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Taehyung was very young when the dreams started; in starting they were just blurry images but as his understanding grew he could decipher them and can see them clearly, they were not just dreams but the fragments of memories of the two people madly in love, their bickering, their strong bonding, it was so beautiful that it calmed him, made him sleep well but how it ended made him wake up in the nights abruptly in fear each time, it was a regular occurrence, his family consulted various doctors while he was still young and whatever the doctor and they discussed was still secret to them all he knows was they looked at him in pity, said the same thing each time “you will be fine, it is okay”. Taehyung now at the age of 22 is still waiting for the time when it will be okay, he is a college student now, majoring in photography, he is used to the dreams now, they are more clear to him like watching a movie, he cried for several days when he was able to understand them clearly and when his doctor told the reason for the dreams, now there is only longing no pain, he feels the person in his dream is waiting for him somewhere and will meet him soon, this made him not take interest in any person.

His childhood friend Jimin, a very understanding and handsome boy, who knew about all this tried to fix dates for him seeing him lonely but each time they ended up in him having thinking of only one person his ‘Hyun Bin’ with doe eyes, bunny smile, straight dark hair, and innocent and soft features with a low temperament, ready to fight. It was on Jimin’s constant request that Taehyung went on one of those dates, he wore simple clothes black slacks with a green pullover, according to Jimin he could carry anything gracefully, his sharp features, his eyes and lips enhances his beauty, he was quite famous in his department among girls and boys but to their bad luck he didn’t pay much attention to any of them just focused on his work. Chin-Hwa, a classmate of Jimin who saw Taehyung frequently while the two friends meet each other for lunch was very much interested in him, he asked Jimin to fix a date with his friend, though Jimin told him Taehyung would reject him but Chin-Hwa was determined, Jimin thought of giving him a chance, he was a lovely and outward person, was good in sports and quite rich. Taehyung agreed to the request but on a condition to meet at a coffee shop and not some fancy restaurant, and so there he was sitting with Jimin’s classmate who was telling him about his experiences in college. He was really talkative and cheerful, Taehyung liked it, didn’t need to initiate the conversation as the other was good at it, he patiently listened to Hwa’s childhood stories enjoyed some of it when it sounded quite similar to his own and he couldn’t focus any longer mind going to the memory of his first encounter with Hyun Bin. It was not long before, just in 80’s when the teenagers were more into rock bands, people were becoming more industrialized, technology was finding its way among people, an era of long hair and extreme fashion.

He was in high school, head boy of school and had quite image among students and teachers, he had a wavy mullet, they wore paints above waist and cardigan, their school uniform. The school was over and they were discussing about the collection of money to buy album, all quite occupied, still in the campus grounds. An angry shout of his name made him and his friends turn to the person who called him.

“Seung-ho” he narrows his eyes, looking for the source.

There comes his junior, taking angry steps towards him, while one of the friends of the boy was trying to stop him, but the boy was fuming and pushes his friend aside stopping just in front of him.

Taehyung or Seungho still calm just looked at him while two of his friends tries to guard him standing before him to deal with the boy, this didn’t made the angry boy waver, he scoffs looking angrily at Seungho.

“Yes, that’s me” is all Seungho says provoking the boy making his group laugh. The boy was seething now.

“Trying to show off aren’t you?” the junior hisses. Seungho gestures his friends to move back facing the boy directly.

“What happened?” he asks.

The boy reaches for his collar pulling him closer, Seungho’s friends tries to protest but he stops them with his hands, letting the boy to take his anger on him “How dare you to send my friend to the Principal office, he didn’t do a thing, what do you think of yourself, getting involved in other’s matter, thinking so highly of yourself, the head boy” he barks but all Seungho sees is those doe eyes looking angrily at him, they were beautiful, shining, it looked like seeing the night sky, it is after sometime that he registers what the boy said.

Seungho pushes himself away from the boy, straightening his cardigan and shirt “You are Beom’s friend” he scoffs. His friends look irately at the boy.

Seungho laughs “Seems like your friendship is one way, he didn’t tell you a thing ha?” he raises a brow, cockiness shown on his features. He was enjoying this too much.

“Don’t you dare” warns the boy.

“Behave Hyun-bin, don’t forget whom you are talking to” one of the student there says, obviously knowing him well.

The boy or Hyun- bin ignores him, Seungho whispers his name with a smile looking at the boy something in the boy made him want to spend more time with him, enjoy the moment, his dark hair were shining and falling on his forehead, that flipped each time he moved, his face was red with anger but still looked so soft, he was still cute to Seungho but needed to be tamed.

“He deserved to be rusticated, your so called best friend found bringing questionable things to school was witnessed by our head boy forcing his ways on a fellow girl, she is still in trauma” the other friend answers. Hyun bin eyes goes wide, he looks at them then at his friend who nods in shame agreeing to the seniors. He takes few steps back not believing any of it, his friend was not like that.

“This can’t be true, you are lying, don’t lie, you don’t know my dad, he can ruin your life” he warns.

Seungho looks at him calmly, his voice soft “I have no personal grudge with your friend, this is the truth ask him yourself, ask the principal or the teachers who checked his belongings, he was not himself at that time”

“Shut up” he shouts defeated.

Seungho sighs “Next time confirm things first before blaming others”

“Sorry, he didn’t know about the whole matter, he just arrived today” Hyun bin’s friend bows to them in apology dragging the boy with him. Taehyung nods to him while watching the boy being taken away from there, a smile creeps on his face as he shouts the boy’s name making him turn to look at him, anger still in his eyes maybe now for his friend.

“I like Hyung more, next time address me with it” his friends laugh, Hyun bin just watches him shocked, his eyes focused on the boxy smile, being made fun of he scoffs.

“On my dead body” he shouts back before running away from there. Seungho smiles still looking at the direction the boy went to, rubbing on his nape, interesting is all he thinks of.

“Taehyung”

“Taehyung…”

“Taehyung…Are you okay?” he hears Hwa calling his name and looks at him confused then at his surroundings. He curses himself again for zoning out in his thoughts.

“Your hot chocolate is cold now, should we order something else?” Chin Hwa asks him, not getting a reply he breaks the silence again “You were smiling…you look good while smiling” Taehyung looks at him embarrassed, rubbing at his nape.

“I am sorry, I was just thinking”

“Am I making you bore, I know I talk a lot-“

Taehyung interrupts him “No, no, it is not that, I am not ready for a relationship yet, you deserve way better than me” Chin hwa looks at him in disappointment making Taehyung’s heart break, he shouldn’t have agreed for this, all he did was thinking of the past.

“Jimin warned me, he told me you are one stubborn person but I wanted to have a chance”

“I am sorry but I am waiting for somebody and will wait till I find him” he answers.

“He must be a lucky one, make sure to introduce us when you find him” Chin Hwa says before they end up with their meeting and Taehyung breaking another heart unintentionally.

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Jimin didn’t blame him, never does, he knew the outcome but still tries the luck, he has heard the story of Hyun-bin and Seungho and personally wanted to have somebody in his life like them too, he saw how contented Taehyung felt whenever he talked about that boy, Taehyung told him how after their first encounter, they would share glances while crossing paths during breaks or duties but the younger would turn away trying to avoid his gaze. Taehyung always ends up saying, he should not have let things escalate between them or they would have been alive lived their lives peacefully with somebody destined for them, Jimin doesn’t say it but he knows they were destined to meet and will meet again one day.

Taehyung was sitting in the library busy in making notes, he had a lot of work to do until Jimin sits beside him closing his books and copy, and looking at him smugly as Taehyung whines in protest. Jimin points towards the door where their friends were standing rubbing their tummies to show how hungry they were, Taehyung giggles and walks out of the library to meet them. They pull him in a tight hug making him groan.

“Jin hyung, Hoseok hyung, why are you so energetic today?” he complains.

“Because we are going to meet my grumpy bae and our nerdy Namjoon” Hoseok smiles wide while Jin and Jimin roll their eyes.

Jin, Namjoon, Hoseok met Taehyung in college, in their first year they all had a common class and tuned together now their friendship was unbreakable, all having one thing common, they go against Newton’s law and are attracted towards the same gender.

“Okay let’s decide what we are going to have the treat is on Hobi hyung” Taehyung shouts grabbing both Jin and Jimin hands and running to the café where their friend works. Hoseok shouts a ‘no’ following his giggling friends.

They reach the café just near the college, all of them panting, not having enough strength left to go inside for a while, they hear a snort and look up to see their friend wearing apron over a plain jeans and t-shirt, his skin pale and glowing wearing a bandana to pull his hair back. He looked at them with judging eyes.

“Bunch of idiots, will you get in?” he asks amused. Hoseok’s face brightens up lunging at him Yoongi groans though holding him tight immediately, as loud as Hoseok was amongst them he shouts his name.

