Archive of Our Own

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"Mizuki? Who is that?" Asked Kanade for my dismay. I felt so angry, I mean mizuki has been away for a week but how could they forget them.

"What are talking about K?! Amiya, Akiyama Mizuki, our editor? Helo??" I said slightly raising my voice, clearly letting them know how dumbfounded I was that they were asking this question at all.

"Ena. Calm down. We don't even have an editor yet, we are still looking for one. There's no one named Amiya in our group and there never was."

I sat there in silence slowly trying to comprehend what was being said to me. How could there be no Mizuki. The cute, annoying, full of themselfs, sweet Mizuki. You mean to tell me they didn't remember them? At all?!

"I think I need some time off. Going to go to bed early today." I said, leaving the call without hearing what they had to say.

How was this possible at all? It wasn't. This must be some kind of joke. Yeah that's what this is, Mizuki got them in on it somehow to mess with me. This had to be it.

I got up from my chair, storming out of my room straight in front of Akito's as I bashed the door open waking him up in the process.

"Ena? What the fuck?? Do you know what time it is? It's fuckin 3 am and-" I cut him off.

"Shut up Akito this is important."

"More important than my sleep? You sure?"

"Mizuki, you know who Mizuki is right? My pink-fashioned friend. You've seem them." Asking with my voice trembling a bit, getting more nervous as I felt my stomach turning itself inside out from anxiety.

"Mizuki who? I've never heard this name. Is that some online friend of yours?"

Trying not to fall to my knees as the realization was begging to set in. Nobody remembers Mizuki. If this was a really a joke there's no way Akito would be in it.

They have all forgotten Mizuki. This was actually happening.

"Ena? Is that it? Can I go back to sleep now?" I didn't even answer as I left his room, closing the door in the process.

"Ena?? Hello?? Oh fuck it" I heard him, as I left to the corridor, going back to my room. Letting my body drop itself on bed.

Mizuki was gone? There's no way. This could not be happening. They were so close to coming to terms with themselves, to being able to share a part of them with others, with me. As soon as I started thinking that I may never hear them teasing me, being annoying, having my back when I need them, hearing their cute voice going Enanan~ as they'd laugh at my annoyed face. I may never go to our usual spots, stargaze together. Before I could realize, tears were rolling out of my eyes. I was crying, a lot. I was crying at the possibility of never seeing them again. Even worse, of no one not even remembering them. I could not allow this, after so many time and effort Mizuki put themselves in trying to open themselves a bit, in their own way. I held my sheets tight as I could, using the pillow to snuff out my cries.

After some time, trying to recollect myself and feelings. I took a deep breath and tried to think about this logically. There's no way someone can forget others this easily. Specially someone like them.

I picked up my phone, clicking on the "Untitled" video on my screen. After some seconds, I was in the empty SEKAI. This place must had something to do about Mizuki just disappearing completely.

"Miku?? Where are you?" I asked as soon as I saw the white and gray field.

"Ena? I'm here. Can I help you?" Turned around to see Miku sitting down next to some gray box made from the SEKAI, playing cat's cradle.

"Miku thank god. I think I'm going isane. Please tell me you remember Mizuki. Our dear annoying pink friend, you know the one right? Please don't tell me you've forgotten them as well." I felt water slowing forming in my eyes again as I got the last of my hopes up.

"Mizuki? What about them? Did something happen?" Miku looked really confusing as I fall to me knees, holding tight to her dress, trying to hold my weeping. "Ena? Did I say something wrong, why are you crying?" Miku's concern letting itself be known through her tone.

"No Miku you didn't say anything wrong." Getting up, I pat her head with my face a bit swollen. "Thank you Miku. Thank you." Letting out a faint smile. "It seems like only us remember them Miku. I tried talking to Kanade or Mafuyu, even my dumb brother. They have all forgotten Amiya completely. I don't know what to do Miku. What if Mizuki's gone? What if am I the only one that remembers them. I can't live on like this Miku..."

Miku looks at me really confused. "I don't know what happend Ena. But don't give up hope." Looking up at me, trying her best to make a gentle smile.

"You're right Miku. I'll figure this out, I'll bring Mizuki back. I need to do this." I smile back at her as I said my goodbyes, leaving the empty SEKAI, fiding myself back at my messy room.

Paper rolls all over the floor, my PC still ON as I checked nightcord to see that Yuki and K have already log off, it was 4am after all. I should've probably get some sleep and try to figure something out tomorrow.

"Come on Ena, you can do this. I can do this. I will bring them back.. I need to."

After one of the worst nights of sleep I've ever had, I woke up early thinking this could all be nightmare but after arriving at school and asking around a bit, they also had forgotten Mizuki.

