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‘’Who is that?’’
‘’Wow he is gorgeous!’’
‘’I heard he transferred because he was caught doing things’’
‘’Apparently he knocked some girl up and his parents made him move’’
‘’Is that the newest Iphone in his hand?’’
‘’Damn he looks good in that blazer, those blues suit him perfectly’’
Words and questions were thrown about as I walked the hall trying my best to keep my head down and stay out the way, hitching my bag up on to my shoulder I glanced up as a few girls gasped again and I followed there line of view to see a group of the popular kids walking down the hallway talking and laughing before my eyes caught sight of someone new among them.
And damn he was gorgeous.
Tall, dark haired, slightly tanned skin and what looked like a few freckles on his lips, broad shoulders leading down to long arms and then half covered hands with perfect long fingers, painted in a perfect black polish.
Slowly I took in the long legs paired off with black boots which came up to his knees nearly, adding at least a few more inches to the already tall figure which he was. He was dressed in a simple dark blue shirt with a two buttoned blazer over the top, from the opening I could see a long chain hanging around his neck, by the time I looked up to his face, I took in the dark sunglasses and his lips more, plump and almost kissable.
‘’Move it Ratliff’’ Came a gruff voice before I felt myself being thrown in to the lockers, the cool metal nipping at my flushed skin as I lowered my head and hid behind my bangs as people laughed around me.
‘’Nerd’’
‘’Loser’’
‘’So lame’’
‘’Faggot’’
The same names ran through the air like they did most days as I took a deep breath and pushed myself away and quickly headed towards the boy’s bathroom. Sighing gratefully as it was empty I walked over to the sinks and dropped my bag down before grabbing some tissue from the cubicles and moved back again and lightly wet them before reaching up and ran it along the skin under and around the cut, cleaning some of the blood of with a small winch before I reached down to my bag and pulled out the small bottle of disinfectant and pored some on to the tissue before I reached back up and gently pressed it against my the cut.
‘’Shit’’ I cursed out the moment it touched and I pulled my hand away as my other gripped the side of the counter, breathing out deeply I lent forward again and pressed the tissue back and started to clean it fully before drying the area off and just stared in to the mirror at my reflection.
I could hear the bell ringing for the start of class’s and I breathed out deeply as I looked away and pulled my bag of the floor and over my shoulder again before I turned, taking a step forward before stopping as feet came in to my eye line. Looking up quickly I took a step back and stared across at the boy who had the college’s attention this morning, a small lump forming in my throat as I backed away again until my lower back hit against the sinks.
‘’Hey, im not going to hurt you, I thought the bathrooms were empty’’ He told me, his voice came out almost like a low sexy sound, he still wore the sunglasses over his eyes as I nodded once and he smirked a little before stepping closer to me. My instinct was to step back again but I found I couldn’t and a slight smile crept up the corner of his lips, ‘’You know, I saw you staring in the hallway’’ He whispered out to me as he moved closer again until I could feel his breath on my ear as I looked away and down from him.
There was a sound of something opening and then a hand moving things before I saw him pull something out of his bag which glinted in the low bathroom lights, flinching out of nature I saw him stop slightly before touching my hand and placing it in, a low shock, running through my arm as he did. ‘’Here use this, it will help you hide that mark on your cheek’’ He told me before rubbing a thumb pad over the cut which still stung a little.
I could smell the cologne which he used, kinder fruity and more on the border of Coconut as he press closer to me again and I tried to back further against the sinks as much as I could, his breath on my ear as his hand which had been touching the cut moved down on to my shoulder. I couldn’t think straight with him so close and before I could stop myself I was pushing him away from me and started to move quickly towards the door before a hand reached out and grabbed my wrist tightly but still light enough not to hurt.
‘’See you around Ratliff’’ He breathed out to me before letting my arm go, spinning around I pulled the door open quickly and ran out in to the hall and started to move towards the study hall where I had to tutor someone for math’s.
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I could feel the eyes on me as I walked through the doors of the college’s office building, things were being said about me as I walked but I didn’t really care as I headed around the corner and was instantly surrounded by a group which I took to be the popular students around here, just like high school would be, I couldn’t help but think to myself as we chatted a little and I told them that I was heading towards the office to get my time table.
That’s when I felt eyes on me, something different about everyone else as I scanned the hall a little and saw a pair of brown eyes watching as we walked down the hall, the little blonde who looked like he was holding on to the strap of his bag for dear life.
Watching as a few of the guys in front of us step near him before pushing him in to the lockers I felt myself winch a little on the inside as I saw his cheek catch the edge of the grating and get cut a little before the names were thrown about, I could see it in his face that they affected him but he was doing good to hide the truth behind his hair before he ran off towards the bathrooms.
‘’Wow, he is so lame, no doubt he’s gone off to cry alone like the queer he is’’ One of the guys said to the group before I stopped in front of them and held my empty hand up slightly.
‘’Look, I can take names for so long but just stop okay, even if you think about wanting to be friends with me, you have to understand that I don’t take any of the shit you just put that kid through’’ I told them strongly and a few glances were thrown about in shock and surprise and a few in fear before they nodded.
‘’Look, we are sorry, we didn’t really think’’ One of the guys said and I nodded a little before turning and carried on walking the hall until I got to admissions and started to talk to the lady behind the counter to get my table.
