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I woke up from the slumber that consumed me the night before. The night where I stayed up wondering why I felt the way I did
Why did I feel like I wasn't as important as people said? My stomach felt nauseous as I threw my legs over the side. Sparing a quick glance at my window being temporarily blinded by the sunlight that was streaming in, I made my way to the bathroom where I avoided the mirror in fear of what the person in the reflection would look like. They probably looked like they hated themselves. Wouldn't be too far from the truth.
"Honey are you awake?"
My head throbbed from the voice of my mum that emerged from the kitchen. "Yeah," I responded quietly but loud enough for her to hopefully hear. I didn't care enough about her not hearing it though. I would go days being quiet and barely saying anything. And she wouldn’t say anything about it until she eventually snapped. But that was this family and I was used to it.
“Okay, please get ready you have work today at 10.”
Of course…I forgot.
I really didn’t want to go to work today, it was going to be hot and miserable. I didn’t want to deal with that. But nevertheless, I agreed and pulled my uniform over my body clipping my hip pack onto my waist, putting my hat on my head and putting my sunglasses into my pocket for when I got to work and I needed to put them on.
Then walked out of my room and walked into the kitchen to get a drink of water that I desperately needed. I had snatched my phone before I came out of my room so I unlocked it and took a look at my schedule.
I don’t have work today?
“Mum I don’t have work today…”
She looked up from her phone with a confused look, “what do you mean?” “I looked at my schedule and I have the day off today…” my voice answered monotone and tired, I was so very tired. “Oh, alright, well you can go back to bed I guess.”
I suppose I didn’t complain about that when she had said it because by the time she was done with that sentence I was in my room taking off my uniform, in my pyjamas and in my bed comfortably falling into the deep slumber that made me oh so comfortable.
Although I supposed maybe staying awake could have been better, because when my body was overcome by sleep my mind raced causing a dream that would have been burned into my memory for days upon days.