I spent the intire day forcing myself awake, thinking about all that's happend. Why was I the only that remembers them? I mean, we were close, I probably had a crush- No, I did not had a crush on them. But even so, for nobody else to remember them at all. Why do i remember Mizuki? I spent the rest of my school day thinking about it.

After classes had finished, I decided to visit the rooftop. The same rooftop as I made that promise to them. "I will stay by your side forever Mizuki. I will wait whatever time you need to be able to open up about what pains you the most".

I could vividly remember that day. Seeing Mizuki holding back their tears. They were so beautiful as I watched them at sunset, I think maybe there was the first time that I thought that I could do anything to see their smile again. Seeing they suffer so much, made me feel so bad. I wanted to help them, I really do. Mizuki's been through so much, they deserve to be happy.

To think that maybe I'll never be able to help them. To see their smile again... No. I can't think this way, it will only make me cry again. I will bring them back.

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A week passed, as I kept trying everything I could, walked all over our SEKAI, tried talking to Miku over and over. But nothing worked. And one of my biggest fears was starting to blossom.

I was forgetting Mizuki.

It was getting harder and harder to remember them. How was their voice? How did I met them? I can't belive I am forgetting Mizuki. I've been drawing them over and over again so I remember how they look like. Everywhere I look on my room there are drawings of them. To be honest I don't think I'm doing that well lately, sanity wise. I haven't been able to sleep the whole week, tons of unread messages from Mafuyu and Kanade floods my phone's notifications. I've told them I'll be taking some days off Nightcord. I haven't even posted a selfie since this all started.

But I won't forget them. No matter what happens I won't forget Mizuki. As long as i remember them, they still exist.

I need to do something before this gets even worst. Tomorrow I will try visiting their old house, never entered it, but I know where it is. And after staying awake the whole night, fearing I might forget more if I close my eyes, I stand before their house first thing in the morning, noticing it is vacant, with a large "For sale" sign in front of it.

I approached their door, turning the handle, surprised to see that it was opened. As I walk through that empty house, I searched for their room, calling their name over and over. And after some time, i stand before the only room I haven't searched yet. Reaching the handle I closed my eyes, begging this will all be over once I open this door.
Please Mizuki be at your room, making a cute outfit. Make fun of me as a open your door, say something like "Haha Enanan~ You couldn't live a week without me right~". Tease me like you always did, because I can't carry on like this, I need to see you one more time please. I love you your dumbass, how could you disappear like this? Please....

I push it with tears on my eyes.

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Ever since I joined 25N, I've experienced a lot that I haven't before. I started looking up to our encounters every night, it was something new in my boring life since I stopped going to school. At first, I was a bit scared about getting to know new people and making relationships again after so long of trying to stray away from them entirely, but if the worst comes I could just give up. Not like I'm not used to it at this point. But it didn't come to that point, yet.

To be honest, it might soon. As we get closer and closer, the time when they learn about me is approaching, and then it will all be over. I've grown accustomed to given up on people by now, but this time it's different, I've made the mistake of growing to like them, a lot. 

Specially Ena.

After everything we've go through, at first I thought maybe if I tell her, she'll understand and accept me as I am. But that won't happen. Because even if I wish really hard I don't think anyone will ever be able to keep liking me, after they know. I just need to keep lying to her, this way we'll be together forever. That'd be good, right?

But I can't keep lying to her like this. Every time we met it keeps hurting me, seeing her face, seeing her worry about me and not being able to tell her. Honestly I really want to. I really want to tell her everything, about me, about what I've been through, everything- But I can't. Everytime I'd try, those horrible memories keep showing up. 

Why does Mizuki dress up like that?- Right? Such a creep

Those memories haunts me to this day. What's so wrong of dressing the way I do? What's so wrong about trying to be myself? Must I live the rest of my life in my old shell just so to please others? But I couldn't say anything when I heard comments about me. I couldn't do anything besides crying on my own after. It hurted so much. So I stopped going to school, I don't want to hear those comments ever again.

But with Ena it's different, she's a kind girl. Part of me really wants to trust her, but if even she rejects me... I don't think I'd be able to hold my own. I really love her, huh?

I don't even know when this feelings came to be, it all happend so fast. At first, when we met at the sekai, I was really dumbfounded of how beautiful she was, even cuter than her pictures. But after to know her better, it feels like her wonderfulness became even stronger. Her thoughtfulness, caring atitude- And even if she tries to put up a strong front and act like she doesn't care, she really does. She cares a lot about all of us, she even cared about me. The dumb Mizuki that always teased her, that was always joking around.

Nobody ever came that close to try being there for me. Before I knew it, I was already in love with her. When we were together, I'd wish to kiss her, to embrace her. And this just made it all worst. I'm lying to the person I love. 

I can't do this anymore. So I won't.