“YOONGIIII, I missed you” Yoongi pushes the male away blushing hard “We met an hour back”

Hoseok hugs him again not minding his words, the three friends pushes them aside ignoring them and entering the place, taking their favorite spot in the café they order the usual for them, Yoongi and Hoseok joins them, sitting close to each other, he always stays with them on their arrival leaving the counter for the staff only going back to it when there are lots of customers to serve. Taehyung watches the two love birds, they are together now for more than two years, busy in their own word just looking at each other, their smiles says it all, their happiness and adoration for each other. Taehyung has felt it too those doe eyes on him, though it’s just a memory but it is still clear to him.

They had annual sports day Seungho was not very much sportive but good in mind games, so he knew what he wanted to be in, that’s how he ended up in the final match of chess, the opponent was quite brilliant, it was a taking too long, but Seungho was playing it patiently, while the other was thinking of his move Seungho took the time to look around him, there he found his friends lying on chairs bored with the match few of them asleep, he suppresses his laughter and turns to look at the other side where his juniors sat and among them was Hyun bin looking at him, his eyes curious, Seungho winks at him making him scoff but his ears turns red betraying his expressions Seungho chuckles, he turns to look at his opponent muttering sorry as he thought Seungho was mocking him for taking so long, he glances again at his junior who was now smirking,he rubs his nape and avoids the other for a while focusing on his game, after spending quite considerable time he smiles defeating other muttering a check mate, he hears gasps, whistles and claps for him, his opponent still shocked with the turn of events but his focus goes to only one person who just rolls his eyes playfully as he wiggles his eyebrows in his direction.

They meet again near the stairs both going in the same direction when the younger huffs stopping on the stairs.

“Why do you keep following me?” he says annoyed turning to look at Seungho.

Seungho looks at the direction of his class where he was heading to but seeing the annoyed expression of Hyun he changes the plan getting closer to his personal space, Hyun shifts back glaring him “Because you didn’t say sorry hyung”

“Sorry for what” he crosses his arms over his chest, Seungho smiles, his charming smile that even Hyun bin couldn’t avoid.

“For the other day” he leans closer “Baby” voice husky, biting back his laugh as the other visibly gulps, pushing him away, face all red.

“Freak” he mutters while rushing up the stairs. Seungho just watches him putting his hands in pocket and smiling. This was interesting, this feeling he is having for some time.

Taehyung is brought back to present by Hoseok who was waving his hands in front of Taehyung’s face. They were all looking at him. “Are..are you interested in Yoongi too” Hoseok asks sincerely.

“What….NO” Taehyung almost yells. Yoongi slaps on Hoseok’s head “Think before you speak” he scolds.

“What he was staring at you” Hoseok mutters covering up.

Jimin looks at the trio then at Taehyung understanding him just at one glance. “He was zoning out like usual”

They all look at him in pity “Again?” Jin asks. Taehyung was saved from awkwardness as their orders are placed on the table. They all came to know about him at one point when they saw him crying while he was sleeping and calling the name ‘Hyun bin’ again and again, while they had a sleepover at Namjoon’s house. Taehyung had to tell them everything, they support him in his wait for Hyun bin which they themselves know is near to impossible, they know it is madness and that maybe they won’t meet ever or Hyun bin is not reincarnated like Seungho but they don’t want to judge their friend he still has a life ahead and they will wait and when the right time comes and Taehyung still doesn’t wavers from his decision they will interfere. They were more shocked with the knowledge and muttered to him in surprise that Taehyung was gay back in 80s too. Taehyung knew from that moment onwards that he can never be sad for long when with them.

“Does anyone know where Namjoon is?” Jin asks as they taste their drinks.

“Yeah his professor told him to stay back to discuss their project, he must be on his way” they couldn’t hear Jimin clearly as the group of students enter the cafeteria shouting cheers and whistles, carrying a boy over them all howling like wolves making Taehyung and group to groan, they watch as the students put down the boy and shouts his name “Jungkook” over and over again.

Taehyung looks at the boy, long curly locks reaching his neck, covering his eyes too, his eyes goes wide as he looks at those features, doe eyes, sharp jaw line and a bunny smile displayed on the face as the boy shushes them apologizing to the lady over the counter. It is the same, same features same face, he stands up as the group looks around for the place to sit, everything around him just stops as if he himself couldn’t move, he couldn’t even breathe properly, he finally found him the person he was thinking of since childhood, he was finally looking at Hyun bin in front of him in real and not just a glimpse of memory, a tear rolls down his cheeks, it was not sadness that he felt, he was happy, his friends won’t think him as mad, his Hyun bin was there and now things will be alright, his lips tremble and Taehyung quickly bites on his lower lip to stop them from it. He feels the lightness in his movement as he walks further away from his table almost blocking the passage the students were going through, they don’t pay attention to him, passing by him nudging him. Jimin and others look at him quizzically not able to understand what he was doing, they call him but he was deaf to all the voices now, his senses only fixed on one person. Jungkook, now that he can look at him clearly, he has grown tall, his forehead exposed not that bowl cut Taehyung used to know, his muscles prominent from the t-shirt he wore, dark orbs sharp features, he was so handsome that he attracted glances of people around him, he just convinced the teacher to cancel their class today becoming the star among students who brought him here to treat him, he walks to where Taehyung was standing, his eyes falls on Taehyung looking him up and down and his smile slowly vanishes for a fraction of second looking at the tears on his the other’s cheek. He checks Taehyung again then smirks.

“You are beautiful but I don’t bend that way” he comments nudging him and passing by the other to sit with his friends who high five him. Taehyung closes his eyes he wanted to keep listening to that soft velvety voice, it is changed, more mature, but he missed it.

More tears falls from his eyes as he realizes that the boy didn’t recognize him, left him like that, he thinks maybe Hyun bin has not seen him clearly to recognize him and a thought of going to Jungkook flashes his mind but someone out beats him running towards Jungkook, hugging him tightly, it was a girl, quite beautiful, rosy cheeks, red lips, her hair reaching her waist, wearing a short skirt and a fitting top, she turns Jungkook around kissing him on lips making their friends whistle at it. Taehyung couldn’t see anymore, he runs away from there avoiding the his friends make, his focus getting unclear and before he could understand he bumps into a chest, he looks up to find his friend Namjoon looking at him in concern and calling out his name but before he could answer darkness in his vision engulfs him making him unconscious.

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Seungho was talking to his classmate, a pretty one at that, who always showed signs of interest in him but he ignored it each time keeping it to just being friends, she takes out an assignment from her bag going to hand it to Seungho but Hyun bin interrupts her taking the assignment from her, both the senior look at him in surprise, he just came there out of nowhere, he smiles in an innocent way looking like a cute bunny, Seungho just watches him awestruck, not able to say a word.

“This assignment is for Mr. Kim right noona? I was about to go to him and can hand him over” she looks at him speechless, his words were dripping with honey, and smile so lovely, she couldn’t deny, Seungho has never heard that tone before for sure, he turns to look at Seungho eyes showing that anger glint, making Seungho gulp “Hyung didn’t you said you have an urgent work and would teach me maths after school?” Seungho frowns, of course he didn’t promise to the younger anything like that.

“Have I, why don’t I-“ Hyun bin cuts him in it, not letting him complete.

“HYUNG” he emphasis, eyes shining looking more bambi like, Seungho can just lose himself in those eyes, his head nodding on his own will, making the younger smile again.

“Sorry Clara, but I have to go” he smiles looking at her making her shy, she nods leaving the two, her cheeks going pink. Hyun bin just rolls his eyes in annoyance as he watches her leave, his back towards Seungho, he didn’t realize the other could understand everything that he did there. Seungho leans closer to his ear, whispering in his husky voice.

“Doesn’t want anybody between us…baby” he smirks watching as the younger shivers. Hyun bin turns to look at him, irritated.

“Don’t call me that”

“What baby?” Seungho grins. He ruffles those fluffy hairs making Hyun bin huff in irritation.

“Don’t touch my hair” Seungho pouts making Hyun bin avert his eyes to the ground.

“Did..Didn’t you saw what she was doing?…she was totally flirting with you” he stutters.

Seungho hums “And”

“Are..are you interested in her?” his face shows the wave of disappointment. Seungho smiles.

“Are you jealous baby?” Hyun bin visibly tenses, eyes going wide.

“NO…Not at all” he pushes the assignment towards Seungho’s chest angrily.

“Hey kid you still messing with us” a friend of Seungho walks towards them holding his and Seungho’s bag on his arm.

“None of your business” Hyun bin shots back quickly. Seungho looks at the younger, sighing.

“Hyun” he says voice warning, it was enough for the younger to look down at his feet muttering a small ‘sorry’ to the other senior. His friend’s eyes go wide looking at them in shock, as he watches the younger walk away back to his class.

