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The creature stepped through, followed by Aren.
Loki had imagined the moment too many times in the days since the messenger had been sent. Not consciously, never with the softness it deserved. He had not permitted himself that. Hope, handled too often, became a blade without a hilt. But still, in the sleepless places behind his eyes, he had seen it: the water-light opening, the messenger stepping out, and behind him—
Her. Always her.
For one breath, Loki did not understand what he was seeing.
Sváva. Not the delicate little Midgardian animal had described. Not by any reasonable measure. She arrived like a small arctic omen: broad-pawed, frost-pale, fur ruffled into impossible volume, her expression one of ancient grievance. A snow-bear with whiskers. A queen in exile. A creature clearly prepared to conquer whatever palace had made the mistake of receiving her.
Relief struck Loki so hard he nearly mistook it for pain.
Then he saw who was not there.
The world narrowed.
“Where is she?”
Aren’s face was bloodless from the crossing. He opened his mouth, but no answer came quickly enough.
Loki took one step toward him, and every torch in the chamber guttered. “Where is she?”
The cat chose that moment to express her distaste with interealm travel. She shook herself once, and began stalking away on unsteady legs, as if she had already decided the palace was inadequate but salvageable.
“My lord...” Aren began.
Then the portal shuddered again. Loki turned. For one suspended instant, there was only water-light. Gold. Mist. The sound of the worlds parting.
Then she came through like someone cast out of a storm. Not gracefully. Not ceremonially. One hand pressed hard against her middle, her face bloodless, her hair damp at her temples and longer than memory had allowed. Smoke and sea and inter-realm light clung to her. She took one step beyond the threshold, then another, and seemed to hold herself upright by spite alone.
Then her knees failed. Loki caught her before she touched the floor. For several heartbeats, neither of them spoke. His arms closed around her with a force that was almost pain, and she clutched at him in return, not from weakness alone but from disbelief. He was real. Solid beneath her hands. The scent of him, the shape of him, the cool press of his armor beneath her cheek — all of it was so impossible that for one terrible moment she could not decide whether she had survived the crossing or merely died into the kindest dream fate could offer.
Then his hand came to the back of her head. “Sigrid,” he breathed.
Her eyes closed. The old name struck tenderly. It belonged to the longhouse, to the woman who had forgotten how to speak except when necessary, to snow at the door and smoke in the rafters and a god trying to look less wounded than he was. It belonged to rabbit stew, to wary silences, to chess pieces between them, to the first time she had laughed and startled them both. But she had not crossed worlds as that woman only. Her fingers tightened in his sleeve. “I go by Sigyn now,” she whispered.
He drew back just enough to look at her. Not far. Never far. But enough to see her face, pale from the passage and still marked by exhaustion, her eyes bright with sickness and joy. Her hair had grown. He noticed that absurdly, piercingly, before anything else. Not the short, practical fall he remembered from the island, but longer now, touched with gold as though some quiet fire had been working through it all the years they had been apart. His Golden Lady. Still wrapped in Midgardian clothing. Still smelling faintly of smoke. Still small enough that his arms nearly swallowed her. Still looking at him as if the grandeur of Asgard had not entered her sight at all.
“Sigyn,” he said. The name was soft in his mouth. Reverent. Almost afraid.
Her mouth trembled with something that wanted to be a smile.
“You came,” he said, because all his rehearsed speeches had deserted him.
“You asked.” The words nearly broke him. Because for one terrible moment, after all his waiting, after all his caution, after every strategy and sleepless calculation, he had not known that she would. There should have been a hundred things to say.
Where had the years gone? How had she endured them? How much had he known? How long had he waited before daring to send for her? What had fear cost them? What would haste have destroyed?
But joy came first. Recognition came first.
The impossible had happened. The road had not ended in memory.
The vow had not been buried with the longhouse. He had found her. She had come.
His hand slid down to take hers, and even half-collapsed against him, she felt him bend over it. His lips brushed her knuckles, and the old courtly absurdity of him nearly made her laugh and weep at once.
“Welcome home," he breathed. The words should have been too grand. In another mouth, they might have been. But from him, spoken so low that no one else could claim them, they belonged not to a throne but to the hearth where he had once learned to be warm.
“Thank you,” she whispered.
His eyes darkened. “I have been waiting.”
“That makes two of us.”
He pulled her close again. Only then, with her cheek against him and her fingers curled at his shoulder, did she feel it. He was not changed in the ways mortals changed. His face was still his face. His body had not bent beneath age. His hands were steady, his voice the same velvet blade she remembered. But something in him had worn down. Not broken. Not gone. Weathered.
