I mean dude, you have a right to be. After everything she's been through, I'm worried about her too ”
“Exactly. She's been so quiet and… just not herself. She kinda talked to me about what happened, not the whole story though. I'm trying my hardest to be there for her but you know me man, I ain't good at this shit. All I know is that it hurts to see her like this an-”
“I'm gonna cut you off there. Look, whatever you're doing? It seems to be working, I mean if she's sharing shit that happened to her while away, she's gotta feel comfortable enough with you to tell you that. You're obviously making her feel less alone and comforted, trust me if she didn't wanna talk to you JJ, I don't think she would be ”
“Yeah I know, I know, I just wish that there was more I could do, y'know? I feel so fucking useless”
“You aren't, and you're doing everything you can”
I let his words sit in my head, swearing I heard footsteps coming from the bedroom, confirming it when I see her walk out from the bedroom
Her
“JJ?”
“M’here, sorry”
I walk out, met with him and John B, rubbing my eyes
“Hi”
“Hey, how are you? It's nice to see you”
Why is everyone so worried about me? I'm fine, seriously I am
“I'm tired, how are you and Sarah doing?”
“I'm okay, I don't know about Sarah though, she's definitely… bottling up her emotions ”
“She's been the same with me too. I truly am sorry to the both of you”
“Thanks Kie, we appreciate it. Sorry for what you went through with your parents”
“It's not your fault. You don't have to apologize”
JJ's pinkie intertwines with mine, wrapping it around his. There's a silence that rings between the three of us, breaking it as John B passes me a bag
“There's some food in there, patty went shopping for yall. Thought you might need some since…”
“Yeah, thanks man”
Time skip
Him
“Did you want anything?”
“No thanks”
She hasn't been eating, and I think she thinks I'm not realizing, but I am
“Are you sure?”
Her answers quick and only two words, looking at her
“I'm sure”
I don't want to pressure her, so I drop it, deciding I wasn't quite hungry myself either. Instead I take her hand, kissing it when we sit on the couch. Her head lays on my shoulder, feeling so much more affectionate now
“Jayj?”
“Yeah?”
“I love you”
I swear I feel my heart pound faster, laying my head on top of hers
“I love you too”
Time skip
Her
I can't sleep, the nightmares filling my head quicker then the feeling of sleepiness, even with the thought of knowing I'm safe and with someone who loves me doesn't make the thoughts go away . My stomach flutters, the way a hand wraps around me sliding down to my abdomen, making circles with his fingers on my skin. I can tell it's hesitant with what it's doing, not needing to be
“Does that feel okay…”
It's a whisper that makes me want to melt,
“Mhm, that feels nice”
“You're okay Kie, try to relax f’me. Just try to uh… think about something that makes you calm ”
I shift closer into him, the warm hand following with me. It moves to my stomach, doing the same circles that makes me feel relaxed, safe, in his arms
“You”
“Good, keep thinking of me”
My body turns to face him, snuggling into him with the relief of his scent
“Can I ask you something? Only if you feel comfortable telling me, you don't have too”
I nod my head I can tell him anything, he's safe, my safe person, my safe haven
“Did you used to suffer with nightmares before…. That?”
He doesn't dare even try to mention the name of the place, sending flashbacks immediately whenever I hear the name
“Sometimes… they were never as bad as they are now though”
His lips touch my head
“I'm so sorry Kie… is there anything else I can do to make it better?”
“Just don't leave me”
I hate being vulnerable, it's something I've hated since I was a kid, but I barely have the energy to even try to hide my emotions anymore. It wouldn't even matter if I tried anyway, because he knows me too well, and my mask would drop almost immediately
“Never, never ever ever”
My eyes get wet, no, no please don't start crying Kiara , please don't . But it's too late, the small singular tear falls down my cheek and I'm burying my head into his chest, forgetting he doesn't have a shirt on. More tears fall and I slowly turn into a fucking mess, crying in his chest silent. He realizes it immediately, rubbing my back
“Kie are you crying?”