“Unbelievable…how did that happen?” he mutters to the grinning Seungho.

Taehyung wakes up, his head still paining a little, he looks around at his surrounding, finding himself in his and Jimin’s room, before he can wake up, the door opens making his friends enter the room slowly without making a noise. He smiles looking at them.

“I am already awake” they sigh in relief looking at him while he sits up, back leaning on the headboard.

“You scared us” says Namjoon, a tall, blonde hair male with dimples as he smiles.

“What actually happened Tae?” asks Jimin rubbing on his ankles, softly, Taehyung tenses.

“The tables have turned” he chuckles thinking of his encounter with Jungkook “It was him…I saw him” he glances at each of them, they all were listening to him attentively “Hyun bin” their expressions changes to that of confused, before anyone can question him he speaks again.

“That Jungkook guy, he is the one” they all gasp looking at each other.

“He..he didn’t recognize me” tears falls down from Taehyung’s eyes. Jin quickly pulls him in a hug.

“Hyung I want to see him again…may be he didn’t see me clearly, it is not easy to recognize people in one glance” he looks in Jin’s eyes who just pats his back in assurance.

“Are you sure, he is the one?” Jimin questions looking at Taehyung, he nods.

“I can never forget that face Jiminie”

“Oh Tae, he was all this time known to us, we were in the dance practice together, he is quite popular there, has quite a busy love life..he recently started dating another girl and he is a het that’s for sure” Jin and Yoongi glares at Hoseok who shuts his mouth.

“He can break up with his girlfriend” Namjoon says pushing his spects back, making Jin grins in agreement.

“Wait don’t plan things so soon, don’t you think first we should totally make sure he is the one, I mean none of us has known of that person except Tae here, we need to get evidences to make him believe we can’t just kidnap him and tell him to like Tae because they are incarnations of old lovers, he would find us crazy” they all nod.

“At least some of us have brain” Yoongi says eyeing Hoseok, who just huffs.

“I…I want to find out that too, but I am scared now”

“Don’t be we all are still alive, you are not alone” Jin assures him, he just nods sighing. He can feel a pull an ache to look at the boy again but he pushes it away for a while, though his friends now gave him the clue where to find the said boy.

They chatter for a while and leave as it starts getting dark, it’s when they all are out Taehyung searches for Jungkook, he makes out certain things about the boy, he is 21, from busan, is in business studies, has a girlfriend name Yeri, a party man, loves dancing and travelling, is in Seoul for quite a long time. He at least knew now where to meet the younger, he smiled thinking that even in this life Hyun is still his Junior.

My baby.

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Taehyung woke up early next day, got dressed and went out to the commerce department, he didn’t knew their class schedules, Jungkook’s preferably so he thought of waiting till he sees the younger, hoping that the other will be present for class. He didn’t inform his friends about it, they may or may not like the idea, he just wanted to see him, just a glance would be enough for some time, so there he waited near the building where Jungkook most probably be. After a long wait of an hour or so when he thought of returning back and take help from Hoseok in it, he heard the loud laughters of the group. He quickly looked into the direction.

There his breathing stopped as the group walked in his view, he saw that smile he can never forget though it pained to him that he was not the reason of that smile anymore, Jungkook was happy with his girlfriend, Yeri, laughing and making jokes that made her giggle and push him away half heartedly. Jungkook as if sensing his presence looks in his direction, his smile wiped from his face, he stares at Taehyung for a while, they just look at each other for a brief moment, Jungkook questioning eyes and Taehyung now teary eyes, he felt a little hope rise in him maybe Jungkook has finally recognized him but when he watches other shaking his head in disappointment and mouthing a ‘creep’ his heart shatters, he cannot be this much brave he knew, Taehyung tried hard not to create a scene not to let his lips tremble thanks to the girl that nudged on Jungkook shoulder and dragged him towards their class, it gave chance for Taehyung to wipe his tears immediately that fell on his cheeks without being noticed by Jungkook, he turns away as fast as he could when he sees Jungkook was about to look back in his direction.

He walks towards the dorm heartbroken, he always dreamed of his meeting with Hyun bin again never pictured it to be something like this, he waited for the younger but the later doesn’t even have a memory of him, cannot recognize him, he goes to his room checks himself in mirror, has he changed, is he not like Seungho that Hyun bin used to know, should he grow his hair again like before, why has not something stirred in Jungkook looking at him, he wipes his tears furiously, he laughs at his misery, how this time it is his lover that he has to fight for claiming his love.

“Tae…are you in there?” Jimin knocks on the door.

“Yeah” Taehyung splashes water on his face quickly, trying to avoid Jimin’s judging eyes as he walks out of the washroom.

“What did he do this time?” Taehyung was speechless, it was really difficult for him to hide anything from Jimin.

“What you thought I wouldn’t come to know, I didn’t stop you because you deserved it, you have waited long enough, meeting him once again won’t be a harm but if he did something tell me” Jimin looked angry, Taehyung just smiles, squeezing Jimin’s hand.

“He can’t help it, he is short tempered, bad mouthed, competitive but also he was really good at heart Jiminie”

“Yeah that qualifies Jungkook, though about good nature I don’t know that we will see” Taehyung chuckles hearing that.

“Incarnations also couldn’t change nature, they are so perfectly glued to our soul” his eyes water.

“Seungho changed him then, Taehyung will change him now, let me get to him I want to know what he thinks about all this” Taehyung nods as if something clicking on his mind he goes to his wardrobe and starts looking for something, Jimin looks at the neglected food and then at Taehyung puzzled.

“What are you doing?” he asks losing patience.

“Got it” Taehyung comes to him with a box in hand, as soon as he became self dependent, he started looking for the evidence of their existence, his doctor suggested him just to ensure that it was not something self made, our mind can play dangerous tricks beyond our imagination. Jimin was there when he went to search for Seungho’s family, it was an emotional journey, he got the address from the school that he studied at and when he met them it was all tears and sobs, Seungho’s father was no more alive, there was just a woman, his mother who recognized him instantly, he had a sister too who lived in States with her family now. Jimin was beyond shock it was something he could never dream of, their longing, love and pain, from that day onwards he knew Taehyung was the bravest person he knows.

Taehyung searches through the papers and other contents in the box, some he took from Seungho’s home that his mother gave him, other he collected from more searches here and there, overall he was not crazy, not ill but a special one.

He sighs followed by a smile as he takes out a photograph from the box, it was an old one, it’s color turned to yellow a bit, but was still clearly visible he passes it to Jimin, eyes fixed on later as he watches the photo, Jimin’s hands shakes a bit, eyes wide in surprise.

“Holy Shit” Taehyung looks at the photo fondly.

“Now you believe me” it was the photo of Hyun bin, who looked totally like Jungkook just the hairstyle has changed, he was in school uniform with a yellow border and maroon knitted sweater, paired with grey pants and white shirt beside him was Seungho, tall and lean with the same school dress, he looked quite different with hair reaching his neck, Jimin always asked how was that hairstyle allowed in school to which Taehyung only gives him the smug look. He had his arm wrapped on the younger’s waist, both smiling brightly.

“How could I not recognize him when I saw Jungkook?” Jimin questioned more to himself.

“I don’t blame you Jim, it can happen, it is me who sees him frequently in dreams not you, you can forget”

“Tae…” Jimin looked sorry, Taehyung shakes his head.

“It is okay don’t fret over it, I am thankful to the past me who had the guts to take Hyun on a date and have a photo of us in a studio, and to my mom who kept it as it is” he felt nostalgic looking at it.

“What are we looking at?” Jin snatches the photo making Jimin groan.

“Slap me Tae that I forgot to lock the door and let these morons get in” before Taehyung could respond Jimin gets a smack from Namjoon and Jin yells.

“Holy cow” the others joining in to have a look at the photo too. They gasp together.

“Photoshopped?” Hoseok asks getting a smack from his boyfriend.

“That’s Hyun bin and Seungho” Taehyung mutters shyly.

“Shit” four of them yell together. Jimin groans again.

“Wow Tae you were handsome and Jungkook looked like…” Namjoon looks at the photo positioning his spects.

“Coconut head” Hoseok answers making everyone gape before they burst in laughter.

“Okay let’s eat first, we can check other things afterwards” they all agree with Jimin digging into the meal.

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Jimin and Hoseok were sitting in their dance class, resting after the rigorous practice, Jungkook falls on their side taking out his bottle and drinking the water in one go, both friends watch it their eyes shining as they start up with their act.

“So Hoseok what do you think where should we go for the trip?” He asks loud enough for Jungkook to hear. Hoseok tries to think quite a show off Jimin grimaces but had no option so goes with the over acting.