There was an extra weariness beneath his beauty now, something older than the man she had known in the longhouse. A shadow at the edge of his spirit. A king’s exhaustion, perhaps. Or a prisoner’s. Or a man who had spent too long keeping hidden the self he had once been allowed to become with her.
Sigyn lifted her hand, slowly, and touched his face. Loki went very still. “You are tired,” she said. The words were faint. Realm-travel had left her white around the mouth, and yet somehow she was looking at him as if he were the one who might fall. A brief, brittle smile crossed his face.
“As are you.”
“No.” Her thumb moved once, barely, against his cheek. “More than that.”
He had no answer for her. Of course she had seen it. Of course she had. Others had seen the crown, the armor, the performance, the sharpness he could still summon like a weapon. Sigyn saw what lay beneath it and named nothing more than she needed to name.
Before the silence could become too much, a middle-aged woman stepped forward from the waiting attendants. They both nearly jumped, realizing the room had several guards, a few servants, as well as Aren and the snowbear. The woman was fair-haired, composed, and kind-eyed, though there was a firmness in her expression that suggested she had survived enough royal nonsense to be unimpressed by all of it.
“My lord,” she said gently.
Loki did not look away from Sigyn.
“My lord,” the woman repeated, with the careful patience of one accustomed to healing both bodies and pride. “She needs rest.”
That, at last, reached him. His hold tightened once before he forced himself to loosen it. Sigyn felt the effort. The old Loki might have hidden it behind some glittering remark. This Loki simply looked down at her as though surrendering her to anyone’s care, even for an hour, was a fresh cruelty.
“I am not going far,” she murmured.
His gaze searched hers. “No,” he said. “You are not.”
He turned then, though not completely, and placed her hand into Eirlys’s waiting grasp. The gesture was careful, almost ceremonial, but his eyes betrayed him. He was giving her over as a man might hand a flame to someone else and pray they understood its worth.
Eirlys bowed her head to Sigyn, not deeply, but with respect.
“My lady. Come. We will make the room quiet.”
Sigyn managed the smallest smile. “That sounds like mercy.”
“It often is.”
Loki stepped at once to her other side. Eirlys glanced at him. “My lord.”
“I am walking with her.”
“I had assumed.”
“Then why did you sound as if you meant to object?”
“Because sometimes it is useful to let you hear how unreasonable you are before you do the thing anyway.”
Sigyn made a faint sound. Not quite a laugh. Too tired to become one. But close enough that Loki’s expression changed.
There she was.
Not entirely. Not yet. But there. The woman from the longhouse, looking up through exhaustion with humor returning like fire coaxed from ash.
Asgard was too bright. That was Sigyn’s first considered opinion of it. Not beautiful. Though it was. Not impossible. Though it was that too.
Bright. Bright in the stone, in the walls, in the air, in the faces of servants who looked at her and tried not to look too much. Bright in a way that made her eyes ache and her bones feel waterlogged from the crossing. She would have fallen over from vertigo were she not being supported by Loki and Eirlys.
She had imagined Asgard before. Of course she had. At first against her will, then as scholarship, then as irritation, then as forbidden tenderness. She had read every fragment Midgard preserved, corrected most of it in the margins, and privately cursed poets who could not decide whether the gods lived in halls, clouds, metaphors, or the convenient gaps in their own understanding.
None of it had prepared her for arriving half-collapsed with Loki’s arm around her and a large offended cat stalking behind them like a pale omen.
The corridor opened ahead in gold and shadow. Sigyn tried to attend to it. She was a scholar. One ought to notice first entry into another realm with suitable academic seriousness. Instead, she noticed Loki’s hand at her waist. How carefully he held her. How fiercely. How his thumb moved once as if reassuring himself that she remained under his hand.
“Are all your hallways this excessive?” she asked. His breath caught. Then he laughed.
Only once. Quietly. But the sound moved through him and into her side, and she felt something inside the palace shift, as if a door had opened in a room no one else knew existed.
Eirlys, supporting Sigyn’s other arm, looked forward with admirable composure. “They are more tolerable once one has eaten.”
“Good,” Sigyn said. “I had begun to worry the architecture expected conversation.”
“It often does. We ignore it where possible.”
“I like you.”
“I suspected you might.”
Loki looked over Sigyn’s head. “Do not encourage her.”