I sniffle in embarrassment, feeling him lean over to the side table to turn the light on
“Hey Hey hey, it's okay, it's okay”
He sits up, bringing me onto his lap to hug me tightly, looking up at him. His fingers wipe my eyes and my cheeks, kissing under my eyes as more stupid tears fall out. All the feelings come rushing back at once, the feeling of loneliness, being scared, fearing I was going to be locked in that camp forever, or if it wasn't that that kept me away from my friends, it would've been being killed by one of sighns men
“I'm here, it's okay- I promise to take care of you, to make sure nothing bad happens to you. I love you Kiara- I'm here”
He moves the hair from in front of my face, kissing anywhere his lips find on me, saying sweet nothings to me to try to fix my heart, he doesn't need to though, because him being here has fixed it already.
“One day, we're gonna to get the fuck out of the OBX, even if it's not forever, just a vacation. Will leave all the bad memories here and take the good ones with us, and will go surfing the waves together, you and me, okay? You're going to be okay”
I want to respond, but my breathing is fast and causing me to not be able to talk, a panic attack, seriously? Why, why can't I just be normal
“Breath f'me Kie, deep breaths, here follow me okay?”
He takes a breath in, trying to follow him but my breathing cuts in between my deep breath, letting it out when I see him do it. We repeat it a few times until I finally feel myself calm down, returning the tighter squeeze he gave me earlier
“I'm sorry”
“No, absolutely not, you have nothing to apologize for. How are you feeling now?”
“Fine, I think”
He grabs me a tissue to wipe my eyes, grabbing another one as I pull back from the hug, wiping his chest off that's damp from my tears
“I got you all wet”
I laugh a little, looking down at me. His blue eyes give me a comforting feeling, the expression on his face looking hurt
“Nah that's fine, least of my worries baby, I'm just glad you finally let it out”
His hand makes a fist, undoing it as quick as I see it
“Fuck I didn't mean it like that- I'm not happy you were crying- I just meant I'm glad you're like… finally letting those emotions out. Someone very pretty and honestly quite smart as well, told me it wasn't good to hide your true emotions”
I smile quoting me, wishing I'd take my own advice sometimes
“I know what you meant. Thank you Jay… for letting me just get it out, I feel a little better after crying”
“That's good, and I'm always here for you to cry too, or on ”
Laughing, hugging him for a few minutes before my head lifts up and looks at him, his warm hands pressed against my cheek
“Would it be okay if I kissed you?”
“Please do”
And he does, a sweet, long, lovingly kiss that makes everything feel ten times better, I've got him, and I've got the pogues, that's all I need.
Time skip
Him
She's finally fallen asleep, looking over at her now relaxed face as I take a deep breath in. Fuck I hate her parents, those fucking men and anyone else who's hurt her . If I even saw her piece of shit father, I think I'd fight him, seriously. The way she cried ripped my heart out of my chest, never seeing her cry that badly before, and shit I hope she doesn't ever cry like that again, not even because I don't want to ever hear it again, but because it physically hurt my entire body seeing her like that. I've tried everything in me to hold back the angry emotions I feel, knowing it wouldn't do me or her any justice, but lord tonight has made things even harder for me to retaliate against those feelings. This isn't about me, I keep telling myself it over and over, it doesn't matter how mad you are, you have to focus on her, that's my responsibility, not fucking up anyone. I can't sleep, tons of thoughts running through my head every time I close my eyes
“Sleep JJ, I'm okay now”
How does she know me so damn well?