Once clear of the others I made my way towards the bathroom I saw the kid run in too and entered silently before I lent against the stalls just watching the blonde as he cleaned the blood of his cheek and then poured something on to the tissue he was using and dabbed at it, his voice breathing out a curse before he carried on.
‘’See you around Ratliff’’ I found myself breathing out to him before letting his wrist go and watched as he ran out the bathrooms and off down the hall, a smirk on my lips as I pushed my sunglasses up and in to my hair as I followed his exit and made my way towards the music department on the college grounds.
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‘’So you just take this number and half it by that one and you should get your answer’’ I told the boy I was teaching for the fifth time with a small sigh before I pushed my hand through my hair and shifted my glasses off my face to lightly rub at the bridge of my nose before slipping them back on again as I turned to grab my bag to find some spare paper again to try and describe the best methods to work out the problems, feeling like I was being watched, I breathed out a little and felt a small shiver run down my spine before I glanced around to nothing.
‘’Really John, it’s not that hard okay’’ I tell him as I laid the paper out flat on the desk and took the pen from him and started to draw out the problem.
‘’I know Tommy, but I just don’t understand it, any of it’’ He tells me and I rolled my eyes a little before starting again.
‘’Right, with this one, you take the number 45 you subtract 15 before dividing it by the second number which is 21 okay?’’ I asked, pausing slightly to look at him to make sure he was still following before I felt the same prickle on the back of my neck and I spun around to glance around the study hall, there wasn’t anyone apart from a few students on the other desks and some scanning the book shelves.
‘’Tommy, is…is everything okay?’’ Came a voice and I jumped slightly before turning back to face John and I nodded a little,
‘’Yeah its fine’’ I breathed out to him as we turned our attention back to the work in front of us.
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Hitching my bag up on to my shoulder more as I left the study hall, the feeling of being watched still on the back of my neck as I pulled my glasses off and rubbed the bridge of my nose before I slipped them in to my bag and ran a hand through my hair as I lifted my bag strap and moved it across on to my other shoulder so it rested across my chest as I started to head towards the campus food court, my stomach grumbling quietly to itself as I joined in the line and grabbed a bottle of water and a snack bar before lining up to pay for it.
Turning around, I found my eyes meeting bright blue ones from across the yard and I felt the same lump form in my throat as his lips curled up in to a small smirk before I turned and quickly paid for my things, tugging my bag around a little, I lifted the flap and pushed the snack bar inside before closing it again as I made my way across the grounds and towards the Music building before pulling the door open almost forcefully before I flung myself down the halls before I could be pushed in to any other lockers by the popular kids who through that they ran the college grounds like they were still in high school.
‘’Hey Tommy Joe’’ I turned and smiled when I saw one of the theater kids walking towards me, his bag balanced on his arm as he got closer, his hair a bright red today and a soft blue makeup coated his eye lids,
‘’Hey Sutan’’ I greeted him with a tight hug before we both turned and started to walk down the hall towards the stage doors, ‘’How are you?’’ I asked as I pushed my hands in to the pockets of my jacket and glanced up before back to the floor again.
‘’Darling please, its Raja today’’ He told me and I laughed slightly and nodded, I should’ve known the moment I saw the bag and heels on him that he was going as his other identity, ‘’But im wonderful, and I have the perfect look for you to try out baby’’ She told me and I laughed and shook my head as I opened the door for her and bowed a little.
‘’Please no more, mama and Hamish keeps saying that Im being attacked by my fairy trans mother which you are babe, but not today, im too tired to work anything out on looks’’ I told her as we walked down the few small steps and towards the stage, my eyes scanning the large room to see if anyone else was around, smiling when I saw no one I dropped my bag down on to the seats in the front row and pulled myself up on to the stage and half ran and half walked over to where my guitar was sat in the shadows.
‘’Tommy, you act like that guitar was your life line’’ She told me and I grinned brightly as I unzipped my jacket and crouched down, getting out the cables and plugging them in to the right places.
‘’Playing is my life line, without it I wouldn’t pull in enough money from my Sunday job to support us, you know that’’ I told him as I picked my guitar up and walked towards the middle of the stage before going to the edge and sat down so my one of my legs dangled while I curled the other under me. tugging my jacket off I chucked it towards Raja who laughed and caught it before setting it down on my bag before I pushed my long sleeves up to show the tattoos off on my arms as I carefully picked my guitar up again and rested it in my lap as I started to tune it back up again before starting to strum a few cords.
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A soft sound was thumbing through the hall way above the sound of footsteps and people laughing and talking as they walked to their next classes. The sound was almost silent compared to the hallway yet I could still hear it faintly and found myself wondering towards the set of double doors at one end which I knew to be the stage doors, quirking my eyebrow up slightly I walked towards them and silently pulled the door open to hear the sound stop, looking up quickly I expected to see who ever was playing to be staring towards me but they weren’t.
‘’Tommy…No…don’t you dare’’ A high pitched voice came out from the taller boy who was backing away from the blonde one, the blonde I couldn’t seem to stop watching when ever I saw him. He laughed loudly as I stepped inside the room and let the door shut quietly behind me before I slipped in to the back row of seats and settled in the darkness as I watched the pair.