“What do you think Jungkook? Do you have any place in mind?”Hoseok asks so cheerfully Jungkook splutters water from his mouth.

“Why asking me? Think by yourself” He shrugs wiping his chin. They try not to groan in annoyance.

“Have you been to Gwangju while still young?” Jimin asks, he knew Seungho and Hyun bin were from Gwangju.

Jungkook looks at their serious faces thinking for a minute before shaking his head. They feel disappointed. He has no memory of it.

“What if one day somebody comes to you and says he knows you, you met him at Gwangju what would you say?” Jimin wanted to slap Hoseok then and there.

Jungkook looks at them making a face “You both are weird” he answers.

“What if one day you realize you were gay?” Hoseok couldn’t control his mouth. Jimin mentally face palms, he very much wished for Yoongi to be here.

“The hell is wrong with you, I would never swing that way, is your whole group the same, I saw one of your friend looking at me in questionable way, like dude tell him I am not you people okay, he is a creep” Jungkook answers irritated.

“Whom did you call creep? How dare you say a word about him, do you know about him or what he is going through?” Jimin grabs his collar, gaining the attention of others in the dance studio. Hoseok tries to stop him but he shrugs other.

“What is wrong in that, stalker and creep he is, I don’t bend that way tell him to look for somebody else or get him a doctor” Jimin doesn’t answers him instead lands a punch on his jaw, that starts a fight between the two, Hoseok drags Jimin out while other handles Jungkook. In short, the plan was flop.

When Taehyung comes to know about the incident and reaches his dorm, he finds Jimin pacing in the room while the others were sitting patiently, as soon as Jimin sees him he huffs looking down on the floor. Taehyung hugs him.

“I told you he is a brat” Taehyung says calmly.

“Seriously why him of all the people” Taehyung smiles, “It looks like I am re living 80s, I was bombarded with the same question back then”

“Give him a chance” he says looking at them.

“He has no right to say anything about you”

“But I acted like creep and may be do it again” he rubs his nape.

Namjoon sighs “Jimin he cannot be cured” he points at Taehyung. “But is no one going to question Hoseok here” he adds and they all turn to look at Hoseok who cowers muttering a small sorry.

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Taehyung was sitting in the campus garden his camera focused on the black bee that was sucking the nectar from the flower, the sound from his camera made the bee to fly away as Taehyung watched it go his eyes travels to the figure walking there, it was Jungkook in black glory, as much as he wanted to look at him, his hand itched to take few snaps he resisted the urge, some students already questioned him about the stalking rumors. He started packing his things when his eyes stop on the pair of shoes. He looks up at Jungkook who was already looking at him in anger, Taehyung was used to it, nothing new. He just stares like usual, he can’t help it after having seen him for a long time he just stares to memorise his features, every edge of his face, every mole, every scar. Jungkook rolls his eyes.

“You followed me here?” he asks voice irritated. Taehyung doesn’t answer just stares.

“I thought the show that day was enough to stop you” he continues, Taehyung still remains quiet, stands up, brushes his trouser and hanging his bag on his arm he turns to leave but Jungkook stops him grabbing his elbow, they feel strange sensation, warmth running through the touch, both looking at each other in shock, Jungkook quickly removes his hand.

“What is your name?” Jungkook asks.

“It will always be Hyung for you” Taehyung says voice confident. Jungkook raises his brow.

“Have we met before? Like before you looking for me like that” he clarifies, Taehyung just rolls his eyes.

“Would you believe it if I say yes? You look already impatient enough to judge others” Jungkook looks down reminding Taehyung of Hyun bin, his eyes softens, he controls his tears.

“My friends did nothing, the life they chose has nothing to do with you, they are happy with it, don’t do that again and for me I am Kim Taehyung, a student here and can roam and watch anything that I want to see”

“Woah! Calm down Taehyung” Jungkook chuckles.

“Nuh huh! It’s hyung for you baby, find me again next time staring at you till then bye” Taehyung pats his cheek lightly walking away, Jungkook just looks at him shocked unable to say a word, his touch still left sensations on his cheeks.

“Don’t call me that” he shouts back after sometime.

Taehyung chuckles not stopping his steps, he could hear Hyun bin too saying the same thing, tears starts flowing down his cheeks but he smiles, smiles on his fate.

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It was raining quite heavily when Seungho walks out of the class, he stops near the exit where other students were already standing waiting for the rain to slow down or running out in the rain not patient enough, some held their umbrella to save themselves from getting drenched. Seungho just stood there looking at the rain drops falling on ground, he was tired and upset, his friends already left he was busy with some school duties his teacher gave him, he was upset with the way Hyun bin’s brothers were threatening him, he never wanted things to escalate, it was all fun so where did he slip to be in this situation, he was deep in his inner turmoil when he saw an umbrella in front of him.

“Hyung, I brought it for you” smiles Hyunbin as he hands him the umbrella. Seungho looks the other way.

“Hyun haven’t I told you to stay away from me or your brothers will come to me again to have friendship with someone of my status only” he felt bad thinking of how they threatened him to stay away from his junior and be in his lane.

“I don’t care, I can decide on my own whom to have friendship with moreover I don’t think it’s just friendship anymore” Seungho could see the blush on the younger’s cheek as he shamelessly excepts it but doesn’t comment on it, he had so many thoughts going on his mind.

“Hyun you are not mature enough, it is just a phase you will regret everything, go to your friends don’t come after me from now on” his voice sharp, he walks out in the rain not listening to the call of the younger or bothered by the rain that made him totally soaked, his inner turmoil was more a serious matter right now, if he looked at the younger now or turned back he could not stop himself from having the other in his arms and would never let him go, yet he can’t be selfish, Hyun’s brothers were right he is just a pathetic middle class, they are both boys, they can never be together what was he thinking falling in love with somebody so easily, his tears mixes with rain as he walks to his house all drenched and tired.

Taehyung feels someone touching his face, he opens his eyes and sees Jimin looking at him sadly.

“You had tears flowing from your eyes” he says wiping the tears away.

“Just one of those dreams” Taehyung answers, his throat dry from the panic he felt having that occurrence of memory.

“Are you fine? Want me to stay?” Jimin asks. Taehyung’s eyes moves to his t shirt, Jimin was heading out and he wouldn’t want other to look after him while stopping on his own schedule so he shakes his head muttering a ‘I will be fine’ and pushing Jimin away to go to whatever he was up to. Jimin was reluctant but obeys leaving him behind but not before placing a kiss on his forehead. Times like this Taehyung feels grateful to have Jimin by his side.

Jimin walks to the dance studio where Hoseok was already waiting for him, he and Jungkook were banned from dance classes for a week and now they can finally be there whilst things were settled down. Jungkook was there too but the two avoid each other busy in the practice. It was when the practice was over and students left the room that Jungkook calls to both of them. They turn to look at him expecting another fight but Jungkook surprises them.

“Sorry” he mutters almost like a whisper looking at the wooden floor, both the seniors were surprised unable to say anything. Getting no answer, he looks up.

“I…I think Gwangju will be a good place to visit, though I have not been there ever” he tells them awkwardly not actually looking at them. They just stare and keep staring even when Jungkook looks at them feeling more out of place with their gaze, they keep staring mouth slightly open. Jungkook loses it.

“Will you two just keep staring” he asks rather annoyed, they close their mouth.

“Uh…yeah yeah….Gwangju yeah…never been there really? Yeah you said so but still acts same” Hoseok blabbers Jimin awkwardly smiling and agreeing, Jungkook just watches and huffs tiredly.

“You people are so weird” he walks past them.

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Taehyung was sitting in Yoongi’s café going through his camera, he had a portfolio to submit and still not started with the work, he feels the café to be the best place to think about it, Yoongi walks towards him with an iced tea, sitting across him.

“What are you doing here alone?” he asks, Taehyung just sighs.

“Lots of work Hyung, I don’t know how to complete it, please give this peasant a place in your palace for next few days I get ideas here” he joins his hands. Yoongi smirks.

“Try more” he says with a smug.

“Is this one of your kinks that I unfolded” Taehyung gapes. Yoongi stands up.

“Get lost”

Taehyung kneels down grabbing his leg “I will be a good boy hyung, just give me free food and place for few days, please” he says tugging at Yoongi’s leg who looks around to the few customers looking at them and then at Taehyung.

“When did meal come into the picture?” he asks brows raised.

“Hyung how can you expect me to sit empty stomach here, show some mercy Oh! Lord of Grains and coffee beans, please look after this peasant he will shower you with praise and prayers for well being” he bends his head, Yoongi was about to say something but his eyes falls on the group of students, Jungkook one of them, Jungkook looks at the two, his expressions shocked then walks with his group to take a seat avoiding them. Yoongi pats Taehyung head who also saw Jungkook, smiling smugly at him.

“Permission granted” he says, the other stands up.