“I will, you go back to sleep, don't worry about me. I love you”
I keep repeating it any chance I get, hoping that she remembers how loved she is and how I'd move the fucking world for her if I could and she wanted me too
“I love you too”
My head slowly stops thinking, taking the opportunity to close my eyes and fall asleep
Time skip
Her
Were outside smoking a joint, listening to my favorite songs, knowing he’s trying to make me feel better after last night. I still feel shitty for breaking down like that in front of him, saying sorry randomly and attempting to act okay, when really my head has been non-stop thinking. It's stupid shit as well, like if I'll ever even speak to them again, or do they even care about how much trauma they've put me through? Do they even realize that was my second time being kidnapped in only a matter of days? It's like I'm thinking out loud, because I feel a hand rub my leg, passing the joint over to me
“Hey, you alright?”
I take the joint from between his fingers, putting off answering the question when I inhale the smoke. It fills my lungs, feeling a calm breeze overcome my body, on a cloud I don't want to get off . I let the buzzy feeling take over me a little to long, coughing before passing it back to him
“Shit Kie, be careful. Ya haven't smoked in like months, can't hold it in that long”
“Sorry, I'm fine, promise. I just got kinda lost in my thoughts”
“I could tell, what's up? You wanna talk about it?”
Part of me wants to shake my head no, it's too much to even let those thoughts consume my head, nevermind say them out loud. But part of me also knows I should just talk, stop trying to hide my emotions and act like I'm fine . I go with the ladder, picking at the bottom of my ripped jean shorts
“I just can't understand why after everything I told them that happened between the island and coming back here, they still thought sending me away to a wilderness cuckoo's nest was the best option. When you see someone… I don't know, sad, or fucked up from something, wouldn't you want to be there to comfort them? Not send them off to let someone else deal with them- I mean unless the situation is really bad to the point someone else should be involved. But that wasn't my situation at all, I have you guys, I didn't need to talk to anyone else about it”
My fingers fidget with the tied on friendship bracelet that's matching with his, that anxious and needing to do something with my hands feeling coming on. He doesn't reply to me, just nods his head as I try to find the rest of the words that are jumbled up in my head
“And it's like, I told them I didn't want to go, you know? Why would you go against my own wishes, especially so out of the blue like that, no warning or anything? I even s till told them while it was happening that I didn’t want to go, that I had places to be, and they didn't even bother listening to me. I've never felt so… out of control of something that was happening to me, something I should be in control of”
I sigh, watching him take a draw of the joint, putting it out in the ashtray
“I just wish they didn’t do what they did to me”
It's as simple as that, and could I have probably just said that instead of all those sentences and words? Yeah, but it felt kinda good getting it out
“Are you finished talking, baby?”
I look down at the ground, my face feeling a little warmer and my body like clay, why does a simple word like that make me giddy?
“Mhm”
“Okay… I'm not really great with words but… I want you to know I'm here for you, and what they did to you was fucked up and not right. They shouldn't have done something like that against your will, and the way they did it- well, everything about it , but that especially, was messed up too. You have a right to feel how you feel, cause fuck if my family did something like that to me- in fact if anyone went through what you went through, they would feel the same way too. I don't know if will ever really understand why they did what they did, or even why they thought that was a fantastic fucking idea, but sometimes that's just the way it is”
He places my hands in his, letting them cuddle his knuckles
“What I do know though, is that I love you, and I'm really sorry for everything you've been through”
His arms open for me, leaning into him to embrace him. The familiar smell of weed making me smile
“Thank you, I love you more”
Time skip
Still him
My eyes tried to focus on anything but behind me, her getting undressed and into one of my older t-shirts, respecting her privacy. There's tension in the air, feeling it throughout the entire room until I hear her voice
“You can look now”
I turn around, gazing at the top on her, shit it looks better on her then it ever did on me. The whole moment feels like it's in slow motion, walking up to her and placing my hands on her waist, looking down at the hand placement then back up at me, this mysterious smirk on her face
“Looks good on ya, you can keep it”
“If you keep saying that about all your shirts Jayj, you're not going to have any left”
She has a point, but it's when her hand touches my bare chest that makes me almost jump out of my skin
“Not that it would be a bad thing…”
She's fucking messing with me, altering my brain chemistry, some stupid shit like that, cause fuck every cell in my body is trying not to incinuate sex, trying to let her decide when she's ready to do that
“No, no that wouldn't be a bad thing at all…”
Her giggle is contagious, causing me to smile and laugh as well. Arms wrap around my neck, eyes meeting one another's, then we're kissing. My arms wrap around her waist snuggly, her body pressed up against mine, feeling her spin us around and walk us to the edge of the bed, is this actually happening? My arms move from her back, parting from the kiss too lay down on the bed, resting on my knees on top of her. I connect us again, my hands trying their hardest not to freak out and touch her everywhere, keeping them running up and down her hips. Thinking of her under me like this, in my shirt, just us, her, Kie, my girl, my crush. My brain can't get past the fact I'm doing all this with the girl I've had a crush on since I was at least eleven, probably even earlier than that, as long as I can remember. We kiss on and off, this time actually talking
“JJ”
It's out of breath, panting and looking up at me, I can't feel my entire body, it feels frozen. I force myself to speak, knowing I need to check in with her
“Is this too much for you?”