Eirlys did not look at him. “My lord, she crossed realms and arrived upright out of spite. I suspect encouragement is unnecessary.” Sigyn smiled.
Loki’s hand tightened at her waist again. The walk to the rooms took both forever and no time at all. Guest rooms, she thought at first.
Then corrected herself halfway there. No. Not guest rooms. Too guarded. Too prepared. Too carefully private. Rooms chosen for her, perhaps long before she agreed to enter them. Rooms arranged by a man who had spent years not asking and still imagined where she might sleep if one day she answered.
Servants bowed as they passed. Some deeply. Some with startled uncertainty. No one spoke. Sigyn felt their curiosity like weather. The Midgardian. The woman their prince had sent across realms for. The woman who smelled faintly of smoke and carried knives in places the palace did not yet know to search.
She lifted her chin. Loki saw and bent his head close enough that his words brushed her ear. “You need not perform for them.”
“I am not performing.”
“No?”
“I am refusing to fall.”
His mouth softened. “A noble distinction.”
“Useful one.”
“Yes,” he said, and his voice lowered. “That too.”
The room they brought her to was larger than the cottage.
That annoyed her immediately. It had high windows veiled in pale fabric, a hearth already lit, shelves carved into one wall, a bed so broad it seemed designed for people with either excessive limbs or little practical sense, and a washroom beyond another door where steam suggested a bath had been drawn. Someone had placed flowers in a vessel near the window. White ones, mostly, with a few gold stems among them.
Sigyn looked at them. Then at Loki. He looked almost defensive. “I did not choose the flowers.”
“Liar.”
“I approved the flowers.”
“Worse.” Eirlys made a sound that might have been a cough.
Sigyn would have laughed properly, but the room tilted again. This time Loki did lift her.
No warning. No negotiation. One moment she was standing between him and Eirlys; the next she was in his arms, gathered against his chest as if she weighed less than the grief he had been carrying.
“Loki.”
“You can be furious from the bed.”
“I am capable of walking.”
“You have demonstrated this heroically.”
“I dislike being carried.”
“That is unfortunate.”
She ought to have objected more. She did not. The truth was that the moment her feet left the floor, the struggle went out of her so quickly she almost wept from shame. Her body had been waiting for permission to stop. It took his arms as permission.
Loki felt it. Of course he did. His expression changed above her. Not triumph. Never that. Fear. Tenderness.
Relief so sharp it looked almost like pain.
He carried her to the bed and laid her down as if she were both flame and blade. The mattress received her with an insulting softness. Sigyn sank into it and immediately hated every century she had spent sleeping on inferior surfaces. “I shall have to reconsider several things about Asgard,” she muttered.
Eirlys drew the coverlet over her knees. “Begin with the bed. It is often persuasive.”
“Traitor.”
“I have only just met you, my lady.”
“I can tell.”
Loki stood beside the bed, looking down at her as though someone had placed the whole of his life somewhere he could see it and not yet believe he was allowed to touch. Eirlys noticed.
“My lord,” she said, briskly enough to be merciful, “she needs food, water, and quiet. The bath can wait until she is less likely to fall asleep in it.”
“I am not likely to fall asleep in a bath,” Sigyn said.
Both Loki and Eirlys looked at her. She narrowed her eyes. “I dislike the two of you agreeing so quickly.”
“It will happen often,” Eirlys said.
“Will it?”
“When you are wrong.” Loki’s mouth twitched.
Sigyn pointed weakly at him. “Do not enjoy this.”
“I would not dare.”
“He would,” Eirlys said. “But not while you are pale enough to frighten him.”
Loki’s amusement vanished. Sigyn regretted nothing.
A tray arrived. Broth, bread, soft cheese, fruit cut into small pieces as if she were an invalid or royalty or both. Loki took the cup before any servant could approach her with it.
Eirlys allowed this, which told Sigyn a great deal. He sat on the edge of the bed. The mattress dipped under him. The movement struck her with such sudden force that the room disappeared.
The longhouse bed. The furs. His weight coming carefully beside her after he had gone to the cold.
The first night he stayed revealed and expected the bed to reject him. His hand over her middle at dawn. The final morning before the sky changed.
Her breath caught. Loki saw. “Sigyn?”
She blinked hard. This was not the longhouse.
The walls were too high. The air too bright. The bed too soft. The world outside these windows did not know the old sea or the path to the village or the place where the shutter complained in wind.
But Loki was sitting beside her. His hand held the cup. His eyes searched her face with the same terrible care. Home, she realized, had never been the wood and roof only. It had been his arms.
