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Ryuuji never burdened himself with the concept of Heaven.
There had never been any evidence to suggest such a thing existed, with all the shit and pain in the world. Who would really believe there was just some perfect place you could leave to if you earned it? If such a place did exist, no one here deserved it. Not anymore. There were several depictions of Heaven, but they all led back to the same theme in a sense.
"Precious Gemstones will Adorn Heaven - Revelation" 21:9-11
"Heaven Will Have Pearl Gates & Streets of Gold" - Revelation 21:21
Those little phrases in the bible all led back to riches and wealth, but Ryuuji never wanted that. He didn't crave material wealth the same way most would, if we were to die some day. Why should we waste our time collecting wealth we all would lose some day? He couldn't connect.
"Heaven Will Be Filled with Peace, Joy, and Praise" - Revelation 7:15-17
Peace. That sounded pleasant. It felt calm, and loving, but he didn't feel the urge to dedicate his life to Joy and Peace. Not when he already had a source of Joy and Peace.
Ryuuji never burdened himself with the existence of Heaven, until he realized he was living in one. His Rin. Rin Okumura. Nothing was ever quite like his Rin. He was Ryuuji's Heaven. Rin was everything the bible depicted and more, and Ryuuji was more than willing to dedicate his care and praise to his Rin. Even the smallest kiss from his Love drove him insane, the slightest brush of skin against each other, the softest laugh. It all was almost too much for him.
He could remember their very first kiss like it was yesterday, how could he ever forget? It was all so sudden, he hardly had time to react. He couldn't. It was just before Ryuji had fainted during their battle with The Impure King, he could remember how gentle and soft Rin's touch had been. The way his gentle touch gently caressed his face, if it weren't for pure exhaustion he would have leaned into that touch. Thank god Rin had been brave enough to press his lips against Ryuuji's in that moment, he hardly had enough time to return the kiss before he had fainted.
It had taken a while for Rin to actually talk with him about it, he seemed flustered. Ryuuji had been wondering if Rin regretted it, or if it was just a heat of the moment thing. It had actually pissed him off. He thought Rin was avoiding him, which was why it was so difficult to talk with him 1 on 1, but thank god he had. Ryuuji had to grab Rin by the collar of the jacket and yank him back into an empty classroom. He had kept a tight grip on the demon so that he couldn't escape. The demon seemed nervous, Ryuuji now knew Rin was terrified of rejection. Especially after he had worked so hard to mend their relationship. Unfortunately at the time Ryuuji was pissed, he was ranting about how Rin was being an asshole about avoiding him when he was suddenly kissed again. It wasn't quite as gentle as their first kiss, that was obvious by the fact that he was tackled back into a desk from the force of it. Rin had his hands tightly gripping the jacket Ryuuji wore, Ryuuji stared in shock for a moment before melting into the kiss. Ryuuji brought his hand up to cup Rin's face, his other coming down to grip the demon's hip.
They have had possibly hundreds of kisses since then, the ones pressed against his neck were one of his favourites. Ryuuji would be laying on his stomach, lazily reading over a passage in his book as Rin laid across his back. Occasionally he would feel a soft kiss being peppered across his spine. Or when he was standing in the kitchen with Rin, occasionally helping the Demon with a meal. Rin would hook his arms around the aria's waist, a soft kiss being pressed against the nape of his neck. Or when they'd be cuddling with Rin sat in his lap, his face buried in Ryuuji's neck as they just took in the domestics of the situation. His hand would slip up to grip Rin's thigh, slightly tilting his head to the side as Rin kissed his neck, occasionally nipping at his skin.
That was one of his favourite moments between the two, they rarely were able to engage in moments like that anymore. They hardly got any time alone anymore, especially not with Ryuuji being taken under Lewin's wing as an apprentice. Which is what made this all more the better.
The feeling of Rin's nails gently brush against his skin caused him to moan softly, the claws gently digging into the nape of his neck. He had his Rin underneath him, his legs wrapped around Ryuuji's waist which locked him in this position. Ryuuji would eventually pull away from the kiss, gently grabbing Rin by the chin and tilting his head to the side. He leans down, peppering soft kisses along the demon's throat. He felt Rin's throat bob as he smallowed hard, a soft moan escaping the demon's mouth as he leans his head back. "Ryu-" he whispers into the Aria's ear.