She shakes her head, nodding back in response
“Okay, okay good”
I cup her cheeks, kissing her more deeply, ending up being our first time
Time skip
Her
I'm laying so my back is facing him, feeling his fingers trace drawings on my back like it's a easel and the center of my back is the paper, giggling because it tickles
“What's this one of?”
“Guess”
“Seriously! Just tell me”
He ignores me, continuing to feel his fingers race across my skin, deciding to play along with the game
“The ocean?”
“Close”
I pay close attention to how his fingers are moving, feeling what I think might me the outline of a surfboard, remembering our memories together when one matches quite well
“Oh! Oh! Is it the beach? With surfboards?”
“You got it baby”
He kisses my back, shivers down my spine, so gentle. We can't keep our hands off each other, even if it's a small grab, rub or brush, our fingers are on one another's skin. My hand is playing with the hair on his arm, head laying on that arm as well, the other one behind me. His fingers rub my back, assuming he's erasing the drawing to make another one, being right as I feel letters traced on my back
“Are you writing my name?”
“Mm mn”
I sigh at the touch, relaxed. I put together the letters in my head
I
L
O
V
E
Y
O
U
K
I
E
Turning to face him with a smile on my face
“I want to draw on you now”
“Hmm, okay”
He turns away from me, using my finger to make hearts on him, writing something back
I love you too Jay
When he turns back, I give him a peck, snuggling into him
Time skip
Still Her
I wake up expecting for him to be right next too me, shirtless with just a pair of boxers on, and for me to have nothing on but a pair of panties, for the memories of last night to travel back, but none of that happens. He's not next to me, sitting up, where is he?
“JJ?”
Footsteps coming towards the room, covering myself up in my blankets. I blush when he sees my face, going around to my side of the bed
“No need to cover up baby, it's just me”
“What were you doing?”
“I was just in the living room smoking a cigarette, I know ya don't like the smell so”
“Nasty”
I roll my eyes, gasping when he's on top of me
“Does that mean I'm not getting a good morning kiss?”
A stupid smile makes its way over my lips, letting my hand grab the back of his neck
“Not necessarily”
The hand creeps its way to his head, leaning down to kiss me. He tastes of morning sunshine with a hint of tobacco, pulling back to regrasp the taste in my mouth. When we finally pull apart, I've pulled him back in bed with me, his hand in mine
“Don't worry, I only smoke those after sex”
I shove him playfully, looking at him as he gives me a wink, shit why does his morning voice have to be so sexy?
“Well you're killing the environment, and most importantly yourself. Will start a new thing, smoke a joint after sex”
“Almost thought for a second the environment was more important than me”
“It's a close second”
“Right…”
“But really, deal?”
“Deal, no more cigars”
“Good, now come cuddle me”
“C'mere beautiful”
Time skip
Still her
It's the first girls night we've had since everything, over at Sarah's as we have a few drinks, attempting too “forget all that's happened for a night”. I'm laughing at something Sarah said when my neck turns, seeing eyes on my neck like a hawk, shit, did I seriously forget to cover it?
