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It was surreal, he was asleep but also awake, he was scared but also calm, he was hearing noises but it was quiet. He had no idea what was going on with him, why was the world stilling all around him while he was lying down? Why was he lying down? Where was he?
“Adam.” Said Sauli lifting a hand into the rays of the setting sun trying to figure out what was going on. The last thing he could remember was agreeing to ‘Dark Adam’s’ plan without knowing much about it. Had it worked? Where was Adam?
He lifted himself up and cried out in pain, feeling as if all the information in the world was being poured into his head. It hurt and he cried out, not a pain in the world could compare to feeling a new pair of fangs push his old canines out as they took over or the river of molted lava that was hurling through his veins or the hunger, the savage hunger of a starving man that was making its presence known.
But none of those things where bothering Sauli, what he was most scared about was where was Adam. What happened after he blacked out? Had the plan failed? Sauli got up and stumbled a few steps before falling again spitting blood. So Adam had changed him, but why didn’t he tell Adam about it. That’s what this was about, Adam realizing that what he refers to as ‘the dark side’ was actually…
“Fuck!” Sauli swore as he realized that Adam must have taken over before ‘Dark Adam’ had a chance to explain. But where did he go? It’s getting close to sunset; ‘Dark Adam’ would take over soon, so he’ll probably come back.
Sauli looked at his hands, he was shaking, the lust for blood was almost sickening, he could smell his own blood from the bandages on the bed. He saw the cuffs with the broken chain dangling on his wrists and snapped them open like they were made of plastic, then he remembered last night. He had never felt that way in his whole life, it was a magical experience, and he didn’t want to lose Adam no matter what. He didn’t care that he was just turned into a vampire, he would to anything for the person he loves; hunt rabbits at night and drink their blood or battle an evil self, which Sauli realized he didn’t have and he wasn’t surprised, he understood why.
The sun had set half an hour ago and Sauli was still pacing around the small cabin waiting for Adam to come back, surely ‘Dark Adam’ had taken over by now.
Sauli stepped out of the cabin, he didn’t feel the incredible cold air as he usually did, but a mass of never before heard sounds invaded his ears. He stood there for a minute trying to focus on hearing Adam but he didn’t. Suddenly he saw something , at the edge of the forest, there was a black and gray wolf, staring at him, into his eyes and Sauli went numb with the sudden shock of realization.
If ‘Dark Adam’ didn’t have time to explain to Adam what he had did then Adam probably thought he was dead, if Adam blamed himself for it then there’s only one thing Adam wanted to do: kill himself.
“The lake.” Sauli whispers as he tries to calm himself down, his emotion being magnified and the stress level becoming impossible to handle. He had no idea where the lake was, he didn’t pay attention, he needed to save Adam.
His panic was interrupted by a loud howl, he looked at the wolf again, it was practically begging Sauli to follow him. Sauli started running and so did the wolf. It was hard to believe for Sauli that he was following a wolf, keeping up with a wolf. Was the wolf actually leading him to the lake?
A few minutes passed and he suddenly lost track of the wolf. He stopped and looked around, but this place looked familiar, smelled familiar, smelled like… Adam! He took a few more steps and he was the lake, he gasped as he saw the uneven way it froze in the middle of the lake, like it had been shattered.
~~~~~Time laps: That morning.~~~~~
“Hmm, you taste incredible, my love.” Adam petted a lifeless Sauli’s hair with softness. “Can’t wait for you to wake up, you’re going to be so perfect.” Then Adam suddenly felt a tear roll down his cheek.
“What the hell? Adam?” Then an excruciating head pain. “No! Adam! What are you doing? S-stop!”
He fell to the floor with a loud noise. Minutes later he got up again but the yellow eyes were no more, just pain filled pale blue ones. He sat down on his knees at the edge of the bed holding his lover had and crying into the sheets.
“Why the hell did I let you go through with this?!” Why did that demon had to touch him? Why did he have to ruin such a beautiful creature? Adam lifted himself up, wobbling numb with never before felt heartache. He kissed his lover one last time on the lips, whimpering as he no longer felt the warmness. There was only one more thing for him to do, and he only hoped it would work.
He was running as fast as he could, tripping onto thing and practically leaving a trail of tears and only stopped as he reached the familiar edge of the frozen lake. He thought about it many times now, how it would feel or if he could do it, but there was no more looking back now, he had nothing to look back at anymore. He walked on the lake and only stopped when he reached the middle. He only had on black boots, back jeans and a t-shirt, things that would offer him no protection from the impossible cold water, not that he wanted protection, he was probably going to slip into subconscious as he drowned.
He took a deep breath and stomped his right foot on the ice as hard as he could, heard a loud crack, then he closed his eyes and as he felt himself being dragged deep down into the dark coldness the only thing he could see was his lovers blissful face.
~~~~~The Present~~~~~
Sauli ran to the center of the frozen lake and dropped to his knees, wiping at the ice trying to see under it, but it was no use, it was tick.
“Adam!” He cried out loud and started crying. Why did he had to do this?! “Please! Adam!” Sauli hit the ice as hard as he could with his fist. Trying not to break it too much so he wouldn’t fall in, when the ice finally gave in Sauli dunked his head into the freezing cold water. But he could see a thing, it was profound darkness. He hit harder, feeling the bones in his hand break as he tried to make the hole bigger, then he jumped in and felt consumed by coldness, but started swimming none the less. He quickly realized that the lake was huge and deep.