She accepted the cup. Her fingers brushed his. The iolite warmed against her throat.
“I am here,” she said.
The words were for him. For herself too. Loki’s gaze lowered to the pendant. “You kept it.”
It was not a question. “Of course.”
His mouth tightened. “I did not know.”
“No.” She took a sip of broth because if she did not, Eirlys looked prepared to personally pour it down her throat. “You hoped.”
His eyes lifted. “Yes.”
The honesty of it entered the room and stayed.
Eirlys turned to supervise the servants with unnecessary attention, granting them the illusion of privacy. Sigyn drank slowly. Loki watched every swallow as if broth were a political matter requiring vigilance.
“You are fussing,” she said.
“I have been separated from you for six centuries. I am permitting myself a little fussing.”
“A little?”
“I am showing great restraint.”
“No, you are not.”
His smile flickered. “No.”
She nearly smiled back. Then the exhaustion rose again, thick and sudden. The cup tilted in her hand. Loki caught it before a drop spilled. He set it aside.
“That is enough.”
“You are not in charge of my enough.”
“No,” he said gently. “But I have become familiar with the signs of your stubbornness exceeding the strength available to support it.”
Her eyes narrowed. “That sounded practiced.”
“I have rehearsed many speeches.”
“Have you?”
“For this moment?” His gaze moved over her face. “Constantly.”
Her anger softened before she could defend it. “What did you imagine I would say?”
“Many things.”
“Such as?”
He looked down at the cup. “That you had made a life.”
“I did.”
“That you would not leave it.”
“I burned it down.” He closed his eyes briefly.
“Aren's face mentioned it.”
“Did he look traumatized?”
“He looked educated.”
The smallest laugh escaped her. Loki looked at her as if that sound alone had justified every crime he had ever considered committing.
“Do not look at me like that,” she whispered.
“How?”
“As if I am proof of something.”
His smile faded. “Are you not?”
The room became very quiet.
Sigyn looked at him.
No throne. No crown. No scepter. No court. Just Loki at the edge of her bed, worn by rule and old grief, holding a cup of broth because her hands had betrayed her.
The face was older in no mortal way, but weathered in the spirit. The beauty remained. So did the danger. So did the man who had once gone into the snow rather than confuse her trust with permission. “What would I prove?” she asked.
His voice, when it came, was low. “That I was not mad to remember the person I became with you.”
Oh. Her throat closed.
Eirlys, sainted woman, chose that moment to dismiss the last servant. “I will return shortly,” she said. “My lord, she is to rest. Not discuss the whole architecture of the past six centuries while failing to eat.”
Loki’s brows lifted. “Architecture?”
“I was being polite.”
Sigyn liked her more every minute. When the door closed behind Eirlys, the room became too large around the two of them. For the first time since the portal, no one watched. No guards. No messenger. No servant. No cat with imperial grievances, as Sváva had apparently been persuaded into a separate chamber by a dish of something worth betraying dignity for.
Only them. The silence that followed was not empty. It was crowded with every year they had not had. “I should have sent sooner.”
The words came without ornament. Sigyn stared at him. There were many answers.
Yes. You should have. No. You could not. Why did you leave me so long? What did fear cost us? What would haste have destroyed? Which grief was safer? Which loneliness was necessary?
None of them belonged to this bed while her body still rang from the crossing. So she said, “You sent when you could ask.”
His eyes closed. The mercy struck him harder than accusation might have. “Do not forgive me too quickly,” he said.
“I have not.”
He opened his eyes. Good, the look in them seemed to say. Good that she would not make it easy. Good that she was still herself.
“But I am here,” she said.
“Yes.”
“And so are you.”
“For the moment.”
She looked sharply at him. Pain crossed his face. “I did not mean...”
“Yes, you did.”
He looked away. The future entered then, unwelcome and cold despite the fire. Loki had a throne, at present. A realm. Enemies. A brother absent or returning. A father whose death or disappearance or shadow still hung too large over everything. Asgard had not become safe merely because she had entered it. Love had not erased politics. Reunion had not ended consequence. Journeys end with lovers meeting. Only fools thought the story stopped there.
Sigyn reached for his hand. He gave it at once. “We have already survived the first leaving,” she said.
His fingers tightened. “I do not wish to rehearse the second on your first day.”
“Then do not.”
A breath moved through him. “Yes, my lady.”
The title struck oddly. Not badly. Not as queen. Not yet. Perhaps not ever in the way Asgard would mean it.
