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Surgical interns,they are supposed to learn how to be great doctors one day.How to fix people,how to save lives.
Its hard to learn when you're starring at one of your atendings hair who happened to be by the room you were in.
Addison's hair was perfect Meredith thought.It wasn't too red to look like a burnt tomato,Wasn't orange enough to look like a carrot.Meredith also liked Addison's eyes,Her hair brought out her blue eyes.Meredith wondered what her lips felt like on her-
"Dr.Grey" Dr.Burke said snapping her out of her own little world.He starred at her as if looking for an answer.She hadn't even heard the question.Cristina who was beside her eyed her.
"Uh-i-i was just-"
"distracted" Dr.Burke cut in "get it together Grey" He said before walking out of the room.The other interns followed along and so did she.Addison was still where she was before.
She let her self spare a glance at Addison who was currently arguing with a nurse.Shes perfect,in almost every single way,Who was she kidding she was perfect in every way.Meredith knew that Addison would never feel the same.Sure they were friends but nothing more.Meredith sighed and turned back around to finish her rounds.
(Later at lunch)
Cristina sat down next to Meredith."whats up with you today,you were unfocused" Cristina asked not bothering to look up from her paper she was currently reading.
"i'm fine" Meredith said taking a bite of her sandwich.Cristina looked at her and raised and eyebrow.
Then Meredith's pager went off. "look i'm fine,really" is all she said before walking back into the building.Cristina shrugged,she'll tell me when she needs me Cristina thought
(The next day)
She was on Addison's service today,great she thought 'don't stare' she said to herself as Addison approached her.
"Come on,we have to get to the OR soon" Addison said turning around and walked.Meredith followed close behind.
They made it to the room where the patient was.
"this is Crista shes pregnant with twins" Addison said picking up her charts.
"she is 31 weeks along" Addison said smiling politely at the patient.Crista returned the smile.
"Dr.Grey,what is the normal term for a baby" Addison said turning around to look at her."40 weeks is considered full term" She answered quickly.
"yes but with twins 36 is considered very healthy" "i expected you to know that Grey" Addison said turning back to the patient and had a conversation.Meredith was tuned out though.Addison was intoxicating Meredith thought.Every time she even glanced in her direction every thought she had vanished and it was just her and Addison.
"get her prepped for surgery"Addison said before leaving.Meredith nodded and began prepping her for a C-section right? Meredith starred blankly at Crista.
"you didn't hear a thing she said did you?' She asked raising and eyebrow smiling.Meredith didn't say anything and just began hooking up IV's.
"You must like her a lot" She said resting her head back on the pillow."how did you know" Meredith asked smirking a bit and started the ultra sound.
"i used to look at my husband that way,before he died" She said sadly.Meredith didn't know what to say so she tilted the monitor towards her "those are you babies" She said.
Crista smiled "I hope you get up the nerve to ask her out,i couldn't do it till 2 years after i met him,i regret it everyday because i knew i could have had two more years with him"
Meredith felt guilty so she just wiped off the gel and continued prepping.
(little later in surgery)
If you could think of everything that could go wrong right now..you name it,it was happening.Crista's heart was in v-fib and the babies weren't getting air.The babies weren't crying,they haven't been for one minute.
"Charge to 300! Clear!"
We starred at the monitor,no change.Crista was dead.Meredith couldn't believe it,she was fine,now shes dead.
"dammit!" Addison exclaimed.Crista's two sons were still not breathing.They've tried everything.Meredith didn't want to say anything.Nobody wanted to say anything not even the scrub nurses.
Three lives were token today.Meredith knew this wasn't fair and she was sad.But probably not as sad as Addison was she had been working with them for 3 months now.
The room was dead silent.No one moved.The only noise was the loud beeeeeeeeep of the monitor;
"time of deaths 4:58 pm" Addison finally said tears in her eyes and storming out of the room.Mereidth didn't know what to do.She just stood there fore a while.
Before she followed after Addison."Addison" she called out slowly jogging through the hall.
She heard a light crying sounds from the on call room next to her.She approached it slowly knocking on it gently "Addison?" she asked softly.
She put her ear up to the door when it was suddenly thrown open She nearly fell over.
"Adi-"
Addison suddenly clung on to her sobbing.Meredith stood there for a second before hugging her back.
After a minute or so of this and Addison loosened her grip and turned around and lied down on the bed.Her head was berried in the pillow.Meredith felt so awful seeing her like this. She slowly walked into the room closing it behind her.
When she got to the bed she sat down on the edge,before hesitantly laying down beside Addison.Addison buried her head into her shoulder.
Meredith stiffened before taking a breath and relaxing.Meredith looked at Addison and realized she was already asleep.This felt right,almost natural.
Maybe.Just maybe Meredith thought,they could be something.Who is she kidding? love is only in fairy tales.
right?