“I literally have no image left in this life to maintain in front of him, isn’t it” Yoongi just pats his shoulder in amusement. Yoongi was going to leave him there when Taehyung stops him “Hyung can you do me a favor”

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Yoongi walks towards the group stopping near Jungkook, they stop talking all looking at him as he places a banana milk in front of Jungkook.

“It is a thanks for apology from Taehyung and kid just remember we have eyes on you if you said anything for that boy again” he warns walking back to the counter. Jungkook and other look at Taehyung who was leaving the café, Jungkook turns to look at the banana milk then quickly stands up running towards Taehyung, Yeri calls him but he avoids them. He walks out of the café.

“Taehyung” he calls instantly adding “Hyung”

Taehyung halts turning to face him “It’s you that has started following me now” he says looking at Jungkook with warmth which Jungkook couldn’t avoid.

“How do you know that I like banana milk” he asks impatient.

“There are many things that I know about you, it is you that thought otherwise” Taehyung looks him in the eye.

“Should I be scared” he laughs taking it as a joke. Taehyung just stares.

“Want to know?” Taehyung asks, seeing the doubt in Jungkook’s eyes he couldn’t stop himself.

“I know you don’t like to lose, you are short tempered bad mouthed but afraid to hurt people’s feeling, you try to look tough but is scared of a bug, you are very protective for your loved ones and afraid to harm them, you are brave enough to fight for what you love, you are still young but act big for the sake of your family, you cry if sad though you hate doing it, you want somebody to understand you, you like ice cream, banana milk, and donuts with lots of icing, you are untamed for others but listens to the one you love, you hate it when someone touches your hair but want it to be carded by your lover, you wanted to be strongest for the one you love-“ Taehyung has tears in his eyes all he could see was Hyun bin standing there looking at him with a smile, pink tint on his cheeks he looked proud of Taehyung for remembering him but this could only be his imagination. Jungkook had tears in his eyes which he doesn’t even realizes.

“I….how…were we childhood friends..how?” he tries to speak against the feeling of knot in his throat.

Taehyung chuckles “I am scared you won’t believe me if I tell you about it, nobody did when they first heard about it” Taehyung wipes his tears.

“Tell-“ Jungkook was interrupted by a hug, he wipes his tears quickly looking at the person, none other than Yeri.

“Kookie what are you doing with him, we are waiting for you” she says. Jungkook looks at Taehyung and for the first time he notices Taehyung’s eyes and notices the longing as he watches Yeri hugging Jungkook, he feels his heart break looking at his senior, Taehyung meets Jungkook eyes, feeling betrayed his tears falls and fearing of exposing himself to the younger he turns around running away from the two.

“He is weird” Yeri says watching.

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Jimin hugs Taehyung spooning him, as the later buries his head in his chest, trying hard not to break down. Taehyung doesn’t need to tell him what happened, he can make it out on his own, in his own ways. He gives a kiss on Taehyung’s head.

“Sometimes I wished for you to not to be special one” he says.

“Me too” Taehyung says weakly.

“And other time I wanted to be Hyun bin” he chuckles making the other smile tears flowing from his eyes.

“Things would have been so easy” Taehyung mutters. “I would have been living the happiest life”

“You regret it?”Jimin questions.

“No, never”

“Not even after meeting that idiot with horrible attitude”

“I am here for him, I feel like I was born again to be his” Taehyung clarifies.

“Don’t you want to meet your old friends?” Jimin asks for a moment he felt like he was talking to Seungho, who was he kidding he was always with Seungho with a different name now.

“No, let them be busy with their lives believing they had a friend who is dead moreover most of them would have forgotten me it has been around 40 years, it will only complicate things”

“Tired” Taehyung nods in answer “Then sleep now, I am here, we all are, you are not alone in this” Taehyung knows it and that is what keeps him grounded.

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Namjoon and Jin take the matter in their hands fed up with all the drama, they feel like they are the most mature members in the group and so they meet each other to start with the plan. When they find Jungkook he was near his department waiting for his girlfriend, Namjoon goes to Jungkook while Jin opts for stopping his girlfriend in mid way they know she can be a hindrance, he was confident he can woo her by his charms.
Jin goes inside the building looking for Yeri, it doesn’t take much time for him to find her, he blocks her way making her look at him puzzled and a little nervous.

“When I asked people who Yeri is they told me the prettiest one to exist and you indeed here looks like the only one qualifying it” Yeri looks at him in awe, his smooth words making her blush, she shyly looks at him.

“And who are you?” she asks tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.

“That’s not important, what important is can I get your precious time?” Yeri was lost, but she tries to regain herself trying to show she is not easy to get.

“As much as I would wish to I am afraid my boyfriend is waiting outside” Jin gasps.

“Boyfriend. I should have known a pretty lady like you can’t be single, but I don’t think I saw someone outside waiting while coming over here” he gives a charming smile.

“Oh my god, you are too much, why I haven’t met you before?” she says blushing “Wait, I think I know you” Jin feels his confidence waver.

“Ah..no you wouldn’t have” he smiles awkwardly.

“Are not you one of those weird’s group member?” she looks at him keenly. Jin was about to answer when his phone rings, he picks it up quickly seeing the caller was Namjoon.

“I am two seconds away to slap this boy he is so ill mannered, are you sure he is the one”

“Yes that qualifies him to be the one, you got him?” he looks at Yeri who was trying to move but he blocks her way each time.

“But does he qualifies for our Taehyungie? He gave me a headache, wanted to fight with me Jin I would have died…SINGLE” Jin pushes the mobile away from his ear, rolling his eyes, his friends are so dramatic “I convinced him somehow he said yes as soon as he heard Taehyung’s name”

“Good let’s meet at Jimin’s room, Taehyung is at the café” they disconnect. Jin looks at Yeri.

“Yes I am in that too good for you to understand group, my work here is finished bye” he runs off avoiding curses yelled at him by Yeri.

He reaches Jimin and Taehyung’s room where the others were already sitting with an angry ball glaring at them. Jungkook was angry that they tricked him to meet Taehyung, they were not at all fazed with the allegation.

“So you looked up for Taehyung” Jungkook tenses a little when Jimin questions.

“I am not afraid of you all, I will complain the authorities if you did something to me though” he says, they notice he is still young Taehyung was right about him. Jungkook doesn’t want to tell them he stalked Taehyung online.

“Listen we are here because we are losing it now, you both are progressing in a speed of a nail, and we have no patience, do you know Taehyung has never even looked at any other person or touched them just because he was waiting for you?” Hoseok says not bothered with what Jungkook uttered.

“I have to go my girlfriend is waiting for me” Jungkook clenches his jaw.

“There is something more serious than that, we are not playing games here” Yoongi speaks.

They hear the shuffle in the lock all holding their breath as the feeling of dread passes through them when they see the one who entered the room. Taehyung locks the door behind him turning to look at all of them in surprise.

“Hey guys” he waves his hand, then his eyes darts to Jungkook letting a gasp slip his mouth “What is he doing here? What is going on?” he asks them.

“Oh we..just-“ Jungkook interrupts Jin.

“They tricked me into this and now trying to threaten me” he glares at his hyungs.

Taehyung looks patiently at each one of them then sighs closing his eyes “Whose idea was it this time?” he asks exasperated.

They all point towards Jin including Jungkook, Jin feels betrayed. “It was Namjoon too” he whines.

“Tae I think we should tell him, we can’t see you like this” Jimin says walking towards the other.

“He is not ready yet Jim, he will be scared” Taehyung says.

“For what?” Jungkook asks standing up, “though they are all weird but I came with him because I wanted to know what you wanted to tell me on that day”

Taehyung nervously chews his lower lip looking at his friends who gestures him to just go on. He walks towards the cupboard taking out that box again and sits on the bed telling Jungkook to sit on his side, he complies.

“Please listen to me patiently and till the end” he says to the younger “I always had the fragments of memories since childhood of two boys madly in love, first it was not very clear then I put the pieces together and could understand it, my parents consulted doctor who came to the conclusion that this could be the case of reincarnation” Jungkook chuckles shaking his head.

“How am I a part of it?” he asks impatient. Yoongi grunts in annoyance but doesn’t comments.

“Because you were one of those boys” Taehyung says trying to read other.

“And the other one was you” he laughs “Seen so many movies Taehyung haven’t you? Uttering nonsense, or is this a joke you are hiding a camera or something” he looks around none of them laughs.

“Jungkook” Taehyung says almost a whisper.

“What kind of shit is this?” he asks.

Taehyung opens the box “See it for yourself” Jungkook goes through the papers that Taehyung took from school of Hyun bin and Seungho existence, their photos, single and together. Jungkook stands up terrified.

