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I get a feelin' sometimes
That I can't get close enough to you
I feel it most in the nighttime
Even though that's when I'm closest to you
If I could be under your skin
Closer than we've ever been
We'd be closer than we've ever been
I feel it most in the nighttime, yeah
Me never on your timeline, yeah
See you always in the limelight
Keep me rollin' in the deep, yeah
Not a tease, no joke, I do mean it
Don't cease, baby don't, why you floatin'?
Wanna lock you up in my sight
But you run away like fish, yeah
If somebody asked me how would I describe Seo Ari, my answer will always be "She is beautiful."
She is beautiful for the way she walked. She is beautiful for the way she dressed. She is beautiful for the way she talked about her ideas and her brand. She is beautiful in everything, almost as if she had no flaws onsight.
But this beautiful lady is too kind, too strong for this cruel world. She put a smile on her face when everyone was baring their fangs to her. She is too beautiful, even for me.
I brushed a strand of her hair out of her face. She stirred a little bit but continue to drift in her sleep. I took a closer look at her face. The shape of her eyebrows, eyes, nose, and lips. A smile crept up my face as I held her closer. Gosh, I love her so much. So much that I wanted to shield her from everything so she no longer hurting.
I keep you right next to me
Only just in my dream
I see you in red, blue, green
Don't wake me up from sleep
I think I'm losin' my grip
Everything off the beam
Why you showed up in my life
Like this so sudden, oh god no
I get a feelin' sometimes
That I can't get close enough to you
I feel it most in the nighttime
Even though that's when I'm closest to you
If I could be under your skin
Closer than we've ever been (uh huh)
We'd be closer than we've ever been (uh huh)
"What did you say?" I put my fork down and faced towards her.
She nodded, "Just like I've said. I think we need a break."
"What do you mean? A break?"
"Yeah."
"From what, Seo Ari?"
"From all of this. Our relationship." She smiled her usual smile to me. And somehow that smile seemed so suffocating.
"Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry if I did. If you can tell me, I'll fix it right-"
"You didn't do anything wrong, Junkyung. It's just..." She stopped herself to take a deep breath. I could see the tears start pooling in the corner of her eyes.
I stayed silent as she continue, "I don't want to hold you down, Junkyung."
What? Hold me down?
"What do you mean? You never hold me down. Did someone says otherwise?"
After a few seconds passed in silence, I took that as her answer. I dropped my fork and made my way towards her side of the table. I crouched down and held her hands in mind.
"Seo Ari, what did you see or read?"
She closed her eyes, a tear successfully escaped. I wiped it gently. "They said that our relationship won't last long. And that, this is all just a fling to you. I know what they said is nothing but nonsense, but still it's eating up my mind..."
I am an idiot. I'm so stupid. How come I didn't think that maybe she hadn't heal yet from all those traumas?
"Seo Ari, look at me." She slowly opened her eyes. I smiled, "Deep down, you know how I feel about you, right?"
She nodded and wiped more of her tears.
"Then, you don't need to worry. I know it's hard. And it is perfectly fine to take your time. But don't ever think for once that I will leave you. I won't and gosh, I don't want to. If you let me, I will be here with you. So the next time you're doubting my feelings for you, just ask. I'll gladly ease your worries for you."
I let go of her hand and embraced her. I planted a light kiss on her forehead and hair as she sobbed into my shoulder.
"Y-you're going to stay close to me?" She asked between her sobs.
"Of course, I'll stay closer to you."