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Lixie💕: morning how r you?
Jinireti💗: im alr
Jinireti: yknow you don't have to text me everyday im fine
Lixie💕: no it's fine I just don't want you to feel forgotten
Jinireti💗: well I don't so you don't have to text me every two seconds
Lixie💕: oh sorry am I annoying?
Jinireti💗: I- uh no you're fine sorry
Lixie💕: uh well okay I have to go ttyl
Jinireti💗: have a good day
Hyunjin watched the first tear hit the screen of his phone. "Shit im such an asshole." He whispered to himself curling up and letting the waterworks fall. He laid on his bed boring his stare into the cabin wall. At first he had stayed at his parents house. But, he decided to go the mountains to do some reflecting time which ended up being closer to self-isolation. Hyunjin's hair had grown out past his shoulders. It was blonde but his roots had grown out about three inches. He hadn't shaved really so he had a dark five o'clock shadow.
Ever since his hiatus started he lost contact with the members, except Felix. Everyday he reached out whether it was a good morning or good night. The only reason Hyunjin was somewhat frustrated was because at this point in his life he was ready to whither away in this cabin and be forgotten forever and only found because the owner returned. But if someone texted him everyday than he would have a reason to even look at his phone. Hyunjin had lost a great amount of weight, he didn't really eat much, food isn't as yummy when you're alone.
But he appreciated the boy. Truly. It gave him a reason to live at all. Actually today was his last day in the cabin. He was returning back to the city but he wouldn't be with his parents, they were renting a small apartment for him till he can move back into the dorms. Plus he could have Kkami at this apartment so that was a plus. His parents would be here to pick him up in a bit but he hasn't even gotten out of bed.
Two hours later. *knock**knock* "Hyunjin-ah open up!" His father yelled and Hyunjin called right back out. "It's open!" The door swung open to reveal his bewildered mother and father. "Yah are you stupid?! Leaving the door unlocked like that?" His mother scolded strutting right in and evaluating his living situation. "Yah are you crazy living like this for these months!?" She went to jump on the boy laying on the bed. His mom loves him, and that's why she's a bit hard on him, she just wants the best for her son. "Ah honey let's calm down." His father swooped in to soothe his wife. That's what walkways makes them so perfect. His mom a wild hot head and his dad a calm rational man.
"Take this and head out to the car." He ordered his wife to which she rolled her eyes taking the packed bag and walking out. "Now Hyunjin let's head out. I know this is hard, don't forget we just want the best for you." He smiled softly holding his hand out to his son who smiled and took it. "Thank you dad." He spoke standing and falling into his dads chest in a nice warm hug. They stayed like that for a minute and then his dad realized. "Are you crying? Jinnie what's wrong?" He spoke trying to look at Hyunjin's face. He started to cry more and his dad was lost.
They arrived at the new apartment. Kkami was already inside waiting for Hyunjin. When he got in he collapsed onto the sofa waving his parents off. He was exhausted. Kkami jumped up onto his chest laying down on the human. Hyunjin checked his phone.
Lixie💕: break time do you wanna call?
Jinireti💗: uh I don't rlly feel like talking but if u want to rant or anything I'll listen
Lixie💕: alr
Incoming call from: Lixie💕
Answer Decline
Hi Jin.
"Hi Lix what're you guys up to?"
Ah we're working on our unit performances with BtoB and Ateez. I'm actually with Peniel say hi.
"Hi Sunbaenim."
Hi Hyun I wish you could be here dancing with us, you won't believe how well Jeongin is doing though you and the rest of DanceRacha taught him well, take care kid.
"Thank you sunbae."
So I'm literally so frustrated with this dance group though because we have like all of Ateez in our group and they have their rhythm but me Minho hyung and Jeongin have our own rhythm so working together has literally been so difficult and Peniel Hyung is just trying to mediate but we're clashing so much.
"Well Lixie some things you have to kind of let work themselves out, do your best to be respectful of their rhythm and don't accept it if they are disrespectful to yours. You're stronger than you know. Talk to Minho hyung about making sure you stand your ground all three of you stand your ground to make sure the others know where you stand. Be clear."
Yeah that sounds smart, I'll talk to hyung about making sure we are heard. It's just difficult because we're basically joining Ateez's team right now.