My lady as Aren had said it.
My lady as the dagger had asked it.
My lady as the man who had once slept by her hearth now spoke it at her bedside, not claiming her, but recognizing that she had come.
She tugged his hand. He looked down.
“Lie beside me.”
Every part of him stilled. It was too familiar to her, she almost laughed, though the effort would have cost too much.
“Not like that,” she said. “I am half-dead from your ridiculous realm.”
“I would not have presumed.”
“You are always presuming something. Presume rest.”
His mouth softened. “The bed is too large,” she added.
“It is a royal bed.”
“Then royalty is inefficient.”
“I shall have a smaller one brought.”
“Do not be absurd. Just get in.”
He obeyed. Carefully, because of course he did. He removed his boots and outer coat, laid the dagger on the table within sight of them both, and came to the bed as if approaching an altar and a battlefield together. The mattress shifted as he settled beside her, not touching at first.
Sigyn made a displeased sound. “I crossed realms,” she said.
“Yes.”
“I burned down a house.”
“Yes.”
“I endured your messenger’s coffee face.”
She turned her head slowly toward him. His smile appeared. Small. Real. Devastating.
“Come here,” she said.
He did. Not over her. Not with the heat of the longhouse thresholds. He lay beside her and gathered her carefully against him, one arm around her shoulders, the other resting over the coverlet near her hand. She let her cheek find his chest.
Armor was gone. Only cloth now. Only breath. The old shape. Altered by place. Not erased. For a long while, neither spoke. Then Loki said, “I have missed you.”
Her eyes closed. The words were too small. They could not hold six centuries. No words could. He seemed to know it, because he tried again, voice lower.
“I have missed you so very much.” Her hand tightened in his shirt.
“There,” she whispered.
His breath shook. She felt him bow his face into her hair. “I thought I had invented half of you,” he said. “Memory is an untrustworthy companion.”
“I know.”
“And dreams are cruel.”
“I know.”
“But you are here.”
“Yes.”
“Not a dream.”
“No.”
His arm tightened around her. “Say it again,” he said.
She opened her eyes. The ceiling above them was carved with patterns she did not yet know how to read. Beyond the high windows, Asgardian light moved strangely, not like Midgard’s sun, not like the northern aurora, not like any sky that had watched her wait. But his heartbeat was under her ear. Real. After six centuries, real.
“I am here,” she said.
Loki’s breath left him against her hair. “And you are not dreaming.”
The words undid him quietly. No sob. No grand collapse. Only the terrible stillness of a man receiving what he had not let himself believe would live.
Sigyn lifted her hand with effort and touched his chest once, just above the heart. “Speak to me,” she murmured.
His fingers moved through her hair. “Of what?”
“Anything. Until I sleep.”
“You cross realms, insult my palace, order me into bed, and now demand entertainment?”
“Yes.”
“Merciless woman.”
“Yes. So you know it's really me.”
The old words settled around them like furs. He began to speak. Not of courts. Not yet. Not of Odin, Thor, factions, danger, ceremony, or the hundred violences waiting outside the room.
He spoke of small things because small things had saved them once. Some were real, some were imagined. Of a servant who had tried to teach the palace kitchens to prepare a fish stew from a description Loki had given while pretending not to care whether it was accurate. Of a young guard who feared Sváva more than assassins. Of the first time he had seen snow after returning to Asgard and hated the gold beneath it for not being the right white.
Sigyn listened until the words blurred. His voice became firelight. Then water. Then the hush of old snow on a roof that no longer stood.
Just before sleep took her, she felt his lips brush her hair. “Welcome home,” he whispered.
Sigyn wanted to tell him Asgard was not home. Not yet. Not the palace. Not the gold. Not the bed, absurdly large and far too soft. Not the halls full of careful eyes.
But his arm was around her. His heart was beneath her cheek. His voice had carried her down into rest.
So perhaps home was not the place after all.
Perhaps home was the one who caught you when the world became too much. She slept before she could say it.
Loki did not.
Loki did not.
He lay awake long after her breathing evened, one hand in her hair, the other resting near the dagger on the table. Sleep did not come to him. He did not invite it. Not yet. Not with her weight against him and her fingers still curled weakly in the front of his shirt, as if even dreaming she had decided he was not permitted to vanish.
For a time, there was no court.
No crown.
No father’s voice.
Only the strange pale light beyond the windows, the hearth settling low, the hush of the absurdly large bed, and Sigyn breathing against his chest.