‘’Aww come on Raja, just take the make up off and let me re do it again’’ The blonde pleaded, each word was motioned with a step closer to the other who smirked and shook their head.
‘’No, maybe if I wasn’t Raja today, then yes, but you have to wait until then’’ He spoke, and I rose an eyebrow slightly confused at the names and what they were saying.
‘’Oh you are such a drama queen’’ Tommy breathed out to him before crossing his arms and I grinned slightly as I crossed my leg over my other leg slightly.
‘’Oh darling, of course im a drama queen, that what I get for being a drag queen too baby’’ The boy spoke before he walked closer and wrapped his arms around the blondes neck and pulled him closer with a smile.
‘’Oh you suck, you know if you were yourself I would so be kicking your ass right now’’ He laughed out and I shook my head slightly before pulling out the others arms after a quick hug and a kiss to the cheek, something shot through my body as I sat up a little and watched them closer.
‘’I know my darling little elf, now play for me, I feel like performing’’ Raja told Tommy and I watched as a grin pulled over Tommy’s face and he moved and walked to the edge of the stage before jumping down.
‘’I have been working on something for you babe, I still haven’t recorded the guitar but everything else was put together on the computer and then on to disk’’ Tommy spoke out while digging through a bag until he held a small square up which looked to be a cd before he climbed back on stage and walked over to where the stereo was still sat and put the disk in before pressing play, a low sexual beat of keys and some drums started to play out the speakers before he moved to the front of the stage again and sat on the edge before he pulled a guitar closer to him, my own hands moving to the arms of the seat and pushed myself up to watch them closer as Tommy started to strum to the music, his lower lip caught between his teeth, his eyes watching his friend, slowly I tore my own eyes away from Tommy and looked up to watch as his friend tapped his foot to the beat a little before he started to move to the music, letting his body flow with the sound and he looked pretty good, I guess being a drag queen he would know about it all.
Looking back to Tommy I could see that his eyes were closed now as he let his fingers move over the strings of the guitar which was cradled in his hands before he opened them and looked towards the back of the room to where I was sat, my eyes meeting the warm brown’s of his eyes.
‘’Tommy…?’’ His friend asked as he quickly spun around and pulled himself to his feet, the guitar in his hand as he walked over to where I could see a case and watched as he quickly placed it inside and shut everything up before picking it up and walked back to the stage and put it down. ‘’Baby, talk to me, what’s going on?’’ He asked again as Tommy jumped down and grabbed his things, his jacket being tugged on roughly before he threw his bag over his shoulders.
‘’Im going to be late for class’’ I just managed to hear before his friend looked at him with worry before nodding and handed his guitar to him. ‘’Keep the cd, I will record the rest when I have some free time on my hands and give it to you’’ his voice was low but it was still carried around the large room like an echo.
He turned and started to walk up the slope towards me before his eyes flickered to mine before he rushed past quickly, from what I could see, there was a blush on his cheeks as he pushed himself out the door and in to the hall way.
‘’Hello, I don’t think we have met before’’ Came a voice from the stage and I turned to look towards Tommy’s friend before I stood and nodded a little before I started to walk down towards him.
‘’Hi, Im Adam Lambert, just transferred colleges to here’’ I told him as I quickly jogged up the steps and on to the stage before I walked over and held my hand out to him.
‘’Sutan, or Raja, depends on different days’’ He told me and I nodded a little as he shook my hand. ‘’So what brings you to LA Adam?’’ He asked as he walked over towards the stereo and turned the music off and placed the disk back in to the case again before turning to face me again,
‘’Family mainly’’ I told him simply and he nodded a little with a grin before I watched him rake his eyes over me, ‘’Liking what you see?’’ I asked him with a raised eyebrow as his eyes snapped back to my face again and he laughed.
‘’Darling, if I liked what I saw, I would be half way down your throat by now with my tongue’’ He told me and I laughed and nodded a little.
‘’So the blonde, he’s your type is he? I mean who wouldn’t want to hit that, small, cute, blonde and those eyes are big enough for anyone to fall in’’ I told him as I lent back against the wall and crossed my arms over my chest.
‘’Tommy, No, we are just friends, but im going to warn you now Adam’’ His voce rose a little and it sounded like there was some venom in it. ‘’He’s a good kid, keeps his head down and gets on with everything, does nothing to cause trouble so if your thinking about going after him you better go careful or I will rip your balls off and feed them to my dogs’’ He told me as he came closer and pointed a perfect nail at me before the stage doors open again.
‘’Hey Adam, we finally found yo…. What are you doing with that?’’ Came a voice and I rolled my eyes slightly turning my head and glance towards Isaac,
‘’Isaac darling, hello to you too’’ Raja told him and I looked back as he smirked towards the boy stood in the door before he started to walk towards us.
‘’Piss of Sutan, Raja or not, I will still kick your ass till next year’’ Isaac spat out as he walked up on to the stage.
‘’Oh Isaac, Isaac, control that mouth of yours now, you know what mother thinks when her perfect little boy gets in to a bit of trouble now don’t we’’ Sutan spat back and I raised an eyebrow slightly which he caught. ‘’’Oh this is wonderful, Isaac here seems to of forgotten to mention that his lovely step brother is the drag queen’’ Sutan laughed before he turned on his heels and walked towards his bag and picked it up. ‘’See you at home darling’’ He waved before blowing a kiss towards us before he stalked off in to the darkness and then out the hall.
