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Tim leans over and softly kisses his lovers forehead. Raising up he looks down at the man whose love, life, bed, and home he has shared for the past 3 yrs. Like everything in his life, this to is ending. His mind returns to that fateful day just 3 weeks ago:
The morning starts out normal, they make love long, and slow and yet somehow this morning it's different this time. It's like Gibbs is just going through the motions, the passion seems to be gone, like something between them has changed. Once they are finished Gibbs can't seem to get away from Tim fast enough. He rushes to the bathroom and quickly locks the door.
Tim gets out of bed and follows him to the bathroom only to find the door locked. Standing at the door his forehead against the cold unfeeling wood, as his heart shatters. He can't help it as the tears begin to flow down his face. Turning he goes back to the bed, picking up his clothes and his to go bag, he takes a longing look at the room and the bed he has shared with the man he loves so much. Turning he quietly heads down the stairs, he dresses quickly and rushes out the door so he can get home, to shower and change before heading into work one last time.
Gibbs leans his head against the shower wall feeling the warm water cascading over his naked body. Slamming his fist against the wall, as the anger at himself rises.
"What the hell is wrong with me? I've went and ruined what was so special, so precious in my life. How could I do that? How could I have hurt Tim like this? He didn't deserve the way I've treated him? He didn't deserve to be betrayed, to have his heart broken like this. He doesn't deserve to be hurt like this. He does deserve to be loved, honored, and treated like the very special man he is. He doesn't deserve me. Dammit what the hell is wrong with me? How could I do this to Tim? He trusted me with his heart and I swore I would never hurt him and what the hell do I do? I go and break his fragile heart just like everyone else has in his past. I betrayed him. He's done nothing but love and accept me with all my faults and yet all I have done is use him and hurt him"
Not realizing how long he's been in the shower or how cold the water has gotten until his ringing phone breaks through his thoughts. He hasn't even realized that he's been crying all this time.
He quickly turns off the water, steps out of the shower and opens the bathroom door, that's when it hits him that Tim is not there.
"Dammit Tim! Just where the hell are you." Gibbs growls to himself.
Just then his phone starts ringing again. He hadn't realized it had stopped ringing until now. Grabbing the phone off the nightstand,"Gibbs".
"Dead Marine at Quantico " the voice on the other end states matter of fact.
Without another word Gibbs disconnects the call. He dresses quickly and heads out, grabbing the thermos full of coffee that his wonderful lover has left for him. Silently thanking Tim, he makes a mental note in his head that he will talk to him and straighten this mess he's made out of things with Tim.
Driving in silence, his thoughts turning back over everything that has happened between them over these last few months. His phone ringing again brings him back to the present.
" Boss" Tony says as soon as Gibbs picks up the phone.
" Yea Tony what is it?"
" Boss do you know where Probie is?"
"Now why in hell would I know where the hell McGee is?"
"I just thought you might know. I can't seem to reach him."
" Dammit, Tony I will get ahold of him and when I do .......never mind. I'll have him meet us at the crime scene.
" Thanks Boss."
Gibbs hangs up and proceeds to dial Tim's number.
The phone rings several times before its answered.
"Yea Boss."
"I thought I told you never to be unreachable.Dammit Tim."
"Sorry Boss I was in the shower and didn't hear the phone ring."
"I'll be by to pick you up in 5 minutes we have a dead marine at Quantico. Be ready when I get there."
" Boss I will meet you at the crime scene I am closer and it would take you out of your way to pick me up. So I will just meet you there." Tim says.
Gibbs closes the phone and thinks to himself "We are going to talk about this Tim."
Tim closes his phone and hangs his head he knows that this will not go well for him.
TBC