Real.
Not memory. Not mercy invented by exhaustion. Not one of the cruel dreams that had let him wake alone with her name already dying on his tongue.
Real.
His thumb moved once through her hair. Slowly. Barely enough to disturb the strands. The gold in it caught the firelight, and something old in him ached at the sight. The longhouse had never had enough light for gold like this. Only fire, snow-glow, morning, the occasional silver-blue wash of the moon. He wondered when it had begun changing. Whether she had noticed. Whether anyone had stood close enough to notice for her.
The thought sharpened before he could stop it.
Who had stood close enough?
He closed his eyes.
No.
Not now.
She had come. She had crossed. She had burned a home behind her and arrived in his arms with smoke still clinging to her, and he would not poison the first hour of her sleep with the petty cruelties of his imagination.
A soft sound came at the door.
Loki opened his eyes at once.
The latch moved quietly, and Eirlys slipped inside as if she had every right to enter a king’s chamber without announcement. Which, unfortunately, she very nearly did. She paused just over the threshold, took in the scene with one swift glance, and shut the door behind her.
Loki narrowed his eyes.
“I did not summon you.”
“No,” Eirlys whispered. “If I waited to be summoned whenever a royal man required sense, I would have retired out of spite several centuries ago.”
“She is asleep.”
“I can see that.”
“Then lower your voice.”
“My lord,” Eirlys said, with the dry patience of a woman who had once taught princes not to shout in sickrooms, “I have been lowering my voice since before you learned to weaponize yours.”
He looked down at Sigyn. She had not stirred. Her face remained turned toward him, softened by exhaustion into something younger and more fragile than he could bear. One hand rested over his heart. The other had fallen open on the coverlet, palm upward, empty.
Eirlys saw that too. Of course she did. Her expression changed. Not much. Only enough that the sternness eased from her mouth. “She ate?”
“A little.”
“Drank?”
“A little.”
“Did she nearly fall asleep in the cup?”
“Yes.”
“Then she ate enough for the first hour.” Eirlys crossed the room with a tray balanced in both hands. “You, however, did not.”
“I am not hungry.”
“I did not ask.”
He stared at her. She set the tray on the low table near the bed. Bread. Cheese. Fruit. A cup of watered wine. Broth, still steaming faintly.
“For you,” she said.
“I am not an invalid.”
“No. You are worse. An anxious man with authority.” Despite himself, Loki’s mouth almost moved. Almost.
Eirlys came closer and adjusted the coverlet over Sigyn’s shoulder with a care so practiced it became tender only after one looked twice. Sigyn made a faint sound and shifted against him.
Loki went utterly still. Eirlys froze as well. They waited. Sigyn’s fingers tightened once in his shirt, then relaxed. Her breathing deepened again.
Only then did Eirlys finish tucking the coverlet in place. “She needs to rest,” Eirlys said softly.
“She is resting.”
“No.” Eirlys’s gaze moved from Sigyn’s face to his. “She is sleeping because her body has overruled her. That is not the same thing.”
His eyes narrowed. Eirlys did not retreat. “She crossed realms,” she said. “She walked through a corridor full of strangers. She answered you, teased you, reassured you, drank because we told her to, and stayed awake long enough to prove to everyone in this palace that she had not been defeated by arriving here.”
Loki’s jaw tightened. “She should not have had to prove anything.”
“No,” Eirlys said. “But she did. And now, for her sake, you must let her stop.”
“I am not keeping her awake.”
“Not with your voice.”
The words landed gently enough to hurt. Loki looked down at Sigyn again. Her hand still gripped his shirt.
Eirlys’s voice lowered. “She is holding on to you even in sleep.”
His throat moved. “Yes.”
“Because she is afraid you will vanish.”
“I know.”
“And because some part of her knows you are afraid she will.” He said nothing. Eirlys let that stand between them.
Then she said, “That is not rest, my lord. That is vigilance with closed eyes.”
He flinched as if she had touched a bruise.
“I will not leave her,” he said.
“No one is asking you to abandon her.”
“You are standing in my chamber at some unspeakable hour, whispering judgments at my bedside. I suspect you are asking something.”
“I am asking you to love her less selfishly than your fear would prefer.” The room went dangerously still. A lesser servant would have been dismissed for that. A foolish one would have apologized. Eirlys did neither.
“She asked me to stay,” Loki said.
“I heard her.”
“I gave my word.”
“And you may keep it. But not like this.”