‘’What the hell was that all about?’’ Isaac asked and I shrugged a little before pushing away from the wall,
‘’Just looking around the place’’ I told him as I let my eyes wonder over the large stage,
‘’Good because you do not want to be anywhere near here, the stage geeks and nerds all hang out here, something you do not want, and shit when they start singing its like hell, everyone seems to love them’’ He rolled his eyes and I looked at him before swallowing back my words knowing that now was not a good time to come out with anything about my love of singing or me being gay.
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‘’Tommy wait up, what’s wrong, why did you run out like that earlier?’’ Sutan’s voice filled my ears and I sighed a little before I stopped for him to catch up as I held my case closer to me.
‘’Im sorry, It’s… just,’’ I sighed a little and ran my hand through my hair before I looked down and around a little before back to him, ‘’That guy just keeps creeping me out, no matter where I go he’s there watching me and Im getting sick of it’’ I tell him with a sigh as I looked back up at Sutan.
‘’Well he seemed to ask about you once you left and he’s called Adam by the way…Adam Lambert’’ He told me with a small grin and I looked at him with wide eyes.
‘’What did you tell him?’’ I asked a little panicked.
‘’Don’t worry Tommy, he doesn’t know, no one does apart from the people you told’’ He told me with a soft hand to my shoulder and I nodded a little as I took a deep breath.
‘’Good, I should get home’’ I tell him and he nodded a little with a smile before kissing my cheek gently, grabbing the handle of my case, I picked it up again before heading off the campus grounds, I had taken no more than ten steps when the same feeling on the back of my neck appeared and I turned to see the same blue eyes watching me. Groaning a little I turned and carried on walking until I was no where near the campus.
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The front door was locked when I had gotten home yet I still quietly slipped inside and dropped my bag down on to the floor beside the table before setting my case against the wall and put my keys on the dish next to the phone before shrugging my jacket off.
‘’Mama, Hamish, is anyone home?’’ I called out in to the quiet house out of habit, breathing out deeply as I walked in to the kitchen, I looked at the board to see that there was a note tacked to it and I took it off before silently reading it.
‘’The park, of course, it’s a Tuesday’’ I spoke out loud to myself as I crossed over to the fridge and pulled out a bottle of water before twisting the cap off and made my way towards the stairs and up them slowly before moving towards the bathroom where I turned the shower on before going to my room to double check that no one was home despite the note and pulled my shirt off and my jeans before leaving them on my bed and walked back in to the bathroom as I pulled my boxers off and put them in the wash basket and climbed in to the shower, the hotness of the water instantly soothing out the tight knots in my shoulders from the day.
As I stood there I couldn’t help but think back to today and of those blue eyes watching me as I moved around the campus and while I ate and while we were in lessons. The glaze leaving a small shiver to run down my spine as I slowly started to slip my hand down my chest and over my flat stomach before my fingers curled lightly around my length which was already rock hard.
But it wasn’t my own hand which I thought about as I squeezed my eyes shut tightly, trying to block out the face of the dark haired boy, but behind closed eyes Adam was smiling and leaning closer until he brushed his lips against the back of my neck lightly, his finger tips danced lightly over the wet skin on my waist and down over my hip before he pushed my own hand away and replaced it with a hotter and rougher hand, working hard and fast over my stiff member as I placed my hand against the wall and my other wrapped over the arm which he had wrapped around my body, holding me to him as I felt a firm body press against my own. Pushing against my skin until I was held between the coldness of the tiles and the touch of his hand which felt like it was burning ever inch of my skin, feeling the tightness in the bottom of my stomach, I let a small whimper out, followed by a low groan as I felt the pressure move through my body until my member twitched in his hand and I released over the tiles in front of me with a heavy breath.
Slowly my eyes opened and I stared at the light red colored tiles which filled my vision before I looked down at the mess clearly visible in front of me, gasping to myself, I quickly grabbed the head of the shower from the holder and moved it across and washed the wall off before replacing it again and breathed out deeply as I turned the water off and stepped out of the tub, a slight shiver running over my body as I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my waist tightly as I moved across the bathroom and stared in to the mirror with wide eyes.
I just had my first fantasy of Adam Lambert and I had shamefully enjoyed it.
By the time I had stalked back to my room and dried off before dressing in some clean boxers and jeans, I pulled a top out and threw it on my bed before I returned the towel to the bathroom and placed it in to the wash basket after rubbing it over my hair a few more times.
‘’Tommy, we are home’’ I heard my mama call out as the front door opened and footsteps echoed through the house, smiling a little I walked back to my room and grabbed the shirt before glancing across to the other bed in there and the toys a little, a warm smile spreading over my lips as I tugged my top on and headed downstairs. ‘’How was your day sweetheart?’’ Mama asked as I walked in to the kitchen to see her at the fridge and the back door open.
‘’Tiring, but good, nearly finished the track for Raja, just got to record my guitar and then add it to the rest and then it should be finished, hopefully no tweaking will have to be made’’ I told her as I sat down at the table and glanced out the window with a smile before I turned back again. ‘’Also had to tutor John again, once again he’s failing math’s somehow, I mean he is one of the brightest guys I know but its like he doesn’t care’’ I sighed as I ran my hand through my damp hair and sat up a little before resting my elbow on the table.