“Listen this is getting ugly, please stop it, I don’t know what wrong I have done to all of you, but please stop, I am not what you think I am, this is not me, it can be edited or something, I am not even gay for god sake”

Taehyung stands up holding his shoulder, it calms Jungkook he wants to deny but it feels good, he doesn’t like it but he feels home, still he pushes him away, getting out of the room. Taehyung stops Jimin who tries to go after Jungkook telling him to leave the younger alone, he picks the contents of the box, carefully keeping it again like a treasure, hides his eyes in his arm and starts to cry.

Needless to say they don’t see Jungkook for two to three weeks and after that starts the saga of his avoiding them.

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Seungho was surrounded by boys of a gang. He had to face things like this sometimes, it is easy for boys of his school to team up and bully people if someone voices against them then they had to deal with the consequences too, that’s how he found himself surrounded by bullies, he looks at each of them, knew very well they have come prepared, he just tries to think of the way to tackle them while they keep on terrorizing him, two boys come forward to hold him, Seungho dealing with them easily, he had dealt with these things before too, but they were 7-8 and he alone, soon he got tired and was held by them, they kicked him holding him in place as one of them lunged forward with a bicycle chain in his hands to attack Seungho, he knew he would go wounded and bleeding from there, but the attack doesn’t reach him, he opens his eyes as he hears a weak cry of pain and sees the similar dark locks, he thrashes as he sees who it is, his eyes going wide in shock.

“HYUN” he shouts in fear as he sees blood on his junior’s hand. The gang shocked too, they all knew who the boy was.

“What have you done? Do you know who he is? We are doomed let’s run from here” they leave the two behind.

Seungho quickly turns Hyun bin to face him, horrified to see the cut on his cheek and wrist that was bleeding but Hyun bin just smiles. “Hyung I saved you”

“I told you to stay away from me, why did you come in between” Seungho asks frightened for the junior, he tears up hugging Hyun tightly in fear of losing him, he pulls the younger in his arms hurrying to the infirmary. Hyun bin just nuzzles closer to him, inhaling his scent as if trying to overcome the time Seungho avoided him. He was finally where he wanted to be where he longed for. He holds Seungho close even when the nurse checks on him and wipes the blood.

“This cut is deep it will need stitches and you have to tell me how this happened I need to inform his family about it, don’t let him move much I have to make a call” she leaves the two behind.

Seungho was still shaking when Hyun bin holds his hand with his other one, more tears falls from his eyes at the contact.

“Why? What if something more serious happened to you?” he sobs.

“I wanted to protect you I cannot see someone harming you, I am not a kid as you think, I know what I am doing” Hyun bin says tolerating the pain bravely. “Hyung please don’t avoid me, I want to be with you, only you” he begs.

Seungho kneels down resting his forehead on younger’s knees “I am sorry, please you don’t understand, you scared me I thought I would lose you, I love you don’t do this ever again I love you I can’t see you like this” he cries. Hyun bin couldn’t believe his ears, his eyes shining more happiness evident on his face.

“Really hyung, I knew you do, then you won’t push me away now?” he says a little breathless as the other stands up looking at him. Seungho rests his forehead on other, kissing on it. He moves away as he hears the footsteps of the nurse. Hyun bin family takes him to hospital for stitches, making the two lovers to stay apart, that time was the toughest for the two.

Taehyung blinks several times as his friends barges into the room, taking his laptop away from him, pulling him up from bed, handing him clothes and pushing him towards the bathroom.

“We are going for the party” they inform him, not even listening to his protests and whine, it was final.

He comes out wearing a silk white shirt, and black skin fit jeans, Jin looks at him walking closer to him opening first two buttons of his shirt. “That would do, rest is your charm that will help” Taehyung just rolls his eyes following them to wherever they decided to take him. They knew he is missing Jungkook, the younger is not even in college for several days, even if he was he still didn’t want to meet Taehyung, it was best for them to distract Taehyung from all this for some time, they knew he would agree, they won’t give him a choice. He was never interested in college parties, not a fan of drinks but his friends were. They were hooligans but seeing them so excited and prepared for the party he couldn’t deny.

The party was quite lively, loud music and sweaty bodies dancing to whatever song was being played, they were all mostly drunk, some dozing off wherever they found the place quite a ruckus, Taehyung just holds his soda laughing and looking at his friends who were dancing like there was no tomorrow throwing their bodies on each other they were so drunk.

“Seems like you need another drink” Taehyung flinches with the close proximity of the person, he looks at his glass then at the person who was smiling at him, Junghwan his classmate.

“I was not in a mood to fill it, already had enough” he says looking back at his friends, they were yelling the lyrics of the song, what an embarrassment.

“That’s a shame I thought you can have one with me, don’t worry, it will be of your choice” Taehyung wanted to say no but not able to form a way to decline he agrees with it, asking for the soda only. Junghwan smiles walking towards the kitchen and in few minutes comes back with two glasses, handing one to Taehyung while sipping from the other one, his eyes trained on other, Taehyung smiles at him, bringing the glass to his mouth but before he can have a sip, Jungkook snatches it from him drinking all the content from it.

“Jungkook” Taehyung looks at him in shock, he came out of nowhere.

Jungkook glares at Taehyung “Hyung, don’t you know to never let your guard down in parties like this”

“So you drank it?” Taehyung looks at him in shock.

“Excuse me but that drink was for my friend” Junghwan interrupts in between. Jungkook glares at him.

“Sorry to break your bubble but he is here with me I will give him more drinks you don’t need to worry about it, right Hyung?” he asks. A feeling of déjà vu runs through Taehyung he feels euphoric all of a sudden.

“Uh yeah right” he answers as Jungkook glares at him. Jungkook pushes the boy away grabbing Taehyung’s wrist and pulling him towards the garden, out from the loud music.

They stand there, Taehyung waits for the other to say something, “I went to Gwangju, to that school I saw in the papers, seems like you were right about the boy, and may be looked like me but I still can’t put me into it” Taehyung looks horrified.

“You didn’t look for your family did you?” he asks pulling Jungkook by his arms to face him a look of fear on him.

Jungkook takes off his hand “No I had no intention to, why are you so alarmed and please it is not me stop saying it like that” he answers.

Taehyung closes his eyes in relief “Never do that again please” he pleads through his eyes too.

“I won’t, Taehyung that’s not what I am here to tell you. I just want to make it clear that” he feels a little dizzy in his head but ignores it “I have a girlfriend, I love her and though there may be somebody like me before, it is not me, I don’t remember a thing like you do, it is not me” he says holding his head feeling dizzy all of a sudden cursing to Junghwan.

Jimin walks out angrily standing in front of Jungkook “You, how dare you make my Tae tae sad huh! Let’s have a fight” he was not even able to stand straight, Jungkook rolls his eyes while Taehyung tries to pull Jimin away from him but Jimin was too wasted to care and the next thing they know is he puke out on Jungkook who shouts angrily at Jimin and pushes him away, Taehyung was confused whom to look after, his friends just come out in time to hold Jimin he quickly goes to Jungkook side giving him water to clean himself, who was feeling so disgusted just wanted to rip the clothes off, Taehyung takes him to the kitchen, getting a towel to wipe him.

“I am going to kill him” Jungkook was losing it.

“I am sorry on his behalf” Taehyung says holding the towel not knowing whether to do it by his own or give it to Jungkook.

“My life was so better without you all” Jungkook mutters and it felt like a blow on Taehyung’s face but he doesn’t say a word, handing Jungkook the towel who glares back at him.

“I am not going to clean it, either you do it or call your friend” he growls. Yoongi comes to them giving Taehyung a shirt, he may have borrowed from somebody. Jungkook looks at it, gesturing Taehyung to open his shirt buttons, Taehyung does so a little nervous with their position, Jungkook was sitting on a counter and he was between his legs, quite close, he doesn’t give a glance at Jungkook, his focus was only to get the task done and get out of there, he was getting suffocated there, as soon as the shirt opens and reveals Jungkook’s chest his eyes falls on something making him exhale in schock, he pulls back, his breath hitching, he looks back at Jungkook who was frowning by his behavior while peeling off his shirt and wearing the new one, not spending any more time there throwing his shirt in the bin he walks off, leaving Taehyung who kneels down there crying holding his chest, he hear faint sounds of somebody asking him if he was okay and before he could answer he blacks out again.

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“Hyun! Wait!” Seungho shouts smiling as he chases after his giggling Junior. Hyun bin stops as he looks at the green valley in front of him, eyes shining in delight. They hiked the mountain for long to reach the place and it was worth the effort.

Seungho follows him looking at the scenery “It’s beautiful oh god!” he was amazed, it was so green, calm and quiet the air fresh to breathe they close their eyes as they feel the breeze blow their hair.

