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You were infront of Loki's and your house with a bouquet of flowers. You were dating him for a some time now, and he low-key liked receiving flowers it made him happy, back in Asgard or old Asgard he never found a kind person's love, he did court people but he never received any effection of care and love except from his mother, and giving him flowers made him really happy so you brought him a bouquet instead of a single one in hand.
You waited for a while but he didn't open the door so you took the spare key from your pocket and hesitated before you took a deep breath and unlocked the door and got in. You called out his name softly and heard his voice in the kitchen, you smiled as you slowly approached him from behind, he was on a call with someone. He cut the call angrily and turned around really quickly which made you both bump into him resulting the plate on his hand was dropped and shattered next to your dropped bouquet of flowers.
You paused as you gazed at the plate, shakingly stepped back and hesitated but looked up at him. "I...I'm really sorry" you muttered, tears started forming in your eyes. His frown changed to concern and his eyes melted. "Y/n.." he whispered and stepped close to you which made you whimper and step back. "I-I'm really sorry" you muttered and started to cry. Before he knew it, you started running away and went upstairs. He blinked in confusion and worry as he saw you go away. He glanced at the bouquet on the floor before he rushed upstairs and searched for you.
"Y/n! Where are you? Please come out" He called as he searched in every room but didn't see you anywhere. He finally stopped when he felt your scent from the closest of your room. He paused before he opened the closest and saw you curled up inside in a terrible state. His face saddened as he knelt down as went to caress your cheek but you flinched and moved back. "I'm really sorry" you muttered and sobbed which just made Loki hate himself for whatever he did to bring his little sunshine in this state.
"Don't be sorry, I'm sorry. I don't know what I did love, please tell me what happened and what I did to make you cry, please" he begged as you hid your face and moved away from his hand trying to reach for you. He paused as he realised it and sucked in a breath. "I won't hurt you" he whispered which made your shoulders relax a bit and finally look up at him. "I swear I'll never hurt you, p...please come out I swear I won't do anything to upset you please just...come out" he whispered and stepped aside to give you some space.
After a long pause you crawled out of the small space and sat on the floor while Loki closed the closet door and sat down next to you. He hesitated to lay a hand on you as you simply flinched at that, he stayed still...struggling to not reach not and help you in this state. After some crying and calming down, he spoke. "Can you... please tell me what happened?" He asked politely as he fixed a strain of your hair and you looked at the floor.
"I broke the plate and I saw your frown and...and.." you paused, as you paused he tried to finish the sentence. "and that...I'd get mad?" He asked and raised an eyebrow, you nodded slowly. "T-that..." You struggled to say it and he took your hand in his to caress it. "Please be honest with me and say what you thought" he muttered. "That... you'd yell...at me and that you'd....h-hit...me" you finally said and dropped down your tears and sobbed. His eyes widened and he felt his chest heavy as he proceeded on what you just said, struggling to breath...he felt like someone stabbed him in the chest as your words echoed in his head.
"I-I.." he was too stunned and shocked to say a word. He breathed out loudly and looked at you desperately with hurt in his eyes. He simply pulled you towards him and wrapped his arms around you. "I'd never" he whispered and weeped silently with you with a small sob. "I'm really sorry" he said and weeped more as he heard you sobbed into his chest, hurt at the thought that you would ever think of him being abusive to you...you; one of the few people who were really nice to him in his life and gave him the love he deserves, you...one of those few people that he actually cared about and genuinely loved with his whole heart. All he wanted to do was apologise to you and comfort you, to let you know that you're safe...with him.
After a little crying he left a small kiss on your forehead and rubbed your back. "I'd never hurt you...never, I swear" he mumbled and let down his tears, shaking his head and assuring you. "I'm...not that kind of person, I swear I'm...not" he mumbled again and again the same thing to let you know he isn't. You slowly gave in and wrapped your arms around his waist which relaxed his tence shoulders and kiss your neck with his wet tears. "I love you.." he hugged you tighter as he said it again. "I'd never hurt you, love..never, I swear" he relaxed his arms and kissed your forehead when you snuggled onto him.
For a while he held you and said sweet things to you till you finally felt better. Over some time which felt like an hour you stayed like that...till you were sure that you were okay. He let out a breath before he decided to ask you straight ahead to know the reason for such thoughts in your head. "Love?" He called lowly and you looked up at him. "Do you feel better after letting it all out?" He asked and you gave a nod. "Then can I...know the reason for such thoughts to occur in your mind?" He asked. You gave a nod and paused before you took a deep breath as he rubbed your back, letting you know to take your time.
You spoke after a minute of silence. "My..father used to yell and sometimes hit my mother, she was clumsy like me and once she dropped an expensive set of plates he bought, he..." You paused and took a deep breath. "He hit her so bad it left marks over her body." You whispered and weeped as you spoke. "I used to hide under the bed or a closet when they argued or when I made him mad..he searched for me to hit me with a belt...my mother usually covered up for me...I always felt guilty for that" You weeped and Loki listened quietly while you spoke, caressing your back to calm you down."It's okay.. you're safe, I want you to know that" he assured as you sobbed and went back to continue.
"When I became an adult I moved out, I struggled to live on my own with my past memories as a child of abuse but finally learnt to mingle and started working enough to bring my mom to live with me..away from my father but sadly they both died in a car accident and I...tried to forget my past. I tried my best to learn to live as a free adult, I never dated many men much and stayed away from them even when we were dating and ended things when they wanted me to move in... because I thought it might happen..to me, what happened to my mother " you paused and snuggled onto Loki. He hugged you back and slowly rubbed your back.
You glanced up at him and continued to speak. "But...when I met...and started seeing you...when you asked me to move in...I don't know why but I agreed for the first time and came here. I wasn't afraid of you, I'm... not. I was slowly learning to be free from my fear of relationships but when..the plate broke today I remembered my father and mother... I got scared so I hid...here" you said and whimpered as you thought about it. Loki shook his head and told you to take deep breaths. He didn't say a word and simply layed his forehead against yours.
"I'm not your father" he stated and hesitated for a second but decided to lean down and peck your lips. "I'll never hurt you or yell at you, I won't let a scratch get to you, I'll never hurt you, I love you and I'm sorry you had to go through that, love. I swear I'll try to give you all the love and support you deserve, give you the love you're missing" you relaxed onto him and layed your head on his chest.
"I...love you too" you whispered and his eyes widened. You'd never said it back before to him or anyone, either hesitated or made an excuse and ran away, now he knew why it was so hard for you to say it back. But when he heard you say it for the first time..not just to him but first time ever to anyone, he just felt his adreline rushing through his gland and hug you tighter and leave kisses on your face with tears of joy.
"I love you... I love you so much" he whispered and kissed you deeply. After a few seconds you kissed him back as he pulled you closer towards him. After a long deep kiss you both pulled away and gasped. "Please say it again" he asked and held your shoulders with a small smile. "I...love you too" you said a little lowly but enough for Loki to hear which made him smile weakly with tears.
He held your hands in his and pulled you on his lap. "If anything happens like this ever again... please remember that I love you and would never ever hurt you, okay?" You gave a nod and layed your head on his chest. "I love your flowers by the way" he said which made you smile and blush. "Thank you" he whispered and kissed your head. You rested your eyes and drifted to sleep peacefully knowing that you have the best boyfriend you could ever ask for..
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