‘’Sorry ma, how was your day?’’ I asked her with a smile as I stood and walked over, kissing her cheek softly before I moved towards the freezer to find something for dinner.
‘’You know, non stop running around’’ She laughed softly and I grinned with a nod as I handed her a bag of nuggets and I turned back to the freezer again to grab some fries before handing them over and closed the freezer door, walking over to the cupboards I pulled one open and grabbed two cups out before grabbing a plastic beaker and placed them on the side before I started to make some juice and two cups of coffee.
‘’How is our Sutan today? He hasn’t been around in a while’’ Mama asked me as I poured some water in to the cups and started to stir them before I nodded a little,
‘’He’s great actually, once we finish this track, he will be all set for the next drag contest which he wants to enter, the whole reason behind the track because he wanted something different, something Raja as he puts it’’ I laughed a little as I put the drinks on the table and sat down again, my hands wrapping around the warm cup as mama sat down and picked her own up.
‘’That’s good, well he will have to come over soon, you know how Hamish enjoys it when he’s around the house’’ I rolled my eyes slightly and laughed,
‘’I know, please don’t remind me, last time I swear I had to bleach the carpet in my room because Sutan knocked over a bottle of polish and it almost left a bright green stain on it from when he done his nails’’ I told her and she grinned across the table at me and I couldn’t help but smile back to her.
‘’Thank you for everything ma, I really mean it, I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have you around to help me out’’ I tell her softly and she looked across the table at me with soft eyes before placing her cup down and stood up, following her lead, I walked around and in to her open arms where she hugged me tightly.
‘’No boy’s of mine deserved what that girl done, but I wouldn’t change anything’’ She whispered in to the top of my hair and I smiled before squeezing her tightly before letting go again with a deep breath.
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‘’Hamish, no’’ I yelled before groaning as little, pushing my sleeves up, I took chase after him before grabbing him by his arms and swung him around in a circle playfully. ‘’Don’t do that again’’ I breathed out to him heavily as I set him back on his feet and placed my hands on my knees as I took a deep breath.
‘’Can I at least go over there?’’ He asked and I looked up to where he was pointing before looking back at him and nodded a little,
‘’But when I say its time to go, its time to go, no back chatting me this time, understand?’’ I asked him and he grinned before nodding and ran off again as I stood up straighter and ran my hand through my hair before sliding my glasses back on to my head again and rubbed the back of my neck.
Before long I walked over to one of the benches and let myself fall back on to it with a soft groan before I lent forward and rested my arms on my knees before I slipped my sun glasses down over my eyes as I watched Hamish running about with a small smile before I frowned a little as a older girl walked over to him and started to talk, my lower lip caught under my teeth a little as I sat up, feeling a hand come down on my shoulder I jumped and spun around quickly to see blue eyes looking at me in amusement.
‘’What do you want from me?’’ I asked out as I pulled my glasses from my face and stared at him, ‘’You have done nothing but stare at me today and it freaking me out’’ I called out to him again, the frustration from the day being let free from inside of me as he stood there with a slight grin.
‘’Im sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you or freak you out okay’’ He told me and I grumbled under my breath before I turned around to see them gone, breathing out I started to search where he was with the girl before I felt him stood behind me, his breath ghosting over my ear slightly.
‘’Don’t worry, they are over there’’ He told me before pointing towards a pile of leaves where the girl was picking one up and held it towards Hamish, a soft breath escaped my lips before I moved away from Adam again and turned.
‘’Right, you want answers’’ He said and I nodded a little before pushing my glasses on top of my head again.
‘’You have two minutes, why the hell have you been watching me today?’’ I asked him again as I chewed on my bottom lip a little, instantly stopping as I noticed him watching my lips instead of me.
‘’You intrigue me Tommy, I want to get to know you’’ He told me and I laughed before covering my mouth a little and shook my head,
‘’How do you, know my name anyway?’’ I asked before it dawned on me. ‘’Sutan…Im going to kill that boy’’ I muttered to myself as I turned away and looked around the park again.
‘’Tommy, will you let me get to know you?’’ Adam asked again, his breath skimming over my neck and I closed my eyes, trying to get the images from my shower out of my mind before I moved away from him and turned to face him sharply.
‘’Look, stop being such a creep okay, stop watching me, stop trying to touch me, you know nothing now just leave me alone’’ I growled out to him before I started to walk away from him. ‘’Hamish, time to go’’ I called out to him and stopped a little as he looked at me. ‘’Now I said!’’ I told him again and he looked at the girl before saying bye and came running over to me and reached for my hand, sighing I crouched a little and smiled at him softly, my knee already hurting from where it was perched on the ground. ‘’Im sorry for yelling okay, I’ve just had a bad day, so its not your fault okay’’ I tell him softly and he nodded before hugging his arms around my neck, picking him up, I glanced back to see Adam watching and I glared a little before I started to walk towards the parks exit again before turning down and started to head for home.
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‘’Are you ready Adam?’’ I looked up from where I had been laid, dangling over my bed, eyes closed and nodded a little with a grin.