"Yeah I totally get that and those guys can be pretty intense sometimes."
Right like sometimes I can't tell if they're mad at me or want to hug me I'm always so confused.
"Don't overthink it too much okay?"
Yeah thank you Jinnie I'll talk to you later break is over.
"Love you."
Love you too byeeee.
Hyunjin set his phone down and curled up with Kkami for a nap.
Six hours later. (In SpongeBob voice)
Hyunjin felt vibration through the couch. Blearily he opened his eyes searching for his phone and answering without looking.
Hi Hyunjin.
"Hey." He grumbled not paying attention to who called him.
How have you been?
"Mm fine."
Uh so you're not gonna say anything we haven't talked in a while
"Huh?" Hyunjin pulled the phone away from his ear checking the contact and seeing that it was Chan. "Oh Chan sorry I'm half asleep right now."
Oh that makes sense.
"Yeah sorry. How's kingdom going I heard you guys are working on the units."
Wait Hyunjin how do you know that I didn't tell you anything and all of the boys said they haven't talked to you.
Hyunjin's breath caught in his throat. Since his hiatus started the members were banned from talking to him. Felix does because he doesn't care if he gets yelled at and Hyunjin was sure that Chan has been meaning to reach out and only recently got time and permission to check up on Hyunjin.
"Well I- uh guessed?"
Even you don't believe that which one of the boys are talking to you?
"Aish Felix." He gave up he knew Chan wouldn't be mad.
On the other end....
Chan hung up the phone sighing. He stood up and went into Felix's room. "Yah you wouldn't believe who i just talked to." Chan spoke flopping on the bed next to Felix. "Oh who?" He said casually. "Hyunjin." He watched the other stiffen. "Oh really what did you talk about?" Felix continued scrolling through his phone. "He mentioned how we were working in the units for kingdom. Which he couldn't have known unless someone had told him." Chan narrowed his eyes.
"Oh I wouldn't know anything about that." Felix shrugged and if his body language didn't give him away the incoming call on his phone screen did.
Incoming call from Jinireti💗
Answer Decline
Felix met eyes with Chan who gestured to him to answer.
"Hi."
Hey Felix. Chan called me today.
Felix had put the phone on speaker and the two in the room could hear the excitement in the others voice as he talked about his conversation with Chan even if he caught him and Felix, Hyunjin was just happy to have talked to the eldest at all.
Felix I'm so happy he called me I missed him so much. I really want to be with you guys again.
Felix felt tears spring at his eyes as his phone was pulled from his hand.
"Hyunjinnie." Chan cried into the phone trying to cover the tears falling from his eyes.
Chan? You've been here the whole time?
"Yeah I came to ask Felix when you called."
I love you hyung.
Chan missed their little ferret so much he was ready to go get him himself and fight the company later. Felix had a sad look in his eyes watching his oldest hyung cry.
Felix?
"Yes Hyun?"
Can you come over I need you.
Felix's breath got caught in his throat, yes they had been talking but they hadn't met in person in months.
Please Lix.
He caved. Chan as well looked at him with eyes that said please go check up on him for me.
"Send me an address I'll be there." Felix spoke and received the quick message a second later of Hyunjin's new address. Felix quickly ordered an Uber and got ready placing a mask on his face as well as his hat. "Alright Jinnie I'll let you know when I'm there okay?"
Yeah okay.
"Bye bub."
Bye.
Felix hung up the phone before receiving the Uber notification that it was here and running out. He entered the car confirming that it was for him before the ride started. The ride was going to be close to half an hour as the apartment Hyunjin is in now is quite far from the dorm.
Hyunjin nervously waited for Felix to text him to let him know that he was here. His apartment was messy and he had the urge to scrub it clean in preparation for the younger to come over, but he couldn't bring himself to move off of his bed.
Clothes were strewn about the room as well as pieces of trash that littered the floor. His phone dinged.
Lixie💕: I'm here.
Jinireti💗: alr I'm coming down
Hyunjin nervously slipped his shoes on and exited his apartment. He hasn't seen any of the members in person for the past few months. Felix would be his first. He got in the elevator feelings his nerves reach their peak as the floor numbers ticked down. The doors slid open to reveal the dark lobby area that was void of people at this hour. Through the glass doors he could see the lean silhouette of Felix with his newly dark brown hair. Hyunjin took a deep breath exiting the elevator.
