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The wooshing sounds of miles of dark highway passing under the bus seemed a stark contrast with the frantic thoughts speeding around Brian’s REM sleep. Blonde hair, flushed cheeks, glistening lips, haunted his dreams as the tour pushed across Europe. Since leaving France, sparkling blue eyes had permeated the dreams, and Brian struggled, not only to sleep, but to reconcile the unspoken and un-acted on desire that plagued him now. Somewhere deep in his southern conscience, his heart and mind saw each time his shaking hand reached out in the dreams to touch, to feel, to claim……. and his eyes would fly open……..Heart pounding, breath short; staring blindly at the bunk bottom above him each long night. Chest tight, he would take a shuddery breath than another and another as he corralled his thoughts and slowed his heart rate by sheer will power. If only stopping his body from throbbing was as doable…… Then he rolled over, shut his own blue eyes again… “I can wait”, his heart swore, “I can wait” as he drifted back to sleep.
Bus ride after long bus ride, the Boys crisscrossed Europe; interview after interview, concert after concert. Fans falling in love for a lifetime with them and their music. Dancing, singing, smiling, promoting….. Tired but riding the wave of adrenaline and promised stardom. During the day Frick & Frack playfulness was forefront – fans eating it up. But late at night, the dream continued… Every time Brian shut his eyes all he could see was Nick’s blue eyes staring up at him as he smoothed the hair out of his face on camera during that French lengthy interview. His mind and his body at war with each other; but his heart kept stuttering nightly…….. “I can wait”……… “I can wait”…..
Suddenly, they were on a seemingly never-ending flight to the Philippines for the Asia Promo Tour. The BSB jaugernaught was pushing out from Europe and they were scheduled to perform with Streetboys. Get Down was exploding. The BSB Army Philippines was being born. Brian’s disrupted sleep showed on his face but his pure voice never faltered as they performed in the tropical heat. The Boys gave a performance fans still remember decades later. Brian’s voice was clear and true as he sang “I feel like heaven when I look in your eyes” – the song taking on deeper and deeper meaning after each dream.
Later that night, blowing off steam wrestling and pillow fighting as usual, he found himself looking down into Nick’s blue eyes again. They had wrestled to a standstill and Nick was pinned to the bed by the weight of Brian’s body. Only the sounds of their rapid breathing could be heard now after the giggles and teasing of Frick & Frack for the past half an hour. Brian’s clouded eyes wandered over Nick’s flushed cheeks and then back up to be trapped again by Nick’s. Nicky’s eyes widened uncertainly as the air shifted around them, feeling somehow denser, more weighty….the playfulness gone. Brian’s gut clenched and his now heated gaze flickered from pinked cheeks to red lips and back to those wide blue eyes. Still desperately trying to fight what seemed inevitable, he carefully lowered his head and pressed a chaste kiss to Nick’s closed lips.
He felt Nick stiffen slightly and a sharp intake of breath and he pressed his own closed lips against Nicky’s mouth harder trying to convey how hard he was battling the surging feelings. Just as Brian started to pull back from the contact, he felt Nick’s body relax and those red lips softened under his - right as he pulled away. Opening his eyes, all he could see was the beauty of Nick’s relaxed face, his blue eyes shining through his still partially closed eyes – new emotions dancing there.
A low groan was pulled from Brian and he slowly, oh so slowly, lowered his now partially open mouth over Nick’s in another basically innocent kiss. As Brian pulled back again, he paused, their lips millimeters apart, breathing the same air, eyes locked. Nicky’s pink tongue flicked out to lick his own perfect lips where Brian’s mouth had just been and Brian almost lost the war. He lifted a trembling hand, held Nick’s face perfectly still and barely let his tongue flick over the same spot Nick had just licked….Claiming it. Brian’s body shuddered and he pushed his face into Nicky’s neck, breathing him in, holding him tightly against his body, fighting for control.
Finally, he murmured in Nicky’s ear, “I will wait somehow…. I will always love you…. I can wait a bit longer but you are mine… I promise I can wait.” The only sounds for a while were the two heartbeats slowing down together to beat as one. Still locked in Brian’s arms, Nicky’s soft voice whispered, “ I will love you always too Bri. ” then, suddenly sounding mature, Nick calmly stated, “you wont have to wait much longer; im growing up fast and ……I will always be yours.” He wrapped his longer arms and legs around Brian; pulling him even closer. The waiting game continuing, the exhausted pair drifting off to sleep. The Asia Promo Tour kept rolling on in the race against time; then the performances headed back to the crazy schedule in Europe. Each day ticking down in Brian’s mind as the need to fight the intense physical pull pulsed around them. The right time was coming for him to claim what was his.