His gaze sharpened. “Choose your next words with care.”
“I always do.”
“No, Eirlys. You choose them with accuracy. That is not the same thing.”
For the first time, the corner of her mouth moved. Then it faded. “My lord,” she said, “you know nothing improper is happening in this room.”
His face hardened at once. “Of course nothing improper is happening.”
“I know nothing improper is happening.”
His hand tightened once at Sigyn’s back. “Then why say it?”
“Because the court will not care.” The words cut through the chamber more cleanly than anger could have. Loki went silent. Eirlys held his gaze. “They will not care that she was half-dead from the crossing. They will not care that she asked you to stay. They will not care that you held her because she could not bear to wake alone in a realm that does not yet know how to be kind to her. Gossip does not require wrongdoing. It requires only a closed door, a bed, and a woman with no household of her own to answer it.”
Loki’s expression changed. Not softened. Worse. Understood. “She is my wife.”
“She is not yet known to Asgard as such.”
“She is known to me.”
“Yes,” Eirlys said. “And that is why she is alive, in this room, asleep without a knife in her hand. But the court does not know what you know.”
“The court may choke on what it does not know.”
“It often tries. Unfortunately, it speaks while choking.”
His eyes flashed. “Let them try to dishonor her.”
“And then what?” Eirlys asked. “You will terrify them into silence? Freeze the corridor? Cut out every tongue? A satisfying afternoon, perhaps. A poor foundation for her life here.”
His anger did not vanish. It bent. That was worse. “She should not have to be managed like a political arrival,” he said.
“No,” Eirlys replied. “She should not. But she has arrived at court, my lord. Loved women are not spared politics. They are usually fed to it first.”
He closed his eyes. For one moment, he looked younger. Not by face. Never by face. But by the sudden exhaustion of a man who had thought getting her here would be the hard part, only to find the world still waiting outside the door with knives dressed as manners.
Eirlys let the silence rest. Then she said, “For tonight, let her be attended. Let there be an old woman by the hearth, a healer called, servants bringing broth and water, a maid outside the door who can swear she was cared for and not hidden. Let her wake tomorrow as a lady under protection, not a rumor already being dressed for supper.”
“She is not a rumor.”
“No.” Eirlys’s voice gentled. “Which is why I am here.”
His eyes opened. Outside the room, Asgard breathed around them. The distant passage of servants. The change of guard. The murmuring life of a palace that had already begun rearranging itself around the impossible: Aren returned, a Midgardian woman brought through the Bifrost, the king carrying her away in his arms, doors closing.
A story had already begun.
Loki could feel its shape forming in the walls.
He hated it.
Eirlys watched him understand.
“I do not doubt you,” she said. “Nor do I doubt her. But truth is seldom what reaches a dining table first.”
His gaze dropped to Sigyn. Her mouth was faintly parted in sleep. Her hair lay over his sleeve. There was smoke still caught in it, beneath the faint clean scent of water and the sharper brightness of realm-travel. Midgard and ash and old winter, carried into gold.
“She has no household here yet,” Eirlys continued. “No ladies. No kin. No old nurse to sit beside the fire and glare the truth into anyone who enters. No one in these halls knows how to name her, except by whatever shape we give them first.”
“She is not theirs to name.”
“No,” Eirlys said. “Which is why we must be very careful not to leave them room to try.”
A muscle moved in his cheek. Eirlys’s voice lowered. “Love carried her here.”
His eyes lifted. “Reputation will decide whether she wakes to honor or whispers.” The words entered him cleanly. Honor.
She had crossed worlds with no certainty of welcome except his hand. She had walked through gold half-collapsed and still lifted her chin because she refused to fall in front of strangers. She had lived centuries with no court to defend her and no name that had not cost her something.
He had brought her into Asgard. Now he had to make Asgard understand what had arrived. Not a secret. Not a weakness. Not a woman smuggled into the king’s bed out of loneliness.
His wife in everything that mattered. His equal in every way Asgard would resist. Loki looked back at Eirlys. “What do you require?”
The old servant’s face softened, though triumph had no place in it. “That you let her sleep without needing to hold you together.”
He looked as if she had struck him.
“She is not—”
“She is,” Eirlys said, not unkindly. “Because she loves you. Because she woke in your arms and saw how frightened you were. Because even exhausted, she reached for your weariness before her own. Do not make her spend her first night in Asgard proving she can survive your love as well as the crossing.”