"It's just Felix." He whispered to himself. Hyunjin hadn't kept up on his self care,would Felix even recognize him, he's not the Hyunjin he used to know. He shook the thoughts out of his head and proceeded to the door. He pushed it open watching Felix snap his head over from his phone. "Hyunjin." He whispered carefully. Hyunjin stared unable to speak, he almost couldn't believe that the boy was actually here for him.
In long strides Felix stepped over wrapping the frozen boy into a tight warm hug. "I've missed you so much." He whispered nearly suffocating Hyunjin with how tight he was holding him. In this moment Hyunjin felt loved, so loved that he wondered if he even deserved it. "Lixie." He whispered as the tears began to fall, Felix is the same as ever, to kind and sweet for his own good. He wrapped his arms tightly around Felix's waist pulling him inside the building for their reunion rather than out in the cold.
Hyunjin felt his knees give way and Felix gently guided him to the floor. "Shh it's okay I'm here." Felix whispered pulling back and gently holding Hyunjin's face in his small hands. His thumb ran over the prickly stubble as he stared sweetly at the older. "Felix....." Hyunjin whispered staring into the soft brown orbs. In a swift movement Felix placed his lips onto Hyunjin's in a sweet passionate kiss. Felix's touch was gentle just like his soul. His whole soul was consumed by the younger's sweet touch.
Hyunjin pulled away. "Let's continue this upstairs." He spoke standing up and grabbing Felix's hand to lead him to his apartment. In the elevator Felix found himself pressed against the wall with Hyunjin's lips exploring his soul. Hyunjin's calloused hands caressed Felix's lithe body as he scaled them up the younger's torso. The elevator dinged and Hyunjin dragged Felix down the hall to his apartment that he busted open. He had left it unlocked so they could quickly enter and he knew the building was more than secure.
Hyunjin shoved Felix into his messy apartment closing the door behind them. "Hyunjin." Felix whispered standing behind the older who faced the door. Hyunjin turned around making eye contact with Felix. Like the life came back to him Hyunjin raced over reconnecting their lips grabbing at Felix's waist. His uncut nails dug into Felix skin as their lips met in a passionate battle of lust and longing. He guided Felix's steps over to his bedroom where he lifted the younger with his fatigued muscles and set him on the bed.
Hyunjin stripped his own jacket and shirt off as Felix watched with starry eyes. "Hyunjin wait." Felix spoke and Hyunjin saw tears springing from his eyes. "You're not just using me for physical satisfaction are you? Because if that's the case I don't want this." Felix spoke trying to fight off tears. "Never. Felix I love you so much that he second I saw you I couldn't help but want to devour you whole." Hyunjin spoke sincerely without stuttering of wavering. He walked over holding Felix's soft face in his hands.
"I love you too. That's why I'm always messaging you because I can't stand the thought of never being able to talk to you again." Felix whispered letting his tears fall. "My baby I love you so much you don't even know." Hyunjin whispered leaning forward to kiss away the tears. "I don't feel like words are enough I want to show you with our bodies." Hyunjin spoke making intense eye contact with Felix. "Fuck yes." Felix whispered grabbing Hyunjin's waist and pressing him into the mattress crawling on top of him.
"But please allow me." Felix spoke stripping his own shirt off immediately feeling Hyunjin's cold hands caressing his torso. Felix shivered leaning forward to connect their lips ferociously. Every single kiss they share is just as passionate and loving as the last of not more. Their desire shows through in the way they connect themselves.
Felix worked with quick hands to free Hyunjin's lower half of his sweatpants.
"Goddammit Felix."
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They laid in the bed cuddled together. "I love you." Felix whispered into Hyunjin's neck where his face was tucked. "I love you too, please don't leave me." Hyunjin whispered kissing Felix's head as he stared at the ceiling. "I will never leave you. You're mine forever." Felix confirmed and Hyunjin felt his heart explode with love. He held Felix tighter. "Let's go get cleaned up Jinnie." Felix requested sitting up in his naked glory. His torso had dried cum left on it as well as dark hickies. "Alright." Hyunjin spoke sitting up and getting out of the bed with Felix.
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