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Sex. The first time I heard the word, I was in grade school, and some of the older kids were talking about it in hushed conversation. Of course, being the precocious kid I was – I went straight home and asked my mom what it meant that very same day. That’s when I got my very first sex talk. The “birds and the bees” – if you will. I didn’t have the courage at the time to ask her how two boys had sex together. That’s what the internet was for, after I learned how to get past the restrictions my parents put on my computer.
I came out to my parents when I was twelve. It was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be. And, of course –as with most teenagers that age – I was very savvy with finding porn that I liked, and was very careful about deleting my browsing history. I learned a lot from porn – I made the mistake of the first video I ever watched being a double penetration scene and that almost scared me away from porn forever – and now, I know exactly what I like.
While my parents were completely supportive of my coming out, I couldn’t exactly go to them to ask about the details of gay sex. My mom gave me that one and only sex talk when I was a kid, and that was it. Everything else I learned, I researched myself. The internet is full of useful resources, if you know where to look. And not just porn (even though I definitely enjoy porn – who doesn’t?). Educational websites – so not only do I know how to keep myself and my partner safe, but I’m pretty sure I can make it extremely pleasurable for both of us.
I’m very familiar with my body – sure, the first time I used my fingers it was a little weird, but now I know exactly how to make myself feel good. And I cannot wait to make someone else feel this good. I want my first time to be with someone I love, someone who loves me back – and if I have to wait, I’m okay with that.
Hi, my name is Blaine Anderson and I’m a virgin.
I don’t like watching those movies. I’ve tried on numerous occasions, but all that happens is me thinking about what their mothers would think and why they have that tattoo there. While my friends were having sex in high school, I was doing everything I could to get the hell out of Lima, Ohio. I didn’t know the first thing about sex. Didn’t really need to, seeing as I never had a boyfriend.
Get a little alcohol in me once I finally get to the big city, and apparently I think the first guy I meet is my soul mate. I thought Matthew was really interested in me, would want to start seeing me – boy, was I ever wrong.
Sex was not what I was expecting it to be. Having it was a mistake. It hurt, and I’m not entirely sure I ever want to have it again. I feel so ashamed – I never thought I’d have a one night stand.
Hi, my name is Kurt Hummel and I am no longer a virgin – but I wish I could take it all back.