“I told you it is beautiful” Hyun bin says proudly who brought Seungho here, he cups his mouth shouting out loud “I love you Hyung” it echoes making Seungho eyes go wide, his eyes showed the love and adoration he has for the younger as he watches Hyun bin eyes closed and just listening to his love confrontation echo in the valley in pure bliss. He opens his eyes looking at the elder as if encouraging him to go ahead and do the same. Seungho does so.

“I love myself too” he laughs as he sees the betrayal written on the younger’s face and runs from the place scared of getting smacked by his boyfriend who chases after him, both their laughter echoing in air.

They walk towards their home holding hands both smiling happy with the way things were going. Hyun bin stops a few metres away from his house to bid goodbye to his senior, who was not in a mood to leave, clinging to him, he pushes Seungho playfully who doesn’t even budge caging him in his arms, the alley was quiet giving them the needed privacy.

“ Hyung, let go” Hyun bin says half heartedly. Seungho just shakes his head bringing his face closer to the other, his focus on the younger’s lips, they were pink and soft and Seungho wanted to taste them, something in him not wanted to let the younger go to his house not today, he wanted the boy in his arms, he was being protective for no reason.

“Can I?” he asks for permission, Hyun bin shivers a little as he nods anticipating the kiss. Seungho wastes no time crashing his lips with the other, it was softer than they look, sweeter, a taste he could die for, it takes no time for their tongue to move lips to part more to have a taste of each other, both feeling drunk in the pleasure, their hold get tighter on each other, both not wanting to break the blissful feeling, but Seungho do so after a while panting in need of oxygen, he leans his forehead on the other’s whispering how much he loves the younger, they were so lost in each other that they didn’t notice the footsteps approaching them.

“HYUN BIN” they flinch hearing the voice that they know so well, pulling apart to look at the source.

Hyun bin trembles in fear, his blood running cold looking at his father who was not in a good mood glaring at the two, there were his brothers too with several other men working for his father. His father was in politics and right now they were on loose with the democratic revolution on its peak in Gwangju there were many people walking with weapons and Protestants on the road, Gwangju was about to write history with a revolution and blood. Hyun bin’s father, Sung mo was quite rich businessman his family had access to all the powers, they were a known face in the society, his aura was dark and authoritative, his now wrinkled face showed the darkness he has, he shows no mercy when he is angry, Hyun bin was loved by them but he was also no exception when it comes to his anger, he hates only one thing his family putting him in disgrace, everything was controlled by him, he told his family to be ruthless, merciless like him, think other below them because they are, he had planned everything for his family their education, marriage and career and wanted them to follow it blindly, he was authoritative and Hyun bin would have been like him had he not met Seungho.

“A..Appa” he says in fear, cowering with the glare his father throws at him.

“This is what I send you to school for?” he growls making Hyun bin flinch more scared of what is coming next, Seungho holds Hyun bin’s hand pushing him slowly behind him, not wanting the younger to have all the wrath down upon him.

Sung mo shakes in anger looking at their hands “You stinking worm, how dare you have your filthy hands on my son” he was losing it, his eyes and face getting red with anger.

“Appa, I love him” Hyun bin couldn’t hear insults aimed at his boyfriend.

“Shut up” Sung mo roars making the two move back a few steps in fear, they were still young, he looks at his son beside him who nods and quickly walks towards the lover pulling them away and dragging them to their home, both Seungho and Hyun bin looks at each other, scared, not for themselves but for other.

They are thrown in the room, Sung mo walking in last and closing the door behind. He had rifle now in his hand, Hyun bin looks in dread at his father. Sung mo was glaring at Seungho, aiming the rifle at him, it was just like one of those british rifles. Seungho gulps in fear his mind was blank, he didn’t knew what to do, he wanted to see his family for once, his little sister before dying, he didn’t want to die yet, he wanted to live, for his family, his love, they had just started being together, he had just started living. Sung mo was looking at him like he was filth in their house, they were powerful not like the bullies in the school. Then his eyes falls on Hyun bin who had his hands joined for him, begging his father to let his boyfriend go, at this point of time too he felt happiness wash over him by looking at the younger just like it felt when he first saw him calling his name and grabbing his collar. Seungho knew he could die for the younger. He knew he will always then to see a scratch on the other.

“Appa Hyung has nothing to do with it, I forced him to walk me home” Hyun was pleading to his father, Seungho didn’t miss the way the weapon that was pointed at him shifts to Hyun bin, his brother slaps harshly on Hyun’s face making him quiet for a while.

“Stop it please” Seungho shouts “he didn’t do anything I forced him from the beginning, I forced him to realize that he loves me, I was the one who wanted this to happen he is innocent he just saw me as a friend I made him say that he loves me, please he is your son he will do as you say leave him, I am the culprit here.” Sung mo kicks Seungho on the chest, Hyun tries to protest but his brother holds him from the arm.

“You garbage, you all are, thinking ahead of yourself, you are a disease to society tainting my son like this, how dare you infect my son, you are not good to be kept alive for the well being of us.” The other men present there nods in agreement, hatred evident on their faces with the way they looked at Seungho, he felt himself so small but he has to be strong for the younger. Sung mo loads his rifle giving Seungho a few seconds to look at Hyun bin. Two men goes to tie his hands behind his back. Sung mo doesn’t want him to struggle much as he shoots him.

“Hyun, can you close your eyes, imagine that place we visited today, I want you to shout again that everything will be fine can you do that” they both have tears in their eyes, Seungho was trembling his voice shaking, he felt like an animal about to be slaughtered but doesn’t want to show it to the younger, he was sweating and panting.

He closes his eyes as well seeing the other do so, he hears the younger say out loud, “This is not the end we will meet soon, look for me, I love you Hyung” and before Seungho could stop him he hears the sound of fire but it doesn’t hits him, his eyes goes wide as he sees the blood pooling out from Hyun bin’s chest right on his heart as the younger looks at him in pain, the stars in his eyes losing their shine, he closes his eyes falling dead on the ground. Seungho hyper ventilates, thrashes himself looking at the lifeless body of the younger.

“HYUN…NOOOO…he was your son…Hyun please get up please, please, please” his nightmares becoming true but he couldn’t move the hold was too tight on him, he shouts in pain, cries for the younger to wake up, his hopes going down as the blood starts to pool from the lifeless body of his lover, he cries, he cries so loudly, his heart ripping apart, he couldn’t bear it.

“So noisy, he paid for going against me, I disowned him on the street itself not worthy to be my son, there is already going to be a revolt here, it won't be a big deal adding you two in the list of lost lives” Sung mo says loading his rifle again, not an ounce of guilty in his voice or face, Hyun bin brothers were shocked but quite didn’t looked at the body lying there, didn’t had the courage to shed a tear. Seungho wanted to touch the younger not listening to anything that was said he wanted to look in those eyes and smile he wanted to hold that hand again but the other was not moving not even a bit and then he feels the pain himself he looks down at the blood from his chest, he smiles, he smiles because that’s what he wanted now, he wanted to be with younger.

“I will wait..look for yo-” he whispers before falling on the ground dead, their blood mixing making a mess on the ground.

Taehyung pulls open the shirt exposing the chest of Jungkook, there he sees it, the mark, as if made from a bullet he knows it well he has one too, it was because of him that it happened, he used to irritate the younger, enjoys teasing him, started having feelings for him the moment he saw those eyes, he was the one that didn’t avoid Hyun when warned to, he was the one that didn’t let Hyun go when he was about to go to his house, he pulls back, dread evident on his face, past memories flashing in front of him and then slowly everything quietens.

There was no one to tell him that Hyun bin was meant to meet him, they were destined to be together.

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Jungkook was sitting in the garden listening to his girlfriend telling him about something that happened in class, he was trying to pay attention in class but could not, there was a pain in his chest, he tried to ignore it but of no use, he could not focus on anything his mind going to the beautiful male he rejected two days ago, those eyes that shows all the emotions so openly, happiness, fear, pain, love and longing. Jungkook tried to remember if he has actually a past but nothing it was totally blank, he was scared of liking a man, maybe he was homophobic, he cursed his life to be turned like this, he was happy with his girlfriend three months back, things were so different at that time, he should not think of anything else, he pulls her in a hug nuzzling in her neck, but it was not like the warmth he felt when Taehyung touched him, why did he felt like home when being with that boy. Yeri smiles pulling him in a kiss, he looks at her closing his eyes.

“Taehyung has never even touched a person just because he was looking for you” he shots opens his eyes as he hears Hoseok’s voice in his head pulling away, Yeri looks at him questioningly, disappointed with the action.

“What is wrong with you? Are you okay? You don’t look good for the past two days” she asks looking at him with a frown.

“I don’t know, I am trying to figure it out myself” Jungkook was irritated with himself.

“Is it because of that faggot” she asks huffing.

“Mind your words” Jungkook almost growls making her flinch.