Just the sound of Rin's whiny voice made him groan, he slowly trailed his kisses up his jaw and finally reaching his lips again. He gently threaded his fingers through Rin's long white hair. The demon had long been trying to grow it out, Ryuuji could spot black roots growing it, but it would be a while until the ebony hair was the length it were before. He knew that fact bothered Rin, he had caught the demon staring at his hair in the mirror. Rin had quite a few little insecurities Ryuuji had caught him worrying over. Such as those cute little canines he had, or those gorgeous vibrant blue eyes, or how he would rarely actually relax around him. That last one bothered him the most, he was supposed to be the one Rin trusted all through out life. And yet the demon wouldn't let that little personality in his head out, Ryuuji could understand his reasoning. Unfortunately it always seemed therapeutic for Rin to just let go, he always seemed so happy afterwards. The demon had only let that side loose three times, the first time was after their first proper kiss in that classroom, second on an exorcism, and the third when he proposed.
Ryuuji would pull away slightly, playing with the demon's hair. Rin would keen into the touch, humming softly as his tail flicks softly. "Rin, Angel?" He tries.
The demon hums softly, letting his eyes slip open. "Hm?..." he mutters in return, a warm smile being given to him.
Ryuuji could only smile in response, that gorgeous smile was everything to him. He pecked a soft kiss against Rin's lips. "Can I ask you a favour?..." he questions.
"Anything"
"Never change, I never want you to change anything at all about yourself" Ryuuji hums, Rin would only smile in response. He liked like he was thinking it over, that sort of annoyed Ryuuji.
He pressed another kiss to the corner of his lips. "Rin, you are perfection, you are just- absolute" he admits.
The Demon once again said nothing, the smile had dropped and that made his heart shatter. He turns his head to the side, not able to look at Ryuuji. No way did he actually want every part of him. There were so mamy little details about himself that he hated, no way did Ryuuji like those too. He wasn't 'absolute'. Rin was pathetic. Horrible. Rin would give anything just to human again, he didn't want his canines, he absolutely hated his eyes, he was constantly chewing his nails because of how quickly they grew into claws, he despised how easily he was distracted with his hearing. That was probably the worst to him, every little tic and noise annoyed him. It was worse when he was trying to study. It was most likely oart of why he was so shitty in most of his classes. How could Ryuuji want any of him? Ryuuji was fucking amazing.
The demon was still amazed by his fiance to this day, some days he couldn't believe any of this was real. Every day he expects to wake up in an empty bed and have it all be some amazing dream, but Ryuuji is always there holding him. Always. He's always there to help him, any way he can. Ryuuji will always hold him when resding over passages in his books, sometimes he'll even read to Rin. He always asks him too of course, Rin really just loved hearing Ryuuji's voice. It didn't matter when. During an exorcism? Absolutely. When they were tired, laying in bed with Ryuuji softly whispering about his day? Show stopping. Even when Ryuuji would scold him, Rin was in absolute love. Not to mention he was a fucking genius. He loved that most, but at the same time he was such a nerd. Ryuuji would actually read, FOR fun. Rin couldn't imagine that, he hated reading, but when it was Ryuuji reading to him? Yeah, he could manage it.
"You are all that I could ever ask for and more, I need you by my side, Rin" Ryuujj mutters, snapping Rin from his thoughts.
The demon swallows hard, unable to find the words, but Ryuuji didn't stop. He would press a soft kiss to his temple before muttering. "All of the good in my life is because of you... I absolutely love talk with you, you always know just how to make everything right" he explains, pressing his kisses along the demon's cheekbone.
Rin closed his eyes, tilting his head to the side slightly as Ryuuji prasied him. "In fact, you could have had anything else in the world, and you asked for me. I'm so lucky to have you"
"Ryu- no, baby-" Rin tries, turning back to Ryuuji.
"I feel like if I loved you less I could tell you more, but words alone can't tell you how much I truly have fallen for you, Rin" Ryuuji continues, gently taking Rin's hand and pressing a soft kiss against his palm before letting the demon's hand rest against his cheek.
Rin's eyes began to water, he clenched his eyes shut, trying to drown out Ryuuji's gentle words. The aria gently kissed the tears away. "In case you ever forget, I am always thinking of you, my Rin" he continues, bringing his own hand up to thread through Rin's hair once again.
"Why? What makes me worth so much of your time?..." Rin questions, opening his eyes. Ryuuji gently brushed the tears that ran down the sides of his face away, his eyes were a little red.
"Because you, Rin. Are my Heaven" Ryuuji responds, leaning down and pressing a gentle kiss against his Rin's lips.
The Demon raised his hands, gently cupping Ryuuji's face and returning the kiss. He fell harder for Ryuuji more and more every day, his lover surprised him more than Rin could have ever imagined.
"As you are mine..." Rin whispers in response.