As he came up for air for the 6th time he started crying and shaking violently, he was consumed by hunger and coldness and his aching heart, but sank down again, this time he just relaxed, closed his eyes and let himself be guided by his other senses. He had no idea how much time passed or how deep he went, he was just floating in the deep cold water, surrounded only by darkness. He felt his feet touch something, opened his eyes, but it was still darkness, the he left something, he took a few slow steps then stopped and stretched his right hand forward and felt his fingertips brush against something soft: his lover’s hair. Sauli immediately grabbed him in a thigh embrace, but there was no response, Adam seemed lifeless. Sauli held him tight as he swam as fast as ho could towards the surface, he felt as his contact with reality was fading due to the lack of air but he was fighting through it, trying to find the hole to get out of the water. There was finally light, he could see his lover’s pail face but it was getting hard to focus, and the hole was nowhere in sight, suddenly he heard something, a howl, a wolf howl and he started racing towards it.
He saw it, he saw the hole. He pushed his lover out and the he climbed out, gasping for air and violently shaking and moaning in pain. When he calmed down he saw the same black and gray wolf licking at Adam’s face. Adam still hadn’t regained consciousness and Sauli didn’t know what to do. He climbed over his lovers body trying to cover most of it as the wolf backed off and opened Adam’s mouth to attempt CPR, even if it seemed ridiculous to apply it to a vampire. However when he touched his lover’s lips Adam gasped for air and grabbed Sauli.
“Fuck! Sauli? How?” Adam said through gasps and moans. “You were dead!” Adam said and Sauli grabbed him and calmed him down with a long longed kiss under the moonlight.
“I’m not dead, you didn’t kill me Adam, you turned me.” Sauli said holding him as close as possible.
“Sauli I don’t understand? Why did he turn you? Why am I awake now if it’s night?” Adam said but before Sauli said anything, his own mouth answered it.
“I’m letting you be awake, Adam. Listen to what Sauli has to say.” And Adam looked at Sauli.
“I don’t get it what is he doing?” Adam asked
“Adam, you two are the same person, you only got into this situation because even as a human you couldn’t accept the dark side of your personality, you were just trying to be good, kind, calm and trusting and were never able to face the other part of you, you were unbalanced and the night you were changed that state got amplified and your personalities were split in two.” Sauli took a quick brake to breath and Adam heard the voice in his head speak.
“Remember before you entered that vampire’s room a voice in your head yelling at you that it was a bad idea? Well ‘hy, nice to meet you’.” Adam gasped.
“I think that night when you were turned and you blacked out he took over.” Sauli said.
“Damn right I did, and I killed that motherfucker too!” echoed in his head. And Adam felt a form of relief fell over him.
“Adam, you hated each other all this timeand that was the only thing keeping you too in this form, but he did this, turn me so you and me could be together forever, so you will accept each other and become whole again.” Sauli said with a fragile smile.
“He’s smart and he’s right, Adam, and I would have told you all this right after I turned him that morning, but I fucking forgot that letting you drink his blood would give you power and of course you fucking took over before I could tell you… He is what we need, he is our balance, this is the only way we can live again. Trust me, I would have loved him as a human too, but that would have only lasted for what fifty years? I want eternity with him, he completes us both, he’s perfect in every form. I knew you couldn’t do it, couldn’t turn him, so I did it, for both of us, so we can be happy together forever. Please Adam, I want him, but I could only have him if we’re whole again, and that goes for you too.”
“Agh!” Suddenly Adam was on his knees holding his head and howling in pain.
“Adam what’s going on?” Sauli was holding him tight as he was shivering.
Adam felt everything come back to him, memories that he never had, stuff that he never seen and things that he never did came flying back into his head and then he felt this warm peaceful feeling in his soul, a wholeness that was never there.
“Adam are you all righ-” Sauli gasped as he saw Adam’s face. “Baby, you’re eyes!” Sauli cried out and Adam grabbed him and kissed him breathless.
“I know, thank you baby! You’re the most unbelievable thing that’s ever happened to me, you made me stronger and able accept who I am and I owe you my life, I would love it if you would spend every waking moment by my side. I need you and I’m sorry I didn’t realize things sooner.”
Sauli was brightly smiling and feeling cold tears roll down his cheeks at the same time. He grabbed Adam’s gorgeous face as he stared ant couldn’t believe it as one eye was a shining dark blue and the other one a glistering gold yellow. They did it; they were going to be together forever. They were going to spend a sweet eternity melting in each other’s happiness.
Sauli smiles showing his fresh pair of fangs that only accentuated the beauty of his face.
“You must be hungry my dark lover. Why don’t take some of my blood for now?” a honey sweet but husky voice asked and Sauli only responded by slowly climbing into Adam’s lap and licking a hot line from collar bone to neck and then piercing himself in his lover’s flesh earning a deep hungry moan from Adam that also stirred a wolf’s howl.
“Shh.” A yellow and blue eyed Adam gestured with a finger over his lips at the wolf as his lover continued to feed from his flesh.