Some days ago when I woke up, I was on a strange place. It was a bit like the empty sekai, but different at the same time. First thing, Miku isn't here, neither are any virtual singers or anyone at all besides me. Also it is pink collored, there are ton of cute dresses all over the place, with long mirrors along some walls. Tons of sewing tools can be found in pink drawers and they've been keeping me busy this past days. 

I don't really know how long I've been here, but I don't really care. Since waking up here I've been feeling so much better, all my worries are magically gone and I can just stay here for how long I want to.

I'm guessing this place is like a Sekai of my own? Empty sekai was created mostly through Mafuyu's feelings but Miku stated that we all had a part in that world. So this would be my sekai, huh? Mafuyu was right, I was the one that wanted to disappear the most. But now it's all over.

Everytime I slept here, I felt like I was taking longer and longer to wake up. Probably soon I wouldn't at all. But this is for the better I thought. This way I won't have to deal with someone I care about rejecting me.

I'm sorry mom, dad and sis. You did your best trying to understand me. I really love you all. 

I'm sorry Yuki and K. I wish we could have spent more time and get to know ourselfs better. I wonder if K will ever be able to save Yuki, but since its her we're talking about, I'm sure she is. I wonder if she could save me again- Haha, just kidding.

I'm sorry Ena. I loved you very much and I wish I could have told you this before. But I guess it's for the better, no way someone would love liar Mizuki back haha... This was for the better..

And as soon as I laid back to what I thought would be my final time. I heard an unusual noise in this empty world.

"Mizuki??? Please be here" I heard her beautiful voice again, but I must be dreaming right? There's no way she'd be here. "What is this place after all?! It's so messy. Mizuki?!? Please answer, you must be here.... Please" Her voice was trembling. 

"E-ena? What are you doing here?" I got up from my resting place. Finally I could see her, she was a bit messy, her eyes were swollen and dark circles could be seen, but she was still beautiful nonetheless, as always.

"MIZUKI!" She screamed, running towards me and hugging me tightly. "Mizuki, Mizuki, Mizuki, Mizuki.." She kept saying over and over, buring her face on my shoulder. Wait was she crying?...
 
"Ena, I'm here. Calm down, everything is alright, see?" I hugged her back, trying to comfort her a bit. 

She let go of me, holding my shoulders while staring deep into my eyes. I could see her eyes trembling as water gathered in them as she cleaned her face.

And after some time, she rose her hand and slapped my face.

"Ouch! What did do you that for Ena?!"

"You deserve it!! Do you have any idea what I've been through?! I thought you were gone. And worst, nobody even remembered you even existed! Can you imagine that?" As she said it, tears could be seen starting to fall of her eyes again. "I cried so much, I couldn't stand being the only one that remembers you. You idiot!"

Wait what is she talking about? 

"Wait what? Nobody remembering me? What are talking about?"

"It is what I said! It was like you never existed to begin with, even your house was empty did you know?! I cant belive you'd do this to me! I hate you, you idiot, dumb, cute, loving Mizuki!"  I felt my face becoming a bit hot hearing her say this.

"Okay calm down. Sit here with me." I sat down, tapping the cushion next to me. "Explain everything please, I have no idea what you are talking about"

"Okay..." Ena sat down, grabbing my hand and squeezing it tightly. "You won't disappear, right? This isn't a dream, right?..."

"I won't disappear. I'm really here Ena. I'm flattered to know I'm in your dreams though, you must really love me huh~" I tried to ease the heavy atmosphere.

"You know this really isn't the time for that." I could hear the angry Ena voice. Cute.

"I'm sorry~" 

Then Ena told me all about it. About Kanade, Mafuyu or Akito didn't remembering me. How anyone in school didn't either. Not even my family being there anymore and my house being vacant. I really don't know what happend though- I guess this sekai was stronger than I imagine it, must really made my feelings into reality. If Ena hadn't come, I'd probably be gone by know, and no record of my existence would exist. Scary...

"I think I get it-" She's was holding my hand the entire time by the way, I could get used to this. "But if nobody remembers me, how could you do it? I mean I get Miku remembering since this world probably would be connected to the Sekai in some way or another. But how could you?"

"... Uh... I dont really know.." Was ena blushing?? Could she be any more cute? Yeah, of course she could. "I thought about it, but to be honest, I was starting to forget you.. When I woke up yesterday I couldn't remember your voice, or how we'd met. But I've seemed to remember everything once I entered here. Which, by the way, what is this place?" She said looking around, letting go of my hand a bit. Unfortunately.

"When I woke up I was already here. I think it works like a Sekai- My Sekai."

"Have you tried getting out of here?" She played with some of the dresses that were laying around next to us.

"Not really". As soon as I said that she stopped everything, turning to face me, dropping the costume.