The fire snapped softly in the hearth. Loki looked down at Sigyn’s sleeping face. The protest died before it reached his mouth. Eirlys continued, gentler now. “Sit beside her. Hold her hand if she reaches. Speak if she wakes frightened. But let her body have the bed. Let her sleep without being asked, even silently, to reassure you that she is still here.”
His breath left him slowly. Then, with painstaking care, Loki began to move. Sigyn’s fingers tightened in his shirt at once. He froze.
Her brow creased. Her lashes moved, but did not lift. Loki bent close. “Sigyn?”
She did not wake. Only pressed closer, her voice little more than breath. “Still here?”
His face changed so nakedly that Eirlys looked away. “Yes,” he whispered into her hair. “Still here.”
Her hand relaxed again.
“Good,” she murmured.
Then she slept.
Loki remained bent over her, eyes closed, as if those two words had struck him harder than any accusation. After a moment, he eased her hand from his shirt and held it between both of his. Slowly. Gently. He pressed his mouth once to her knuckles, then laid her hand on the coverlet where she could find him again.
He rose from the bed as if leaving a battlefield. Eirlys did not speak. He took the chair nearest the bedside and drew it close enough that Sigyn’s hand lay within reach. Not on the bed. Not far. A compromise so thin it hurt to look at.
Eirlys accepted it. “For now,” she said. His eyes flicked to her. She arched a brow. “You may glare at me after you eat.”
“I may glare at you before.”
“Yes, but less effectively.”
She poured broth into a cup and placed it on the table nearest his hand. He did not take it.
“My lord.”
He looked at her. “She will ask this more than once,” Eirlys said quietly.
“I know.”
“Not because she doubts you.”
“I know.”
“Because the body remembers what promises could not prevent.”
His gaze returned to Sigyn. “I know.”
Eirlys watched him a moment longer. Then she reached, with astonishing audacity, and pulled the coverlet higher over Sigyn’s shoulder, tucking it securely around her.
“You are cold too,” she said to Loki, without looking at him.
“I am Jotun.”
“You are being difficult.”
“I am king.”
“Also that.”
The smallest breath of laughter left him. It was nearly soundless. Nearly ruined. But it was there. Eirlys accepted it as payment.
She returned to the hearth, settled into the chair, and drew a small piece of mending from the pocket of her apron. Of course she had brought sewing. Loki almost asked whether she had planned to invade his chamber with food, judgment, and needlework from the beginning. He did not need to ask. The answer was clearly yes.
For a while, the only sounds were Sigyn’s breathing, the shift of thread through cloth, and the low murmur of fire.
The realm would come soon enough. The court would ask its questions. Thor would return or rage or laugh too loudly in the wrong corridor. Servants would whisper. Nobles would measure Sigyn by blood, title, use, threat. Asgard would try, as Asgard always did, to translate a woman into a place it understood. Queen. Outsider. Consort. Midgardian. Witch. Weakness.
Loki looked down at the woman asleep within reach of his hand.
No. Let them try. They would learn.
She was not the throne’s ornament. Not his rescued relic. Not a ghost from exile dragged into gold for sentiment. She was the woman who had received his monstrousness without flinching from its danger. The woman who had sent him away rather than let him make love into a cage. The woman who had waited, lived, learned, burned her house, crossed realms, and still arrived with enough sharpness left to insult his hallways.
His wife in everything but law. His home in everything but safety.
Soon, he would have to rise. Soon, he would have to become prince, king, liar, strategist, shield. But not yet. For one hour more, perhaps two, he remained only the man she had come to.
The man who had asked. The man who had been answered. Across the room, Eirlys’s needle moved in and out of the cloth. Guarding the threshold.
Making witness out of propriety. Making room, quietly and fiercely, for Sigyn to wake not as rumor, but as someone already attended with honor.
At dawn, when the first pale-gold light entered through the high windows, Sigyn woke enough to murmur again, “Still here?”
Loki leaned forward at once. His hand covered hers. “Still here.”
Her mouth curved faintly.
“Good.”
Then she slept again. Loki looked toward the window, where Asgard shone too brightly and too beautifully and too dangerously around them.
For the first time in centuries, the sight did not feel only like inheritance or wound. It felt like something that might be altered. Not redeemed all at once. Not made gentle by wishing.
But altered, perhaps, by the stubborn presence of a woman asleep beside him, carrying Midgard smoke, old winter, and yesterday’s ashes into the heart of gold.
Journeys end with lovers meeting. But love, Loki thought, did not end the journey. It made a home at the beginning of the next one.