‘’Yeah, let’s get going shall we, can’t have you being late now because we couldn’t find you anything to wear’’ I grinned at her as she smiled brightly before she took my hand and led me in to her bedroom.
‘’Right, well these will look perfect with this top’’ I told her as I handed her a dark purple top with a pair of her black jeans before reaching back in to he wardrobe and pulled out a grey hoody and turned back with a smile. ‘’There, you will look perfect for school’’ I told her before kissing her on the top of her head before leaving to let her get dressed as I headed down the stairs and in to the kitchen.
Yawning a little, I started to make some breakfast before putting everything on the table and sat at it, a glass of juice in my hand which I was slowly sipping at before I put it down and let my eyes close a little as I yawned.
Most of the night I was laid awake in bed just staring at my ceiling trying to work out a plan of getting to know Tommy more, but images of the park kept sweeping by, the way he yelled at the boy and then suddenly was all nice was confusing me madly and I wasn’t going to rest till I found out what it was all about.
‘’Because he’s fire and ice, this could be hell, it could be paradise’’ I muttered out to myself before I opened my eyes and breathed out. Standing I checked the time before I walked towards the stairs.
‘’Come on, or you wont have time for breakfast and we will be late, your worse than me in the mornings’’ I called up with a laugh before I moved back to my seat at the table and picked my juice up again.
‘’Hey can you drive me today?’’ I looked up from where I had been burning holes in to the table and smiled before nodding to her.
‘’Sure, I would love too’’ I grinned before standing up and let her take my place before grabbing a bowl of cereal and placed it down before walking over to the sink with my empty glass.
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‘’I will be home late tonight okay, you sure you going to be fine until then?’’ I asked and she laughed before nodding.
‘’I’m 16 Adam, not 5’’ Her voice held a tone of seriousness to it but it was mostly laced a joking tone as I nodded.
‘’Just call me if you need anything or need me to come home’’ I tell her and she smiled before leaning over and kissed my cheek before getting out the car and ran off towards her friends near the doors of the building.
Fiddling with the buttons of the radio, I sighed and looked up to check to see the light still on red before I went back and found a station which seemed to play some type of different rock songs. Sighing to myself I pressed my foot down on to the gas as I started to drive towards the college grounds, my mind on finding Tommy and find out who the boy he was with was. It wasn’t long before I arrived and found a parking space, locking the door behind me I slipped my glasses back down over my eyes to hide them from the sun as I pulled the strap of my bag over my shoulder and started to make my way towards the music building, the grounds were mostly empty and I realized that I was early which I didn’t mind as I walked through the empty hall, my boots echoed off the hard floor before I turned towards the stage and pulled the doors open to an empty and dark room.
‘’Lights’’ I mumbled to myself as my hands moved over the walls until I found some switches and flicked them up, a sudden brightness filling the large room before I smiled and made my way down the side and over towards the stage where instruments and paper laid silently on the floor and on top of each other, left by students in a hurry to get home yesterday.
Stepping on to the stage I walked to the middle before standing and looked out over all the empty seats which still stood in semi darkness from the ones lighting the stage up, a warm feeling spreading through my body as I smiled lightly to myself.
‘’Welcome to Hollywood Adam, you are no longer in San Francisco’’ I breathed out to myself with a grin before I dug around in my bag and pulled my I-pod out and dropped my bag on to the floor, Looking around, I spotted the stereo which Tommy had used yesterday and I walked over before seeing a cable and a docking system, smiling I put my I-pod in and skipped through the songs looking for one before stopping with a grin, pressing play I backed away and started to pull my jacket off and dropped it on to my bag as the beat of the song filled the room.
‘’I took my baby, on a Saturday bang.
Boy is that girl with you,
yes we’re one and the same’’**
I started to sing and twisted a little on my heel as I looked towards the back of the stage, my head bobbing to the beat a little as I grinned.
‘’Now I believe in miracles
and a miracle has happened tonight.
But if you’re thinkin’
about my baby,
it don’t matter if you’re black or white
They print my message
In the Saturday sun
I had to tell them
I anit second to none’’
I let my eyes close before I bit my lip a little and let my body move to the beat on its own as my hand came up to my chest slightly and I let my knees bend a little before I stood straighter again.
‘’And I told about equality
an its true
either you're wrong
or you're right
But, if
you’re thinkin'
about my baby
It don't matter if you're
Black or white’’
I breathed out deeply in the small pause between the words and ran a hand through my hair as I turned and walked towards the edge of the stage and looked out with a small grin on my lips still before I turned and started to walk back a little, a big breath of air filled in my lungs as I started to sing again.
‘’I am tired of this devil
I am tired of this stuff
I am tired of this business
Sew when the
Going gets rough
I ain't scared of your brot-‘’
I quickly stopped and spun around on the spot as I heard someone start clapping and a small whistle, finding only darkness I walked over and pressed pause on my music before I turned back again as footsteps echoed and moved towards the stage, at first a pair of bright pink boots appeared on the stage, followed by long legs in tight black jeans as I moved my eyes up to their face I felt my stomach turn slightly.