"Wait, you serious?" She got up "What were you thinking?!? You have any idea how much I searched for you?! How I felt?!" She screamed at me.

"I'm sorry..." I couldn't make up an excuse for it. 

"I cannot belive you, you didn't even try to leave. Why? Why didn't you?! Answer me Mizuki right now. And don't try to smart your way out of this one like you always do." She stomped her feet.

"Because I didn't want to leave. I wanted to disappear..." 

"Oh..." As soon as I answered her, she stopped herself and sat down beside me again. "I'm sorry for screaming.."

"It's okay. I'm sorry for making you through so much" I really meant it, if I knew she would suffer this much, I would have left here way sonner.

"Do you want to talk about it? You know you can share anything with me..." She held my hand again, sitting in front of me, looking straight into my eyes with those caring eyes. Don't do this Ena, you know I can't resist those eyes.

"I wonder... Can I really?" I said in a low voice, wishing for her not to hear it.

"What you mean? Of course you can! I promised didn't I? I will stay by your side forever and I mean it. I won't leave your side, you want it or not. Even if nobody remembers you... I will be here." She gave me a warm kind smile. God can a girl be this perfect?

I took a deep breath.

"Ena... I will tell you everything now but please... Dont leave me okay?" I tried really hard not to cry .

"I won't. I never will" She hold my hand tightly.

Come one Mizuki, you can do this. Come on. I took another deep breath.

"I wasn't born like this Ena." I could feel my voice trembling as was my hands.

"What you mean?" She held my hand tighter feeling it tremble. 

"The thing I've been holding back from everyone at 25N... Is that.." my words are getting stuck in my throat. I felt my vision becoming blured. God I'm so pathetic.

"Hey relax, everything is alright. I'm here see?" She got closer to me, holding my other hand tightly. 

"I'm not a girl Ena.. But I'm not a boy either. I am, what is known as a Non-binary person." My voice was trembling so much "I was born male but it isn't what I really am. I love cute things, and I wanted to wear cute dresses.. Everytime I saw girls wearing such cute things, it made me feel so bad, having to wear those ugly male clothes. It made me so envy of them..." I felt tears slowly rolling out my eyes as Ena sat in silence and heard me. "When I was alone at house, I caught myself trying my sister's clothes, and they made me feel so good. I felt happy for the first time with my looks. But this isn't normal right?- I mean I'm not a girl, I don't feel like I want to be a girl either. I'm just me- Mizuki..." I couldn't hold it in anymore as the tears didn't stop flowing. "I- I am such a creep right?? I can't even decide whatever I want to be. I'm pathetic right? Now you won't want be my friend anymore and I will leave N25 for good and-" 

"Shut up will ya!" Ena hugged me tightly shutting me up. "You've been through a lot haven't you? A lot of awfull people have hurt you didn't they?"  She carassed my hair as I poured my eyes out on her shirt. I held her, hugging her back.

"Nothing will happen you big stupid idiot. We wouldn't abandon you over something like that. We all love you the way you are Mizuki. I love you..." She held me tighter. Wait did I hear that right?!?

"Wait can you say that again?" I separated myself from her holding her shoulders looking deep into her eyes. "Please I need to record this scene deep into my memory."

"Uuugh, could you not ruin this moment?" She rolled her eyes, looking back at me shortly after "...  I love you, you idiot." She whispered with her face getting hotter. Yep, cute.

"I can't belive this.. I must be dreaming, that must be it. The beautiful Ena loving someone like me?" 

"I might stop if you keep this on!" I laughed "So which is it? Say something geez..."

"Come on Ena, of course I love you too. How could I not? The beaitful Enanan~" I smiled at her, cleaning my face dry.

"Don't you ever shut up?! Ughh... I might know a way." She said as she pushed my shirt closer to her. Next thing I felt was a soft feeling in my lips, seeing Ena's face so close to mine as I kissed her back, hugging her. I wished this moment would last forever. After sometime we pull back.

"Yeah that's very effective. Actually you might need to do that again because I feel like going on and on about how amazing my dear Enanan is~" I teased her.

"Not now. I'm still mad that you tried to disappear." She got up, stretching her hand assisting me.

"Come on Ena. I said I'm sorry~" I took her hand, getting up myself. 

"Nope not enough. You're gonna need more than that." We walked towards the same place where Ena had came from. Finding a closed black door.

As I hold the the handle, I could feel Ena's hand squeeze mine tight- "Hey everything is gonna be okay. I'm here with you. Forever."

"Yeah everything is gonna be okay." I said back to hear. Forever huh? I could get use to this.

I took a deep breath as I opened the door to an unknown future. I'm sure we'd still have to go through a lot, things will be hard for both of us. But everything is gonna be fine because we have each other.

I passed through the door, leading Ena by the hand as we stepped back into our world. Together. Now and forever.