“Miss girl is that a hickey!?”
“Maybe…”
I take a swig of beer, giggling as my legs kick back and forth on her bed, this is definitely going to be a big conversation now
“Looks like someone has got some explaining to do”
“Oh my goddd, can we not do this right now!”
“Oh yes we are!”
Sarah's hands push my head to each side, searching for another one which she finds near the back of my neck
“Rude boy went feral on you girl”
They laugh, all of us clearly a little tipsy, Cleo being the more sober one out of the three of us
“Sooo… was it good?”
“We are absolutely not doing this right now! Why has my sex life become a conversation!”
“Because hello?! This is big! And we want to know the details! This is considered girl talk”
My eyes peer over back to the Bahamian girl, putting her hands up
“I didn't say anything”
“And holdddd on, no one mentioned sex! That was all you!? You guys had sex?!”
“See girl, ya kinda exposed yourself there, can't help you with that one”
I roll my eyes in fake anger, knowing really and truly this conversation would've came up some way
“Okay, okay, yes, we had sex. Happy?”
It still doesn't feel real saying that, the same stupid grin on my face the night it happened appearing back on my face. The blondes face still looks like it's looking for more answers, burying my face into her bed
“And yes it was good… like really good”
I mumble it, my face heating up quickly which makes me hide my face
“Oh my god?! And you didn't tell us!”
“I'm just here liste-”
“Because it only just happened! What did you want me to do? Text you and be like “oh my god I just had the best sex of my life with JJ Maybank?!” “
“Well yes!”
“Sweet jesus yall are crazy”
We all laugh, changing that topic very quickly, for one of the very few moments things actually feel somewhat back to normal, wishing it could stay like this forever
Small time skip
Him
“Someone missed me a lot”
And fuck it's true, kissing her and walking us into our bedroom. I'm holding her up by her thighs, gripping them hard to make sure she doesn't fall, partially to hear the quiet moans she makes. We pull apart when we're both satisfied, still keeping up her teasing
“Don't worry, I missed you as well. But considering the fact you were a big part of our conversation due to the little numbers you did on my neck, it felt like you were there in spirit”
It doesn't process properly until I feel a tug at my own neck, biting my lips hard
“And that's on revenge”
“You're going to be the fuckin death of me Kie, ya know that?”
“Not before you're going to be mine”
“I'm sorry though… about the hickeys”
“Don't be, I'm okay with them. That's why I told you I was”
“Mhmm, maybe next time do a better job at covering em then aye?”
She looks at me with eyes that look ready to challenge me to an argument, like she's coming up with a rebuttal
“I didn't try smart-ass, I don't have my makeup, remember?”
“Right, my bad, can't tell since you look good both ways if you know what I mean”
Her hand squeezes mine, not realizing it was in mine until the squeeze
“You're so corny, but thank you, I love you”
“I love you too”
Time skip
Her
I'm making pancakes when I feel arms wrap around my waist, lips on my neck hearing small kissing noises
“Good morning, beautiful”
My lips turn to a smile, turning my head to look at his eyes, one feature on the very long list of things I love about him
“You missed a spot”
A knowingly smirk showing, his mouth grazing over my ear
“Oh baby, I missed quite a few spots… between your legs… your thighs… your legs themselves, oh and those perky tits”
“You're such a freak!”
I shove him, laughing at me before laying his hand on my cheek and giving me a soft kiss
“C'mon, you know you like it”
My lips zip shut, resting his hands on my shoulders
“Alright alright, watcha making?”
“Pancakes, here you go”
I pass the plate with two large pancakes on it, grabbing the syrup to put on them
“Mmm, shit looks good. Thank you Kie”
“You're welcome”
Grabbing my own plate and the syrup, sitting down next to him on the couch, looking over at him and admiring him, he's mine, finally, and God I'm so happy.