‘’I must say, I didn’t expect to hear someone in here this early, normally I get here before classes start for a few hours of peace but pulling that door open and hearing music I couldn’t stop myself from listening… My you are also not a bad dancer if I must say’’ They told me as I swallowed a little and moved my hand up to the back of my neck and rubbed it a little. ‘’If I didn’t watch you, I would’ve thought it was the singer and not you’’ he laughed softly and placed his hand against his jaw lightly as he raked his eyes over me again. ‘’I wonder what Isaac would say if he knew about this’’
‘’Sutan, Raja, whatever your name is, you didn’t see anything okay’’ I told him once I finally found my voice again and he laughed a little as he came further in to the light of the stage, a tight red top stretched over his chest and arms a little,
‘’Darling, why would I forget something like your voice, its truly wonderful but can you really reach those high notes?’’ He asked and I breathed back a sigh and watched as he walked over and scooped my I-pod up off the dock and started to go through the songs.
‘’Ooo, perfect, Adam sing and your secret will be safe with me’’ He told me before replacing it on the dock and pressed the play button before moving over to sit on the piano bench as the music started to play and I quickly recognized the song.
‘’I was born by the river in a little tent
Oh and just like the river I've been running ever since
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will’’
I glanced towards Sutan as I started to sing, his eyes wide slightly at the high notes in the start of the song and as I managed to reach them along with the singer.
‘’ It's been too hard living but I'm afraid to die
Cause I don't know what's up there beyond the sky
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will’’
With each high note and low, my voice changed to match it as I placed my hand flat against my stomach and let my eyes close a little as I started to let myself get in to the slow but soft song, my head slightly bobbing as I sung to Sutan.
‘’ I go to the movie and I go downtown somebody keep telling me don't hang around
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will
Then I go to my brother
And I say brother help me please
But he winds up knockin' me
Back down on my knees
Ohhhhhhhhh...
There been times that I thought I couldn't last for long
But now I think I'm able to carry on
It's been a long, a long time coming
But I know a change gonna come, oh yes it will’’
Letting my voice fade out with the singers and along the music as I held the last note a little longer before stopping and breathed out deeply as I turned and looked towards Sutan who’s eyes was wide with shock as he stared at me and I could feel my heart racing against my chest.
‘’Boy, you can sing’’ He told me at last and I couldn’t help but laugh and blush slightly before I walked over to my bag and sat on the stage beside if before pulling out my bottle of water and un twisted the lid before taking a few mouthfuls as my I-pod started to play the next song but none of us taking any notice of it. ‘’I swear your notes were higher than the singers but wow Adam, since when did a popular sing as well as that?’’ He asked and I laughed again as I brought my knees up and lent against them as I looked towards him with a shrug.
‘’I don’t know, growing up I was always in to acting and being on stage, been in a few theater performances back in San Francisco before we moved down here.’’ I told him and he nodded a little, ‘’But that was all left back there, I wouldn’t of sung if I knew you was going to turn up here, it isn’t something I want to let people know’’ I tell him softly.
‘’Why not take it up here?’’ He asked and I shrugged a little before tilting my head and looked up at him,
‘’from everything I’ve already seen and then yesterday with you and Isaac, I mean Im not really wanting to commit social suicide now, do I?’’ I told him as I stood. ‘’And its not something I want happening again’’ I told him as I pulled my strap over my shoulder and walked over to the stereo and unplugged my I-pod before slipping my headphones back in and pushed it in to my pocket.
‘’Adam, no one has to know, I mean, no one ever comes in this department this early apart from me, and the place where I work is looking for some more acts, they pay great too if you were wondering’’ He told me and I stopped from where I was walking before I turned and glanced towards him.
‘’What are you trying to say?’’ I asked before I turned my body fully and crossed my arms over my chest as he smiled and stood.
‘’Im saying, your secret is safe with me, you get to sing your pretty little voice off whenever you want before classes, and then you can come and perform at night for a great pay at the club where I work’’ He spoke as he came to stop in front of me and trailed his finger slowly down my chest. I stared at him slightly before reaching up and removed his hand from my chest and dropped it as I thought about the chance and the pay,
‘’How much is the pay?’’ I asked him as I crossed my arms again, a small smirk appearing over Sutan’s lips.
‘’Depending on how long you sing for and what the bosses think of you will be all good if you sing for them and the club like you sang for me, at least $150 a night, maybe more if your there for a while and you pull in bigger crowds’’ He told me and I knew straight away that it was something I wanted to do.
‘’When and where about is the club?’’ I asked him and he laughed and clapped a little,
‘’Give me your number and I will call you with the details’’ He told me and I rolled my eyes a little before grabbing a pen out my bag and pulled his arm towards me before I started to write out my number over the inside of his arm before I pulled away.
‘’It better stay a secret, if this gets out…I mean it…If this gets out, that’s it, this deal Is over and I will never trust you again’’ I told him and he smiled at me before winking.
‘’Don’t worry baby, its safe with me I wont tell anyone not even your little eye candy Tommy’’ He winked at me again before turning on his heel and started to walk away.
Fuck he knew I was gay.
But worse of all, He knew I had been watching Tommy.
This meant, they were the best of friends and he knew everything to do with the blonde! Smirking slightly as I walked off the stage, I headed towards the door and out before I started to make my way out of the music building and towards the English department for class.
