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We were drinking wine. I don't remember what kind because all i was focused on was you. Ha it's so embarrassing. I've known you forever now.
Every year we take a trip up the mountains and drink wine and talk. We're both so busy that this is really the only time we see eachother. I'm working on my stuff and you're working on your stuff.
I miss you. Really I do. I miss talking with you, you talking about your projects and listening to you strumming your guitar. It always sounds so nice no matter how drunk you are.
But it's over now isn't it? You stabbed yourself in the chest and you knew very well what was coming next.
I saw it. I shed a tear at the fact that you're dead now. And while I hate you so much for it. I secretly miss you. But you're dead and I can never see you again.
Why? We had so much. You had so much and yet you ruined it. Why?
Did you think you were going to be fine afterwards? Well clearly not!
I hate the fact that i miss someone who doesn't deserve it.
Fuck you.