“I..I thought” she composes herself getting up “ Nevermind, sort out your shit then come to me” she walks away angrily. Jungkook was still trying to understand what took him over to shout on his girlfriend, Taehyung was messing with his head living his life while he was not able to pay attention to anything, he stands up annoyed, he need to take out his anger and will do that on none other than the one caused it.

..

Jungkook groans as Jimin glares at him opening the door to his room “What are you doing here?” he asks, not in a mood to let the boy in.

“I am here for Taehyung, so please move” he says trying to look in the room for the one.

“First you rudely breaks his heart several times then you shamelessly stands here wanting to meet him again when you so clearly said you are not interested in him” Jimin was fuming.

Jungkook scoffs “Listen here I don’t want to waste my time on you I have to ask him something, just tell him I am here” he says irritated.

“He won’t be able to talk to you in first place, have you ever thought of what he goes through? Your homophobic mind never lets you wonder what he is going through right, you feel like he is enjoying his time giving you misery huh, and what misery I don’t see much you are having good time with your girlfriend while he here cries silently in the nights, he waited and looked for you patiently since childhood, since he understood the memories, he would have further if not met you, he would have ended dying single but I think even if he met you he would still end same way because of some promise he made to himself while having that terrible end, the end that gave him a scar on his chest, that he treasures and cries, he always feels sorry and guilty, he blames himself for what happened-“

“What scar? What end are you talking about?” Jungkook asks feeling nervous his hand reaching to his chest unconsciously.

“Right, you didn’t even bothered to hear him till the end, he here is lying in bed in high fever after coming from the party, muttering only your name and sorry and how guilty he is for dragging you into this, end it Jungkook tell him to move on only you can, tell him to let go of Hyun bin, they were not meant to be, he is crazy to think that what didn’t happen then can happen now” Jimin’s eyes water as he wipes them not to show how weak he is feeling too for his friend he lets Jungkook in who quickly goes towards Taehyung’s side touching his forehead that was burning, he looked weak. Tears slowly falling from his eyes on the pillow, Jungkook wipes them away, all anger replaced by concern.

“Tell me Jimin Hyung…How it ended” he asks looking at Jimin, who just looks at Jungkook seeing a glimpse of Hyun bin in him, that Taehyung describes often to him and so he tells him.

Jungkook cries as he starts picturizing their end, his grip tightens on Taehyung’s hand for comfort as Jimin fills him with the details he sobs when Jimin ends it wiping his tears. Taehyung goes through it almost daily, he couldn’t believe it, how harsh he was with his words and attitude towards other who was just asking for his love who knew him more than he himself. He pulls away the blanket a little up to Taehyung’s waist and looks at Jimin asking for permission who just nods for him to go ahead, he carefully opens the shirt button to have a look and there he sees the scar similar to his that he always questioned on how it got there, that his doctor told was because of something broke and pierced his skin but of course Jungkook never had a accident before. He got the answers now his lips tremble so does his hand he falls back shocked landing on the ground, he opens his shirt button and sees the same scar, Jimin’s eyes almost bulges out, gasp coming from his mouth, Jungkook cries like Taehyung said he did, kneeling in front of Taehyung holding his hand asking for forgiveness.

Taehyung opens his eyes hearing the cry, he looks down surprised seeing Jungkook in that state, he tries to sit up. “Jungkook” he calls voice hoarse, his throat being dry.

Jungkook looks up moving forward instantly sitting on the bed and hugging Taehyung tightly. “Hyung” his cries muffles in the skin of Taehyung who holds him weakly rubbing his back.

“It’s okay baby, it is not your fault, it never was, I never blamed you” he whispers.

“I am sorry” he cries, Taehyung just shushes him. Jimin leaves the two alone, he could not be there it was too emotional for him.

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Jungkook breaks up with his girlfriend, he couldn’t let Taehyung suffer any longer, he understood now why he was never in a permanent relationship, he was not just with the right one, he started spending more time with his hyung, they look at all the pictures Taehyung had of them and laughed at his hairstyle too, Jungkook liked his present hairstyle better though Taehyung was fond of the bowl cut one he looked more cute in that, Jungkook also apologized to all the hyungs for the trouble he caused them, he enjoys their company now though he still call them weird, two months passed by too quickly and Jungkook realized one thing, he can’t live without Taehyung presence by his side, he grew fond of the elder, he now understood the meaning of love, he now understood what he was missing and longed for, he now gets how Hyun bin so easily fell for his Seungho, he has started loving Taehyung too, it felt so easy so natural, Taehyung always had his eyes on Jungkook, he always cared for the younger first then himself, though he still treats him like a kid and Jungkook tries hard to prove that he is not but that only makes his hyung coo at him, in vain, it always goes like that. Taehyung displayed his love for the younger in the exhibition, poured all the feelings there, Jungkook wanted to hide, he felt so shy, Taehyung was really something when it comes to loving someone, though there never passes a day that he apologizes for their end, and Jungkook was tired of saying it is okay, it was meant to happen, he is happy to fall in love with Taehyung.

The only thing Jungkook feels bad about is while Taehyung remembers everything he still does not any, he knows that Taehyung is scared of it too and always mumbles in sleep to not leave him it is because of this that Taehyung never crossed his line with the touches or skinship with him, though he ached for it and he know the other too wanted it so much but he is still waiting, it troubles him now he is ready but Taehyung still backs away, he thought being in love with same gender would be awkward but with Taehyung it was so easy he wanted to have more, he wanted their love life to escalate a little than to just hugs and simple innocent touches, he is no more afraid he can wish for more lives like that. He jokes that they actually infected him getting curses from his hyungs for that.

Taehyung took Jungkook to Daegu to his parent’s house telling them he found what he was looking for since childhood, they were beyond shock not believing after seeing Jungkook and spending time with him too, they thought they were dreaming just as Taehyung felt but were happy for them too so was his mother in Gwangju, she was old but recognized the younger, she was happy for Seungho and could die now peacefully. Taehyung took Jungkook to Gwangju to spend vacation and also Jungkook thought maybe being there could make him recall memories, their friends tagged along too getting a reason to travel. They hiked the mountain to reach the spot where they last enjoyed their free time, it was still the same as beautiful as ever, the place was now turned into a national park, the group watches it in awe, liking it there, Jungkook was a little jittery as he was about to say something to Taehyung that he had kept to himself for a while. He looks at Taehyung who was enjoying the scene, he looked so peaceful Jungkook wanted to just stare at him.

“Hyung..” he calls slowly, Taehyung hums in response slowly opening his eyes to look at him the smile still plastered on his face. Jungkook just stares.

“Did..did you recall something?” Taehyung asks his hopes getting high, Jungkook doesn’t like to see the disappointment in other’s eyes but he sees his as he shakes his head. Taehyung holds his hands in his squeezing it.

“We can wait, I have no problem, you can take your time” Jungkook hates it, he doesn’t want to wait Taehyung has waited already he too, now no more he has lost his hopes, he can no longer.

“What if I don’t remember it at all, hyung I am scared too, I am scared of losing you, can’t we go on like this, why do you feel so far away being so close, you know I just want you close, don’t push me away, you never touch me the way I crave and I know you too, I want you hyung am I disappointing you” he looks down, an old habit of him, back from 80’s.

Taehyung hugs him tight “I am sorry” he pulls back “I didn’t know you were suffering all this time, we don’t need your memory of us we can always make new one better than the old one I just want you, I love you, you can never disappoint me, never baby, Hyung is sorry, I thought you needed time to adjust with the changes, with me, I didn’t realize it I am hurting you, I love you so much baby” Taehyung says smiling, unshed tears in his eyes. Jungkook takes a deep breath his eyes shining in happiness, he never felt before.

He cups his mouth looking at the valley and shouting out loud “I love you, Hyung” he closes his eyes focusing on his voice echo and as it does, he looks at Taehyung smiling his oh so bunny smile and Taehyung feels like he couldn’t breathe.

“Hyun” he calls looking at him a little nervous, in time like this he could see Hyun there. He glances at his friends on both the sides they were shocked too like him and mouths, they didn’t tell him.

Taehyung looks back at Jungkook who was still smiling. “Hyung” he says pouting, Taehyung chuckles, he turns to shout as it was his turn to.

“I love my bunny too” He shouts and Jungkook smiles wide, Taehyung pulls him closer crashing their lips, pouring all the love he felt in that kiss, he wanted to show how much he loved Jungkook. He breaks the kiss looking at Jungkook who was surprised with the action, he leans his forehead on the other, he knew they don’t need to fret they are destined to be together, it is their fate Hyun bin was for Seungho and Jungkook is for Taehyung, he will recall it eventually, they are pushed closer as their friends joins them in the hug squeezing them.

“Finally” they say together, their laughter echoing in the valley.