~
‘’Tommy, your late, wake up’’ I groaned a little as someone started to disturb my sleep, the bright light filling out even behind my closed eyes from my window didn’t seem to help as I reached up and pulled the covers over my head a little more. ‘’Tommy Joe, your late for classes, now get up’’ The voice came out stronger and I sighed before sitting up and stretched a little before I turned to look at my mama.
‘’Sorry’’ I tell her and she smiled before ruffling my hair before her thumb gently traced the small cut and slight bruise on my cheek with a sigh. ‘’They started again with the locker pushing?’’ She asked and I rolled my eyes a little before nodding and climbed out of bed, mentally thanking myself that I deiced to sleep in my boxers and not nude again like I had done a few times before.
‘’Its okay, my fault really I was kinder stood in the way’’ I laughed out as I grabbed a pair of jeans and started to pull them on before I grabbed my creepers and pushed my feet in to them and quickly tied before walking over to my dresser and pulled it open, finding a white button up shirt, I tugged it on and buttoned it up quickly before finding my dark blue waist coat and pulled it on over the top and done it up too. ‘’Where’s Hamish?’’ I asked her as I looked over the other side of the room and then back again.
‘’Sutan dropped him off at day care on the way to college, he’s going to be popping over today so I can help with his costume as he has no classes today’’ I nodded slightly while making a mental note to remind me to thank him when I saw him again, which turned out to be sooner than I thought.
‘’Hello, anyone home or am I allowed to raid the kitchen?’’ Came a voice from downstairs and I laughed as mama looked towards the door,
‘’Go right ahead Sutan dear, we will be down in a second’’ She called back before a squeal was heard and then footsteps which sounded like he was running in to the kitchen. ‘’What classes do you have today because your going to have to pick Hamish up unless Sutan would be kind enough to do it again’’ She asked and I raked my fingers through my hair before thinking.
‘’Just a couple, but looking at the time I’ve missed Math’s, but if I leave in a bit I will make it two the second lesson of English before I have a tutor session with a girl who’s failing Math’s’’ I sighed and rolled my eyes a little at the thought, ‘’But after that I have music and im finished so I will get to day care about five minutes late but I will be able to pick him up today, if not I will give Sutan a call’’ I tell her and she smiled before walking over and kissed my cheek gently before nodding.
‘’Good, that boy adores you, you know that don’t you?’’ She asked and I smiled at her warmly,
‘’I know mama, he means the world to me, I really wouldn’t ever do anything different to change anything to do with Hamish, he is who I am’’ I tell her and she smiled and rested her hand on my arm before turning and left my room with a smile.
As I finished getting ready, I looked in to the mirror as I grabbed my black color pencil and sighed a little at the mark before I remember the small jaw which was pressed in to my hand by Adam when we were in the bathroom, biting my lip a little I walked over to where my bag was laid on my desk and looked through it until I found it and just held it in my hands for a while as I looked at it. I walked back over to my mirror, unscrewing it at the same to take the lid off before I lightly dipped my fingertips across the surface and brought them up to my cheek where I lightly started to rub it over the small scab which covered the cut, before long it didn’t look like I had anything there and I could help but smile as I finished getting ready and grabbed my leather jacket and tugged it on as I started to walk out my room, bag in hand and phone in other as I made my way downstairs and in to the kitchen.
‘’Well hello there sexy boy’’ Sutan whistled as I walked in to the kitchen and I laughed and flipped him off before walking over and in to his open arms, my own wrapping around his waist as we hugged,
‘’Thanks for taking Hamish to day care this morning’’ I mumbled in to his chest and I felt him laugh,
‘’Your welcome baby, I know what some mornings can be like for you and your mama, plus I was coming over anyway to ask for Ma’s help’’ He beamed as I looked up at him and smiled, leaning up I kissed his cheek quickly before I let him go and started to move away from him before I reached out and turned his arm over with a raised eyebrow.
‘’What’s that?’’ I asked him with a small grin as he smirked and winked at me.
‘’Just a boys number’’ He told me as he turned and started to pull out some material from his bag and place it on the table and I laughed.
‘’Well, good on you Sutan, you deserve to find someone’’ I tell him and laughed,
‘’Not for me personally, well kind of is, but for work too’’ He tells me and I nodded a little, ‘’But the boy is very hot’’ He smirked and I shook my head knowing the look in his eyes.
‘’Babe your not setting me up with anyone and that’s that.’’ I tell him as I pulled my bag over my shoulder.
‘’But why Tommy, I know you are lonely, you often say it yourself’’ He tells me and I sighed as I stood near the door,
‘’Im just not ready to be in a relationship, and who would want to be with me once they find out the whole truth about everything?’’ I asked him and he looked at me sadly before nodding and walked over, his lips pressing against my forehead gently.
‘’I know baby, I know but someone will love you and everything to do with you one day, just keep wishing on those stars’’ He whispered to me and I smiled at him before nodding, hugging him tightly I quickly said my goodbyes to both Sutan and mama before I grabbed my car keys and headed out the house before walking down the street to where I had parked the day before and climbed inside after I unlocked it and had placed my bag on the back seats. Starting it up I smiled at the smooth sound of the engine before I reached over and turned my stereo on before pushing a cd in to the gap and pressed play once it loaded.
Pressing my foot down on the gas, I pulled out of the space before I started driving towards campus. A smile plastered over my face as I started to think about what Sutan had said and about everything which was happening in my life at the moment.