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Joey didn't have a reason to go on. He didn't have an end goal in sight so what was the point in continuing?
He had his family and friends but what else would he leave behind? There was nothing more that would be gone. He woke up, went to school, did his homework, hung out with friends and talked to his family, then watched his shows until late at night and then the cycle repeated itself every day.
He went to school simply just to go there and what else, for when he changes schools next year his friends won't be there? There was no aspect with school that kept him going, just the thought of his family being disappointed when he couldn't fulfill his role as the smart and perfect child, that was the only thing that kept him going there. School took the soul out of him and he was mentally exhausted.
When he was done with school what would he do then? No goals to work towards and happiness short lived when he watched shows or hung out with friends. He still felt happy but at the end of the day what would he do when he didn't have anyone to hang out with?
Joey didn't want to die, dont misunderstand, he knew he would miss out on life's happinesses that came later in life and he knew it probably would be worth it in the end, but right now there wasn't anything motivating him to go on but didnt want to leave life, family or friends behind.
He couldn't talk with anyone about it, he had weighed all his options but no one seemed to be a good choice for him. But for now he guessed he would continue even though he didn't feel like he had a reason.